Today’s post is inspired by
things that impact our life.
Today’s post is also an encouragement
to remember that no matter what happens in our lives, there is always
an up-side 😉
Two days ago, I was notified
that someone I used to be very close to was in the hospital – as was her
husband. For several hours, conflicting reports were sent my way; family
secrets were revealed, angry tears flooded my ears, frustrated musings significantly
warmed the airwaves. By the time I set the cell phone on its charger to
recharge, I had a roaring headache.
Last night before I went to
bed, I was notified that said persons mentioned above were pulling through,
after all. My feelings are mixed (1) I know this couple, and their
family: they live on drama … if they aren’t “dying!” they don’t how to live; for true (2) I don’t like their trauma drama; and I resented being
pulled into it. Again; on the pretext, “it’s real this time” (3)
There is a valid reason these people are no longer an active part of my life.
IF they were truly “fighting for their lives!” (which
conflicting report should be believed?), then I felt sad for their family; if
on the other hand, this was just another jacked-up trauma drama episode
…
These are people that will
run through the house screaming, “Fire! Fire!” – and when everyone is standing outside
in bare feet, in freezing weather, they will laugh at their childish behavior
and say, “Just joking, hahaha.”
Them being in the hospital is factual.
Them “dying!” is the glitch.
Before you think me
heartless, let me clarify: they are always dying. For 40 years it’s been
the same scenario.
This time, I’ve reached my limit.
I don’t want to be dealing with this anymore.
I have my own traumas I’m
working my way through.
I haven’t seen these people
for years – and my life has been less stressful; that is a good feeling.
So, last night I
made another culling decision:
I blocked everyone involved: on social media sources, as well as from my phone.
That action made me realize that there isn’t much of my old life left in my
new life anymore.
Actions have consequences – consequences
have impact.
I don’t regret the culling. And
I don’t care if people think that is a callous thing to do.
I.d.o.n’t.w.a.n.t.d.r.a.m.a.i.n.m.y.l.i.f.e.a.n.y.m.o.r.e.
Sometimes I think the best
route to take, is to make a clean break – a total break (from everyone) –
from the life I know … just wipe it out, and start completely fresh.
With no guilt, of any kind.
I think I’ve reached the
point where it would be an easy thing to do; I have nothing to lose, and
everything to gain. The primary gain would be peace of mind, and
tranquility in the golden years of my life.
Yes, I think that may be the
best route to take as I journey through 2022.
I feel freer already 😊
Talking about being ‘freed up’ – a gal pal called yesterday
and said there had been a landslide on Ocean Beach Highway, near the County
Line.
Land slides impact daily life. Ocean Beach Highway is a busy
roadway, and the alternate road routes are iffy this time of year.
Ocean Beach Highway is open again.
https://tdn.com/news/local/state-route-4-reopens-in-wahkiakum-county-after-debris-slide/article_3fc2e2d5-85b2-5d05-9f1a-19ab4967dea5.html & https://www.chinookobserver.com/news/five-feet-of-mud-cover-ocean-beach-highway/article_7958f2b0-0b80-59a7-a560-8dafa1968c5e.html
And I just received an
invite to supper with friends out Coal Creek.
Good friends, that treat you
like family also impact daily life 😊
