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Wednesday, January 13, 2021

CHAOTIC DAY

It has been stormy here the past few days, but last night was a whopper: the high winds woke me up periodically through the night … and I prayed the Columbia River would stay put.

The flood level was 21.6 feet last night when I went to bed … and the top-off level is 21.5 feet; so, obviously the Cowlitz River jumped its banks overnight: when I woke up, I canceled my afternoon hair appointment. A haircut is not worth risking my life for – by noon, today, the maximum flood level for the Cowlitz had reached 22.2 feet.

Those poor people – to be hit with flood waters again (last one was in 2015).

I canceled my hair appointment, but there is no way to cancel getting into town to the Post Office to mail off payment for the hospital bills. So … into town I drove. Ocean Beach Highway – the stretch I live along – was littered with torn limbs, leaf litter, tree mosses, ect. from the overnight rain storm that swept through.

If things look this bad in town – where there is very little for the weather to wreak havoc with, I could only imagine what the rural countryside looked like. I didn’t have to imagine for very long: people were more than happy to share their storm damages with me.

There was also a bad wreck on I-5 North, just before the Headquarters Road Exit – it was raining so fast and furious that the saturated ground gave way; and a tree fell onto the freeway, where an SUV slammed into it.

And on Tower Road, up the Toutle, there was wind-blown storm debris all over the roadways … and 2 houses were demolished when trees fell on them (the people escaped okay – shaken, but okay). And the power was out, up that way, too.

Between Castle Rock and Vader - near Strickland Road.
Spirit Lake Highway; up the Toutle.
The Covered Bridge and flooded farm land; seen from Loop Road; in Graysriver.
South Valley Road, in Naselle.

After I left the Post Office, I decided to find Matt’s Custom Meats business and see if I could find beef liver, there (I can’t find it in any of the grocery stores in town): they had it! So, I bought 3 packages 😊 Liver supplies natural iron supplement my body needs: I am severely anemic. Fortunately, I happen to like the taste of beef liver.

I also bought half a Beef Locker Pack, and a big bag of Beef knuckle bones, for bone soup.

Matt's Custom Meats; it took me a while to find the place because I am not yet familiar with all of Longview’s streets. But, I am learning ðŸ˜‰
What I bought this afternoon: the price is comparative to what I normally buy at Stewart’s Meat Market in Yelm.
Hefty Ham Hocks – these things were HUGE!

On my way home, I was feeling on top of the world … but was quickly snapped out of my buoyant mood when I was hailed by a police officer on Industrial Way – the backroad I like to drive home on.

I stopped my car, and he motioned for me to wind my window down: so, I did. He bent into my window and asked, “How did you get here?” I just looked at him (trying not to be a smartass), and said, “I drove.” He followed that up with, “Where did you come from?” I pointed behind my head, and said, “From that way.” (By now, I was wondering what was going on). He said, “That road is closed.” Now, it was really getting hard to rein my smartass side in, but I fought it, and said, “No – no, it’s not; I’m here.” At this point, he was clearly getting exasperated. He said, “This road is supposed to be closed.” To which, my smartass side prompted me to add, “Well, there were cones on one side of the road, but there was oncoming traffic in one lane … and another lane between the truck and the cones, that indicated I should take that center lane: so, I did.” He rolled his eyes, huffed, and pulled out his walkie-talkie; and barked into it. Then he looked at me, and said, “The road is closed from The Lewis and Clark Bridge to Washington Way” – and he points down the road in front of us. I asked, “The whole road?” He said, “To Washington Way, yes.” I said, “Where am I supposed to turn around?” I guess he surmised it would cause more upheaval for me to attempt an in-the-middle-of-the-road-turn, than to just let me continue home … so, he slipped his walkie-talkie back in its holder and said, “Just go.” And I didn’t say another word: I scooted 😉

As I passed him, I caught sight of a mangled car with the front end smashed into the back seat area. Apparently, I had stumbled into a investigative scene. But in my defense … there had been no clear warning to stay off that road; there had been no blinking digital road sign with a detour warning – and the cones being set out, back by the bridge, were set out in such a manner as to indicate there was road work to be done at the Car Wash & Espresso Shack location (for months, there has been road work going on all over town, at different locations). And there had been 2 lanes open for what indicated 2-way traffic movement.

