ANTICIPATING 2021 BLESSINGS

Yesterday I decided I need to up the game called ‘My New Life’; today I needed to think on some things – so, I went for a short hike on the dike.

But first, I had to drive into town to restock 2 of my vitamins that are running low. I ended up coming home with more than those two things, because once I got into town … I started thinking about New Year’s Eve creeping up on me … so I grabbed some ruffled chips and clam dip; and some chicken biscuit crackers with canned cheese: we always had that in the house for New Year’s Eve (in 44 years, we only went out once to join in the New Year’s celebrations; Bob preferred to avoid drunk drivers careening haphazardly down the highway, so we stayed home). 

The 1^st New Year without Bob was a teary blur – it passed without a notice.

The 2^nd New Year without Bob was drier … but, it also passed without notice.

This year, I am a little more engaged with what is happening around me, and I intend to munch chips and dip – and crunch crackers and cheese without any calorie guilt at all 😉

Valentine Candy on display already! December hasn't even ended.

Firework stands opening up all over town. The Park has been alive every night since Christmas, with booms and bangs

Loaded up on the good stuff for my body, and the comfort foods that make my body feel good, I aimed the car towards 48^th Street – where serenity lies.

Walked the Pacific Way Trail today. Lower end. Mallard ducks. And 2 or 3 Manky Mallards.

A Manky Mallard duck is actually a hybrid domesticated mallard duck.

Black headed-blue billed Greater Scaup's & White-headed Bufflehead ducks.

Bufflehead duck among the gray-bodied wild Mallards & Mallard hybrid ducks, that have been cross-bred.

Regular Mallard duck with a Bufflehead & a Mallard cross-bred duck.

MOD Mitts & the walking stick Bob found for me at a Bazaar 8 years ago. Bob also drilled a hole and threaded a nylon rope through for me.

Beautiful day to be walking. 37-degrees; but not cold.

Walking always loosens my body, restores calmness, and refreshes my spirit. At the moment I am only doing 1/3 of the trail hike, but it is enough to get some thinking time in 😉

I don’t get dolled-up to go walking: I’m not a fancy woman.

2021 is arriving quickly, and I've decided to be ready for whatever comes with it, for my life.

I want some happiness - I am determined 2021 will be a better year for me.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4QzUkcwD4k)

I will be moving into 2021 pretty much a free agent; all the way around. Just me, myself, & I.

I have to live the life Elohim gave me ... for me, now. There is no one else in my life anymore.

There are blessings in my new life too ... and I want them. I want to be happy again.

I am no longer at loose ends.

I have made peace with how things are, in my life.

I am at a place where I can seriously consider what life has in store for me, going forward.

And, I swear I could see Bob smiling.

I could hear the echo of his encouragement he said to me, in November of 2018; when he knew I would have to go on without him … and I was not sure I could. He said, “Honey, we both know that you will kick things around a bit, but once you make up your mind – it’s as good as done.”

It’s taken me 24 months of kicking things around in my head (and being kicked to the curb by in-laws, children/grandchildren, coupled friends, and every shyster out there trying to make a buck on my husband’s death) to get to the point of making the firm decision I reached the other day; and cemented this afternoon.

2021 will be full-steam ahead.

Elohim has been waiting for me to reach this point, so He can bless me abundantly.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3gdvc92EYY)

And both my Husbands (Yeshua, and Bob) will be so proud of me – cheering me on, and encouraging me every step of the way through 2021.

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBuIBaDSOa4)

I am ready.

I will cross that line into my New Life 2021, at Midnight, December 31st, 2020.