I WON'T BACK DOWN

Thursday, July 18, 2019

1st CORINTHIANS ~Chapter 7



Now, concerning the things you asked me about in your letter, let me say: it is good for a man not to touch a woman. But because of the temptation of impurity, it is better that each man have a wife of his own, and each woman a husband of her own. The husband should give to his wife he conjugal rights, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife does not have sole authority over her own person, for she is joined to her husband. And, similarly, the husband is not sole master of his own body, for he is joined to his wife.

Do not deny each other, unless perhaps you do so for a time, by mutual consent, so that you may better devote yourselves to fasting and prayer. After that, come together again as before so that Lucifer may not tempt you when you are weak.

I am giving this advice, not as a command, but rather as a concession. I would rather that everyone were single like myself; but that cannot be, for each one has his own nature from Elohei – one to live this way and another in that way.

I would like to say to the unmarried and to the widows that it would be well for them to remain single, as I am. But if they do not have self-control, then they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passionate desire.

My command – or rather, Adonai Yeshua’s command – to the married is that a wife should not leave her husband. But if she has separated from him, she must either remain single or be reconciled to her husband. And the husband must not divorce his wife.

The advice I now give to other people is not Adonai Yeshua’s command, but my own opinion: If a believer has a wife who is not a believer but is willing to live with him, he should not leave her. And if a woman has an unbelieving husband who consents to live with her, she should not leave him. For the unbelieving husband is, so to speak, sanctified by the believing wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the believing husband. Otherwise the children would be born unclean, whereas now they are holy.

If the unbelieving partner wants a separation, let it be granted. In such a case the brother or sister is not bound. For after all, O wife, how do you know whether or not you can save your husband? And, O husband, how do you know if you can save your wife?

I would add this – that each one should fill the place that Elohim has assigned to them to which Adonai has called them. This is the rule I lay down for all the churches.

Suppose now, that a man at the time of his call was already circumcised. He should not try to remove the marks of circumcision. Or, if uncircumcised at the time of his call, he should not be circumcised. Neither circumcision nor uncircumcision now counts for anything, but what counts is keeping Elohim’s commandments.

Everyone should continue in the station in which he was called. Were you a slave when called? Don’t let that bother you. Still, if you can gain your freedom, make good use of your opportunity. When a slave is called to serve Adonai Yeshua, he becomes Adonai’s freedman, while, on the other hand, when a free man is called, he becomes Adonai’s slave. You were bought at a great price, so do not become slaves to men. So, brethren, let each one remain with Elohei, content in whatever station he was when called.

As to the unmarried, I have no commandment from Adonai Yeshua to give. Still, I offer my views as a man who through Adonai’s mercy has been found dependable. I think that, because of the present turmoil, it is best for a man to remain as he is. Are you bound to a wife? Then do not seek to be free. Are you freed from your wife? Then do not seek another man’s wife. However, if you do marry, you do not thereby sin; or if a maiden marries, she does not sin by doing so. But remember that those who marry will have added troubles, and I would spare you that.

But I say this, brethren, that the time is short. From now on, even those who have wives had better live as of they had none. And it would be wise for those who mourn not to weep, and for those who rejoice not to make it known, and for those who are buying something not to seem to have anything. And those who are busy with worldly affairs must not be overly absorbed in them, for the glory of this world will pass away.

I want you to be free from worldly cares. The unmarried man is freer to be concerned about Adonai Yeshua’s work and how to please Him. The married man, on the other hand, is anxious about worldly cares and how to lease his wife. In short, he is divided. There is the same difference also between the married and unmarried woman. The unmarried woman is more concerned about the things of Adonai Yeshua, so that she may be holy in body and spirit. The married woman is concerned more about the things of this world, so that she may please her husband.

