I
spent six hours this afternoon with Mr. Complication. Just talking.
I
turned down spending Thanksgiving Supper with his family, again, too. I’m not
ready to “meet the family” yet.
I {drove
home} to him the facts of my complicated life (widowhood emotions/complications; kids, grandkids - he claims he's okay with all of it)… and said, “now it’s
your turn: spill. Tell me about yourself.”
And
he did. More things I have talked to Elohim about (concerning a companion),
were revealed. All positives 😊
Neither
of us needs the opposite sex to ‘complete’ us (as some people seem to think
they do; always needing to have someone hanging off their arm to show off. Always
on the prowl), as we’ve both been able to live happy and satisfactory lives
solo lobo – but it is nice to share our daily life ins-and-outs with another 😉
It's
good to know that when we open our lives to the possibility of sharing it with
someone else, that person is already happy with their own life, and isn’t looking
to you to supply all happiness in their life. Sharing happiness is good
– being expected to be a never-ending source of happiness in a life that is
lacking happiness is another thing altogether.
This
man wanting to be a part of my life is a happy person: I feel no pressure at
all to be his all-in-all; no matter how this developing {thing} plays out.
18 Signs That You Just Might Be HAPPY
1. You love, accept and believe
in yourself and that love spills out into the world creating solid and heathy
relationships and a desire for others to be happy as well
2. You create true intimacy
3. You don’t sweat the small
stuff and you bounce back easily from adversity and setbacks
4. You live with an attitude of
gratitude
5. You appreciate the small
things
6. You live in the moment, not
obsessing about the past or worrying about the future
7. You keep stress to a minimum
8. You prioritize your own
well-being
9. You are healthy and don’t
suffer from chronic pain or have things that keep you up at night
10. You live life on your terms,
true to who you are
11. You are excited to get out of
bed in the morning and are optimistic about the future
12. You aren’t frequently angry,
resentful, sad or bitter
13. You treat yourself and others
with respect and kindness
14. You pursue your passions
15. You do not let fear stop you
from pursing your dreams or goals
16. You are happy by yourself and
enjoy your own company
17. You know how to reach out and
ask for help
18. You have strong values
Before I left for home, he actually used the L Word, saying, “I
love you. I know you’re fragile right now. I’m not going anywhere; I’ll wait.”
I
know I’ve healed a LOT over these past 4 years. I know I have prayed (and
spoken aloud to friends about …) for the past 18 months for a companion to
have conversations with, to do things with, to go places with:
I have room in my new life to make room for a companion … I just don’t
know about the L Word.
I
know I am comfortable with him, and the few members of his family I already
know; and spend time with.
I
know this man makes me laugh: he has a good sense of humor, and an upbeat
outlook on life in general.
I
know this man is self-sufficient: he doesn’t need anyone to take care of him.
I
know this man is a kind, gentle, and compassionate person: he walks his talk.
I
know this man – like me – puts God first, in his life: that is a BIG
PLUS in his favor. He totally {gets} that Elohei will always be first and
foremost in my life. We understand each other in that regard.
I
am primarily interested in a platonic relationship: will this man be content with
that, if this {thing} moves forward?
I
have a lot to think about.
I
have a lot to pray about.
I
have a lot to seek Elohim’s wisdom on.
In
the meantime, I’m going to continue working on myself, while waiting for
revelations to manifest themselves to me clearly 😊
I
have a feeling 2023 is going to be an interesting year 😉
