JUST BE ~Shabbat End

I have mentioned before that though I observe Shabbat – I do not do so as orthodox or pious people, do.

Today (as was yesterday) was a wet day. We are in full Fall swing; weatherwise ... and witnessing the power of our Creator's might.

Wet Fall Shabbat

Shabbat, to me, is a spiritual balancing of my whole being. I utilize the 24-hour Shabbat space of time to “just be.”

I cook meals if staying in – today I washed a load of laundry, and watered houseplants; I read – sometimes I watch vintage movies; I answer the phone when it pings – the only people in my life are fellow Christians, if they are texting, it is Christ-centered and short: they know I observe Shabbat and spending quality time with Yeshua is 100% of my main focus (both texts today were to ‘bless’ me … and to invite me to a shared luncheon tomorrow afternoon); I breathe in and out – memories are hard this time of year, even though I know where Bob’s soul is.

To sum Shabbat up for me: I spent 24-hours of {downtime} focusing on Elohim’s favor towards me, Yeshua’s love for me, and staying positive with a Faith-filled outlook on the incoming week. The past week was fraught with drama traumas from one thing, or another, and staying positive and Faith-filled is a must to maintain good health … keeping my immune system humming in full throttle, to ward off debilitating illnesses.

Upping my happiness barometer is an act of faith, patience, and steady practice 😉

You can do it too 😊

Not sure where to start? Tell yourself, “everything is in Elohim’s hands; He loves me and wants the best for me. I’m going to be just fine” – then smile: repeat as many times as necessary.

Keeping Shabbat is not hard to do. Without any cumbersome rituals, Shabbat can still be a good Day to “just be” 😊

AIYAAA!

I’m running through a crash course on correct pronunciation (pruh-nown-see-AY-shun ) of ancient names

I normally skip right over them ... and continue on with the Historical {meat} of the study; but starting next week, I will not be allowed to bypass them - or flippantly say, "Yeah - that person" - before moving forward with said Lesson.

Thankfully, I actually LIKE English Studies and Language Studies, so this crash course isn't a true hardship

I'm just naturally lazy, and will opt for the easy way out if (and whenever) possible

I'm going to be going to the Monday & Tuesday shindigs with chicken-scratch-cheat-sheets in hand (pronunciations jotted down with easy-to-speak references; and clearly defined accent marks where stress points need to be added, during the verbal pronunciations); and that is acceptable

This is gonna be FUN ... but man, oh, man! Aiyaaa!

IT NEVER GETS EASY

My heart.

Still HARD weeks to get through.

Still HARD memories to relive.

2023 cannot arrive soon enough ...

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I posted this to FB 4 years ago, today …

{{ feeling emotional.

November 5^th. 2018

Bob was admitted to ER earlier this afternoon and is currently in ICU.

Again.

At first, they were going to transport him immediately to OHSU, but when they called OHSU, docs here were told that there is nothing that could be done there that could not be done here … in OHSU’s estimation based on what was fed to them from ER here, Bob is not {chronically ill enough}. The man is in MASS PAIN! He CANNOT EAT OR DRINK without throwing it back up!

So.

Docs here said all they can do is basically keep him alive with pain killers and IV fluids when the pain is unbearable and the dehydration is critical. Pancreatitis is a wasting disease … he is dying. And he will die by starvation. End of story. A Hospital Chaplain was paged and Bob was moved to ICU where the nurses have been told again that there is a DNR Order standing. If he makes it through the night and is released, he will be on serious narcotics until he does “go home”.

I have loved this man since I was 10 years old. I married him when I was 17 years old. He has been in my life more than 2/3rd's of it. I am not even sure I remember how to breath or live without Bob being part of me.

This is extremely hard to go through. Bob is praying for a healing; or death. I am praying for a healing; or for a dignified death. We are both praying for Elohim’s expressed favor. We desperately need a miracle. Or a graceful exit.

Please pray as the Ruach Ha'Kodesh leads. Thank you.}}

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I had good friends that stood by us (and emotionally held me those long and heartbreaking weeks, with their love & prayers).

Bob did go Home in the early morning hours of December of 2018 – and his life is eminently much better now, beyond the clouds.

Emmylou Harris – ‘Away Beyond the Blue’ song:

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKY99siT8Qc)

I have good friends today, who stand with me in the now, and comfort me with their love and prayers. They make the hard times bearable.

I’m getting my hair trimmed and shaped tomorrow morning … then, I’ll spend the rest of the afternoon hanging with my 3 amigos; each one texted me this morning, and invited me to shared Sunday lunch. I am blessed.

((((THANK YOU, YESHUA 😊))))