I say this for your own good, not to make it harder for you, but to point out what is the better way, so that you may serve Yeshua without distraction. If anyone feels that he is not behaving properly towards his betrothed, especially if she is getting on in years and he feels there is a need for it, let him do as he wishes, and marry her. There is no sin in that. Also that a man does well who has a firm purpose in his heart and a sure control over his desires, and then determines to keep his betrothed untouched. He who gives in to marriage does well, but he who does not give into marriage does better.

A wife is bound by Law to her husband as long as he is alive. But at the death of her husband, she is free to be married to another; but only in The Lord. Still, in my judgement, she will be happier if she remains single. I, too, lay claim to have The Ruach of Elohei.


TRUSTING ELOHEI 100%


Yesterday morning I woke up with a thought running through my mind.

I turned it over and over in my thoughts all day yesterday - pros and cons.

I woke up this morning with a decision firmly in place.

And I just finalized that decision.

You all know how I feel about doctors, hospitals, insurance, and trust in Yeshua.

Since Bob went into ER ... at my insistence ... last August, I have felt tremendous guilt over that. Bob DID NOT WANT TO GO: I pretty much forced him to go because I let fear get a grip on me when I saw what he was vomiting up. When we got stuck on the medical treadmill that kept Bob from dying at home - which was his true desire - I said, "Bob, I am so sorry! You have to forgive me! Please." Bob said, "There is nothing to forgive, honey. I love you." But I always regretted the initial trip to ER which kept him trapped on the medical guinea pig treadmill - which resulted in him dying in a hospital, in another State INSTEAD OF DYING AT HOME, IN HIS OWN BED; his true desire.

And Peace Health has been carrying me on the Peace Health Bridge Program (aka: Financial Assistance Program) since then, and it seemed like a good idea.

Then.

But the other morning I woke with these thoughts in my mind: "If I keep the 100% coverage, I will have to keep reapplying every 6 months. To continue coverage I will have to hand over my Income tax information, my banking information, my monthly budget statement" - in short - ALL my PERSONAL INFORMATION. I am not comfortable with that.

I like making the decisions for MY life: I resent having to answer to outsiders for my choices - if I want a Savings Account (and I do), I do not want to be limited in any way as to how much I can save. It's no one else's damned business!

Also, several doctors do not want to honor the Bridge Program - and that has resulting in ongoing monthly medical fights to force them to comply. You all know I don't back down from fights, but it angers me that I have to go that route, when these doctors should be honoring the agreement they made when they were contracted with Peace Health. And the Bridge Program Advocate/Coordinator is not always available - in fact, I sense a definite brush off lately, which means I have to fight the bullshit alone - which was NOT the agreement. That totally pisses me off.

So, this morning I decided to let the coverage lapse when it come time for renewal again in October. I don't need the added stress in my life right now.

And to be honestly truthful, I have felt like a hypocrite since February 2019.

I TRUST ELOHEI 100% with my life - always have since becoming a Christian in 1966. I have lived MY WHOLE LIFE DEPENDING ON HIM TO CARRY ME THOUGH.

I need to get back to that. I got a little sidetracked with Bob's Graduation, feeling alone and concerned with my angina and asthma, BUT I have lived this long with those issues, and if Elohei wants me to live longer ... I WILL; if not, I will join Bob.

So, at 9 a.m., this morning, I canceled my "new patient" appointment with Lakeside Clinic too. And I felt immense relief: Bob & I had stopped forking out $$$$$ to doctors DECADES AGO - why on earth would I start backtracking down that path again now?

I refuse to allow fear to dictate my actions.

I TRUST ELOHEI 100% with my life - always have since becoming a Christian in 1966. I have lived MY WHOLE LIFE DEPENDING ON HIM TO CARRY ME THOUGH.

WHATEVER happens with my life from this point forward is TOTALLY IN THE HANDS of the One, Who loves me.

And I am okay with that.


My shoulders feel like a weight has been lifted off them, and my soul feels free again.

I feel that, in doing what I did this morning, I am honoring my husband - and we are still a couple, united in thought and action. THAT is what is important to me.

Either I believe Elohei is Who He says he is ... or I don't.

I DO.

And people can think what they want ...