Every Shabbat I try to find something
different to be thankful for.
This week – and always, actually – I am
thankful Elohim put Bob & I in each other’s lives :-D
Bob had “presence”.
And lucky for me, he didn’t understand
that ;-)
Bob was a good-looking guy … i.n.e.v.e.r.y.w.a.y.
He had a very handsome face, and a physical physique that could rival any one
of the ancient gods sculpted.
Bob was put together very well.
And women, and girls, noticed
that about him.
He didn’t notice them noticing –
but I noticed them noticing: I was the one getting the
evil eye from those females eyeing him up and down and wondering why he was
choosing to date me exclusively.
Bob never understood that he was a very sexy
man. It surprised him when I told him that he was a sexy man, and very desirable
by jealous females shooting daggers at me with their eyes when we passed by.
Those girls and women watching us walk by knew he was a sexy man, and I felt
very privileged to be the center of his attention.
He could have had his choice of anybody
… and he chose me.
And I’m thankful he chose me.
I’m thankful that when Elohim finally put our
lives together, He closed Bob’s eyes to his personal appeal from another female’s
point of view ;-)
Bob didn’t have an ego, thank Elohim.
And he didn’t flaunt himself, like his
brother ralph did. ralph always believed himself to be the cock of the walk.
Bob didn’t have that outlook of himself – Bob was a humble man – he didn’t consider
himself below another man … but neither did he think himself above other men,
as ralph did. Bob was comfortable in his own skin: there wasn’t a competitiveness
in him to ‘prove’ he was all man; and that comfortableness put other men at
ease around him.
Bob’s complete ignorance that he had stuff to
flaunt was lucky for me. And I’m glad his eyes were closed to the other girls
and women drooling over him.
I always felt truly blessed that Bob was part
of my life for the 44 years we were blessed to enjoy together.
So, tonight I am blessing Elohim for Who He
IS; and thanking Him for favoring me as His daughter & for the way He honored
me by blessing me with a man that loved me unconditionally and was 100%
faithful to me in thought, action, and choice.
All my life I have been covered with Elohim’s
Shabbat Shalom.
When Elohim spared Bob’s life in 1981, saved
his soul, and returned him to me … one of the messianic musicians Bob listened
to (other than Israel’s Hope) was Jonathan Settel. This song was one of
Bob’s favorites :-D
Listening to it tonight, I can see in my mind’s
eye: Bob putting the music in the player and dancing through the house –
snapping his fingers and grabbing pieces of Challah from the loaves fresh out of
the oven. And wiggling his eyebrows at me when I laughingly made to slap at his
hands in feigned frustration of him not letting the loaves cool ;-)
For a big man, Bob was surprisingly light on
his feet.
The last time Bob pinched hot Challah was 5
days before our lives started unraveling in 2018. 3-1/2 months later, I would be a widow.
Man! I MISS my man.
I love You, Yeshua.
I love you, Babe.
Always ~ OX
