Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Tuesday, August 30, 2022

FINISH THE SONG; RELIVE THE MEMORIES

Leo Sayer – ‘When I need You’ song:

Today - 4 years ago ...

{{Posted to FB when Bob was admitted to ER after a very stressful encounter on out front porch, in 2018: Not a good day for Hubs ... yesterday was very stressful and he is feeling the overflow today. He already died twice (29 yo when a blood clot passed through his lung and stopped his heart; I was there for that one. Scared me to death. 32 yo the 2nd time: doctors never did find out what happened ... even after keeping him awake 72 hours for fear he'd die for good after the miraculous resurrection in the body bag. THAT is STILL being talked about today every time we meet those friends out and about. He died at their Supper table) - I am not about to risk losing him for good due to stress over nonsense and ridiculousness; at this age Elohei may just decide to keep him.

Happy Birthday. NOT!

Meeting with a Realtor tomorrow. Praying for a good guestimate and a 1-way ticket outta here.}}

We didn't move; but Bob's address DID change.

And I am still trying to adjust to that. I'm doing much better this year, but I still miss his physical presence in my life. August is not a good month for me anymore - there were no tears this year; but I did get a little testy with people who were bemoaning stupid shit: shit that is fixable if they'd stop whining long enough to FIX it.

Stupid shit is fixable.

Loss via death, is not.

GRRR

Bob would have been 73 years old today ... 

Bob & our grandson, Azariah; playing with squirrels in Lexington's Riverside Park; Summer 2018.

But he's 3-1/2 years in Heaven, instead; my pain is Elohei's gain.