Christmas 2021 … and tomorrow’s
New Year’s Eve, are 4-year markers of those holidays that I did not get to
share with Bob.
I used to tell Bob that I really
hoped my ticket was punched before his, because “I could not live without you,
Babe.”
And then.
Bob’s ticket number
was called; and he went before me.
And over a period of 36 months,
I’ve come to the realization that I somehow, incredibly, could live without
him. I woke up that first morning of widowhood – I woke up every morning for
that first week of solo loboing.
For a month.
For 2 months … 4
months … 6 months: 1 year.
For 36 months (3 years, and 16
days – today): 1,111 days and nights have come and gone, and I have learned
to live without Bob’s physical presence in my life.
In the Spring, Summer, and Fall
months the missingness is easier because I’m out of the house most of the time:
country drives, daytrips, road trips, hiking, social gatherings, ect.
But in the Winter months, when the
weather is dicey and driving is tricky; I’m stuck pretty much at home. Admittedly,
“stuck at home” is relatively short – but it’s still a stuck period, where I’m
housebound.
I never could stand
being cooped up … and that feeling
intensifies now that Bob is no longer here. So, I have to make those cloying
housebound days count to pull me out of a {missingness} mind-slump.
The months of 2021, I broadened
my horizons and ventured further afield in adventurous daytrips; learning new
roads, and retracing remembered loop-routes I made with Bob throughout our 44
years together. Those backroad drives were looooong drives.
I ate out … a lot.
When I got home, I had just
enough time to change from day clothes into p.j.’s; and fall into bed. I
exercised in a hit-n-miss pattern – and it was showing.
Now, it’s time to knuckle down
again – and rein the laissez faire attitude in: toning up, and slimming the
curves 😉
Exercising is a home benefit.
I actually like exercising, so
it’s not a hardship.
I exercise every
other day … and like switching out the exercise
regimes 😊
This is what I did today:
Fit & Toned Arms for Ageless (Mature) Women
15 Minute Senior Pilates Chair Class-
to build Core Strength in a Safe and Gentle
I’m planning on wearing
sleeveless tops, shorts … and the straight-leg jeans I bought this year (the
only type of jeans selling in stores): I need toned arms, and a slimmer physique
by March 2022.
These ‘home benefit’ exercises
will accomplish that 😉