The road was subsequently totally blocked off to through traffic.

When I got home, I opened the meat box from Matt’s, and was very happy with my purchase. Except for the smaller steaks, I broke the other meat cuts down for solo lobo cooking – and I sliced the large sirloin steaks into stew cubes: I eat more stews than I do steaks.

My meat haul with 3 added Beef Liver packs. I believe food is natural medicine for the body; red meat is essential for whole-body well-being.(https://www.livestrong.com/article/407839-the-health-benefits-of-eating-red-meat/)
Beef knuckle bones for bone broth to sooth inflammation – The pain I suffered November thru December this year, taught me that I need to drink Bone Broth.
Snack Packs for hiking.

I consider the meat package purchase a good expenditure: I garden, and freeze my harvests; I buy noodles and rice in bulk, I stock up on condiments … and I bake my own bread: my freezer and pantry are stocked – meat, and paper products, is all I have to fork big bucks out for. And I really only go big on meat because I want quality meat, not that greasy stinky stuff sold in the supermarkets. If I could, I’d grow my own meat too … but I can’t do that, here; and Bob didn’t want to go back to living on a farm.

Bob did agree to let me have chickens, though for a few years – before we downsized, and went suburban: he even built me a Hen House and Hen Pen. But, I did all the tending, and the butchering (which shocked Bob; he didn’t think I’d be able to do it).

Bob rototilled my gardens every Spring for 40 years.
My chickens were Bob’s ultimate love gift to me … it was a real concession: he hated chickens, so when I finally got them, it was a real sacrifice on his part ~ OX


Tuesday, January 12, 2021

SPRING SPROUTING

Spring is born in the chill of Winter.

I have a hair appointment tomorrow morning to get my hair snipped into shape … and I’m going hiking with a friend Friday if the rain calms down from a storm to a light drizzle. 

Right now, it is storming.

And the stormy weather is causing a great deal of chaos, frustrations, and damages.

Astoria, Hwy 30 landslide & info about pending landslides indicators inside the home, and outside property changes.

I was thinking about this stretch of road the other day – it is always a mess at some point along it; with water across the roadway, mudslides that close the road (one year, in the mid-1990’s, a mudslide actually slid a house right off it’s foundation, planting it smack dab in the center of the highway), and landslides. The PNW gets pretty saturated, and when saturation is intense, the land shifts and moves; best to stay home until mid-Spring.

So far, I don’t see any notifications for Skamokawa or Graysriver, concerning flooding or landslides.

But, I did see a post that interested me: and the date is suspect.

Letter to the Editor/Longview Daily News, March 18th, 1969?

My family moved to Skamokawa from Grand Rapids, Minnesota in the summer of 1966 … the highway between KM & Cathlamet was “in” then; and people talked about it pretty excitedly: referring to it as “the new highway”: the new laid blacktop ran right past Ingalls Road, in Skamokawa, where we lived. The newspaper clipping says 1969, but I remember it being in waaay before that; from the KM Mountain to Crown Zellerbach, just outside of Cathlamet, coming from the Skamokawa end. It was before the Skamokawa School was closed, and kids were bused to Cathlamet. I remember clearly because the Fall of 1967 is when we started the school year here, and my eyes were treated to the man who walked past me one lunch break … and would become my husband 7 years later.

I love country life – I may live on the outskirts of Longview now (small town “city”), but my country heart is permanently tied to the country.

The kids and grandkids hate the country, and always talked condescendingly to us about our roots: but I am not ashamed of my country roots.

I wear my tomboy/boondocks background proudly 😉

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8RxInn7tkRQ)

Earlier this morning, when I glanced out the windows along the front porch, I noticed hyacinth leaves, and tulip leaves, poking their way out of the soil 😊.

Grape Hyacinths sprouting in a container in the Leek garden box; I’ll separate the tiny bulbs after blooming has run its course, and replant them in my front flower beds, and in my tulip planter.
Tulips sprouting on the front porch. They will be a welcome “ray of sunshine” under the cloudy gray skies.

I also worked more rows on my Bazzar cache mitts – these mitts are my own design; they are working up quite nicely 😉.

