I started thinking about doing this a while ago, but
with the house remodel the first year here, and Bob’s hospitalization/physical
death last Fall/Winter … my indoor hydroponics lettuce garden was postponed
until today.
My Hydroponics Lettuce Garden.
And I didn’t do it too big this time: if it ‘takes’
& flourishes, I’ll add more jars to the window sills (I have 6 more
spacious sills I can utilize ;-)
Bob did good when he bought this house – he actually
insisted on this particular house (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2017/06/new-home-d.html); I wasn’t so sure … it needed A LOT
of work – floors torn out and replaced with wooden flooring to keep my
environmental asthma manageable; a new roof with rebuilt customized skylights
because the old ones were weather worn and starting hairline cracks – and the
new kitchen flooring and cupboards had to be replaced when the ‘fridge ice
maker sprung a leak. But, Bob insisted this was {the house} he wanted. So, we
bought it, made it ours … and within a years’ time, the egomaniac next-door
neighbor and little hitler Park Manager had killed my husband with their petty
and ridiculous non-stop bitching.
18 months after moving here, I was a Widow. Over
stupid shit that means nothing to anyone except ron cook & candy scott. Jealous
and dictator S.T.U.P.I.D.S.H.I.T. with no basis is reality.
And after at least 3 attempts to sell & move,
I have finally come to the realization that regardless of Bob’s killers still
on the premises here, all avenues for selling and moving has been cut off: I am
gong to suck it up, hunker down, and make a stand to build a life here. In the
house my husband provided for me – as he told me to do in December 2018,
before he lost the ability to talk. I will learn to see in color again; myself:
family members are broken people – they can’t see in color any better than I
can: there are no reliable shades of color to find among them and work into my
life ... those tears in the fabric of family tapestry will have to be reworked by
them in their own lives before I will ever again try to patch them into my life
tapestry. I am done with nightmare scenarios in which I find myself constantly running around in circles like a chicken with its head cut off.
I am starting, in small ways, to build a solo
life for myself that incorporates some of Bob’s memory in it; and honors the
life we shared, without becoming a morose walking shrine to a life that has
run its course. I think that is a healthy way to see it and move forward …
Cheryl & Pam are coming for a visit tomorrow
afternoon; and my BIL Kerry, may also stop by to bring back my rain barrels
and barrel stands. I will need those back, now that I am staying here
https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2019/10/courage.html.
I felt bad asking for them back … but, Kerry understands. Those barrels cost Bob his life: they are a tangible connection to the life my husband gave his life to provide me with here. It may not make sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to Kerry & I (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/that-woman.html & https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/goodbye-2018-welcome-2019.html).
https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2019/10/courage.html.
I felt bad asking for them back … but, Kerry understands. Those barrels cost Bob his life: they are a tangible connection to the life my husband gave his life to provide me with here. It may not make sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to Kerry & I (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/that-woman.html & https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/goodbye-2018-welcome-2019.html).
I like to garden: Bob knew that, and provided me
with outdoor gardening areas; and a home with roomy window sills, lots of big
windows, and overhead skylights. This really IS the “perfect home” for me.
So, I set up my Hydroponics Lettuce Garden a few
minutes ago :-D
Washed Yogurt cup I am utilizing for a ‘hydroponics holding cup’.
One of Bob's razor cutters ... it doesn’t bother me now to touch the things he touched. At first, when my grief was so new and raw, I couldn’t. But now, it gives me a sort of comfort.
Preparing the holding cup ...
I used my little screwdriver set to poke a hole in the bottom of the sliced-sides yogurt cup. I inverted the flimsy cup over a small bottle for stability and then poked it.
A smidgen of Miracle Grow in a quart of water to barely color the water; holding cup submerged ¼ - inch.
MOD Crochet Mason Jar Covers to keep algae at bay
A Jiffy Seed seeding pallet dropped into the improvised holding cup.
Wet soil loosened & Lettuce seed planted: Tom Thumb & Deer Tongue lettuces for starters.
A foil collar placed loosely around the seeding pellet. Hopefully the foil will help keep overhead light at a minimum to stave off algae.
Brightly covered hydroponic jars placed in window. Herbs in the forefront (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2019/10/herbs-sorrowing-slide-show.html).
I like fresh veggies that I grow myself. If this
works, like it is supposed to work, I may do more jars with a varied seeding –
I certainly have the room … and the time … for it ;-)
And now, I am going to tidy the house in
preparation for the visits tomorrow; it will feel good to have talk and
laughter in the house again :-D
