I WON'T BACK DOWN

Friday, August 16, 2019

MAKING LOVE OUT OF NOTHING AT ALL


Bob & I were 2 wounded souls when we met.

Floating through time on a raft called life.

Then we bumped into each other ...

And hope was sparked.

We dared to dream.

We tempted fate.

We fell in love.

And we decided to forge a life together.

Making love out of nothing at all.

What a wonderful life it was!

Thank God for that unexpected bump that sparked hope; and led to 44 years of a life we never imagined.

Until it happened.

IT'S A NEW DAWN ... AND, FEELING GOOD

I normally do NOT like scat music … but I DO like this song ;-)

It speaks to me, in this … my new life.

Bob gave me the confidence I need to face this new life, that is now mine.

And Elohei gives me the strength to move forward with the confidence my husband – the man Yeshua blessed me with – built up in me.

While I move forward, I will feel wrapped in the love of BOTH of them built up in me, as I feel their arms ready to catch me – and right me again – should I stumble.

“This old world is a new world: a bold world for me. It’s a new dawn – it’s a new day – it’s a new life for me: and I’m feeling good.”


[Intro]

Birds flying high, you know how I feel; Sun in the sky, you know how I feel; Breeze driftin' on by, you know how I feel

[Refrain]

It's a new dawn - It's a new day: It's a new life for me, yeah - It's a new dawn - It's a new day - It's a new life for me, ooh: And I'm feeling good

[Verse 1]

Fish in the sea, you know how I feel; River running free, you know how I feel; Blossom on the tree, you know how I feel

[Refrain]

It's a new dawn - It's a new day - It's a new life for me: And I'm feeling good

[Verse 2]

Dragonfly out in the sun, you know what I mean, don't you know? Butterflies all havin' fun, you know what I mean; Sleep in peace when the day is done, that's what I mean; And this old world is a new world: And a bold world, for me

[Verse 3]
Stars when you shine, you know how I feel; Scent of the pine, you know how I feel; Oh, freedom is mine; And I know how I feel

[Refrain]

It's a new dawn - It's a new day - It's a new life for me: And I'm feeling good

A SHAWL FOR KIRA


Last night I went to fellowship – I almost didn’t go – and found my purpose there.

I skipped last week because it was a week of missing Bob and I didn’t feel I would have been up to being around so many people when I was an emotional wreck. That said … last night I did go. And Elohim answered one of my prayers.

Dahlia’s sent home with me last night, after fellowship: so far, my lungs have not been thrown into respiratory distress ...

I have been praying that Elohim would use me where He could use me to honor him and help comfort someone else going through a wilderness journey.

Last night, I met a young woman (still a girl, actually), who is dealing with an aggressive type of cancer. She has no family here at all, except the Body of Believer’s that meet together with her … and of which, I am now a part, also. As the treatments progress, and as the cancer progresses, she will be facing the valley of the shadow of death: NO ONE SHOULD GO THROUGH THAT ALONE. I was asked – and I agreed – to be with her when the time comes that she will not want to be alone.

I can do that.

I am alone now.

I have LOTS OF TIME on my hands; in which I am doing nothing in particular.

I have been asking Elohim to find something for me to do … that would be productive.

I feel THIS situation with Kira is an answer to my prayerful request.

So, today after I finished up the slipper order I had received weeks ago …

Slippers finished up and will be ready for sending off as soon as the no-slip bottoms dry thoroughly.

… I will be getting busy on a shoulder wrap for Kira: and if there is enough yarn leftover, I will make her a matching beanie:

Forgive my sloppy appearance - when I am just going to be sitting around in-house, I usually slip into one of Bob's tee-shirts: they are big & roomy, and I feel wrapped in something that touched his body; it helps. Plus, I can work unconstrained - women's shirts are not very comfortable. MPO

The gray clouds are back – hiding blue skies I think are lurking behind the constant low-lying grayness. It is nippy here this morning.

My poor garden has given up – there will be NO corn this year – none/nada. Whether the Spaghetti Squash that is on the vine actually matures, is debatable at this point.

So, today, I will be very low-key; moving in slo-mo, starting work on a shawl for Kira, watching old black-n-whites on Youtube while I crochet … and moving towards the Sabbath’s Rest ;-)

I do not adhere to orthodox constraints, BUT I DO LIKE the 24-hour peacefulness of time I set aside every Friday sundown to Saturday sundown, just to focus on Elohei’s goodness/faithfulness, relax, breathe deeply, and just {be}.

SO IMPORTANT!