Spring isn’t even here yet … and I’m busily working on Fall and Winter Bazaar items. LOL

MOD Zebra Print Mitts; half way mark.

Can’t wait to see the finished work!

Monday, January 11, 2021

MAKE THE ORDINARY EXTRAORDINARY

How do you celebrate the ordinary to make is extraordinary?

When the dawn melds with daylight, I like to get out of the house and let my senses dance to the music of the sighing of the wind as it breezes past my ears; I like the way my soul sings surrounded by Yeshua’s creation, all around me; I like the way my spirit laughs with the joy of Yeshua’s created wonders of the land.

When dusk becomes darker nighttime, I let my imagination soar with the twinkling of the stars – and brilliant moonshine above me.

And every hour, on the hour: day or night, I reach for my dreams of a richer, fuller life.

I know Elohim goes before me to prepare my destiny; If what I want is in His Plan for my life … I will have it. I dare to dream big ðŸ˜‰

Let life’s hum rejuvenate your soul experience: time doesn’t stand still.

Every minute of every day is a new discovery: savor the moments, and make them special.

Sunday, January 10, 2021

GETTING IT DONE

First thing this morning; before my eyes were even fully awake, I unsubbed from a widow’s group. I had been debating with myself about the decision for a few weeks (I wanted to see if things would calm down between moderator and members: it hasn’t); but it was clear to me from last night’s activity, that things were escalating. So, while my mind was saying, ‘just do it, Val: get out before you get sucked into the drama” … I opened my laptop, pulled the group up, and poked ‘leave group’.

Immense relief.

I meant it when I said a few posts ago, I am eliminating anything that sucks more life out of my days than it infuses.

Weeks ago, I bought a cartridge of ink to put in my printer, and set it in the alcove – waiting to be slipped into place.

And every day for weeks, I have walked past the alcove … glanced at the cartridge of ink: and kept right on walking.

How can something so little – and so simple, make me feel so clumsy and insecure?

Because I am not a ‘delicate flower’ … 

… I am an aging tomboy. Gentleness is not my strong point. There was a pretty good chance I could jam the thing, and I can’t afford a new printer. So, I would glance at the package waiting to be opened and slipped into place, and scoot past the open doorway as quickly as possible, thinking, “Nope – not today”.

And some days, I could actually feel that little thing mocking me as I scooted past it. If the thing could laugh, mocking laughter would have echoed off the hallway walls.

I don’t know what was different about this morning, but when I glanced at it on my way down the hallway, I felt up to the challenge: I straightened my shoulders, picked the box up – tore into the box (I did mention I am a tomboy girl, right?) – looked at it a good hard minute, and said, “today, you are going in … and you better not give me any trouble about it.”

I plugged the machine in, opened the lid – removed the old cartridge/replaced the new (praying to God I wouldn’t shove it too hard) – lowered the lid, and obeyed the digital text demands.

Riding high on that tiny success, I got to thinking that Spring is coming up … and that means Sunday~Fundays 😊

If Elohim wills, I will be getting back to my Sunday adventures with the arrival of Spring 2021. I will not be bound & tethered with the fearmongering tactics biden and inslee are trying to force.

Most of 2020, I went to places Bob and I used to frequent together: this year, I want to spread my wings and try new places – be a bit more adventurous. I still won’t be traveling too far from home base, but it will be exciting just the same: it will be new to me.

And I will be doing these things without making consideration’s concessions: there is no one left to consider. There is just me-myself-& I. I will be having a traveling companion at times (I was informed a few weeks ago that someone is interested in going places with me); but most of the time, there will be just me – solo lobo in the car, and at point destinations.

I’ve been filling my Daytrip Ambitions jar with addresses of fun destinations: this Art Walk in the Willapa Wildlife Refuge, looks like a fun and colorful way to enjoy a day out of the house 😉

My Ambitions Jar is filling up with fun Daytrip suggestions.

I can’t wait to hit the road again!

The Art Trail in Willapa National Wildlife Refuge (https://www.fws.gov/nwrs/twocolumn.aspx?id=2147515142)

Every Sunday, I write down a new destination – with address to punch in the GPS – and estimated milage/arrival at said point.

Most are about an hour driving 1-way; so I’m thinking most will be a full day Daytrip 😉 I am also figuring a few over-nighter’s too, “just because I can”: and I really need to figure that out. Bob always took care of that part of our adventures; but now, all aspects of my day-tripping adventures are on moi.

I can do this 😊 

“I Am Woman” … hear me roar. LOL!

Bob always hated this song … but he got a bang out of hearing me use that phrase when I needed courage (or extra ‘oomph’) to get something done: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rptW7zOPX2E)

I could be soft and loving in Bob’s embrace … but I could also match anything life threw my way. Bob liked that combo 😉 

So do I 😊 

I’m getting things done in 2021.

Saturday, January 9, 2021

MY MANLY MAN

This was the first movie I ever saw with Bob. It was playing the Columbia Theatre.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBeTKEeyJeU

Bob had told me he was Shovel Operator in Durrah & Martin’s Logging, Inc. (a small gypo logging outfit). I think he took me to the movie to show me what he did.

Skagit Logging Shovel

Before Bob was promoted to Shovel Operator – the gravy train position; he had done it all: started driving log truck, which he was very familiar with because his father owned his own log truck, and his mother had driven that truck for years … until Kerry was born: then she quits, saying, “4 kids in the cab of a log truck is too damned many!” She was as good a driver as most men: and better than some 😉

1960. BOB, 11 yo. Standing by Bob Sr's. Log Truck. Bob was maintaining and driving that truck - he grew up in it.
1969 - BOB. Toutle Hargand property. Bob Sr, Bonnie, Bob, Merry & Kerry.
1969-1971 timeframe. BOB securing the log wrappers on the loaded logs while driving log truck in the Mt. St. Helen's area.

Bob also was a choker setter, a log skinner, and a tree topper. The first time I saw him thousands of feet off the ground, sawing a tree down to size, I was freaked out – he looked so tiny up there!

Choker setting
Tree Skinner
Tree Topper

Bob also drove the Crew to work every morning in the “Crummy” (the crew van): it was parked in our driveway for 18 years – and the crew was dropped off at our house by their wives. Bob never hauled me out of bed to pour coffee or to see him off, because I was usually dropping into bed as the alarm clock was going off to start his work days. He just kissed me and I mumbled, “I love you, Babe – stay safe and come home to me alive.” My biggest fear was his boss coming by during the day to tell me I was a widow. Logging was a very dangerous job.

His boss, Jimmy Durrah, did drop by the house one afternoon to give me Bob’s bonus (an extra surprise) … and when he saw my face, he never did that again. He was so sorry he scared me, that I ended up consoling him! I loved Jimmy, and he always treated us like family – he knew Bob from birth, and really did love Bob like a son; he treated me like a daughter, and Stacey like the grandchild he never had. When he died, I cried like I would for a beloved family member.

Bob was also the mechanic … so when machinery needed tended too on weekends, we all went to the landing. I loved being in the forests. Stacey never did; but for me, it was a day in paradise. I miss that.

Bob was a jack-of-all-trades, and pretty irreplaceable in his boss’s outfit; as well as in my life.

I don’t know if Bob ever tied logs together in a log raft … but I do know his hotrod Camero ended up sitting on a log raft at the Puget Island end of the bridge that links Cathalmet to Puget Island: he showed me where the log raft sat at the time, while he laughingly told me how his car ended up on the raft in the river. I am glad I did not know Bob at that time – I would have been white-haired before 30! By the time I met him at 17, his wild streak had pretty much burned out. Thank the Lord 😉

Log Raft in river
Bob and his 1968 Camaro hot rod.

Bob would come home with fir dust in his hair, and on his clothes – mingled with diesel oil: I would always breathe in deeply when he swept me up in a bear hug – and he would laugh and shake his head until I had fir dust on me too. We had a wood stove too for half of our married life; I loved the smell of fir: the pungent scent of freshly cut fir will always make me think of Bob.

I watch this movie every time it is available to watch; and I always smile, because though this movie is fiction … the logging scenes, and the log raft death is very realistic, and true to the hard way loggers live – and make a living.

Man! I miss Bob: but, I am not crying tonight – I am smiling. Bob gave me lots of good memories 😊