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Tuesday, February 16, 2021

ANGER vs ANGER

Yes, you read the title correctly.

There is anger … and there is anger.

Wildfire anger, like islam and communism/socialism – which, is really the same thing except one used religion, and the other uses science – destroys societies and topples countries.

The foremost … righteous anger – which is designed to bring about repentance, and build up the best in people; is perfectly acceptable, and has a remedy.

The later, is not acceptable – and eats at people, and societies, like a cancer. The only remedy is Elohei.

I’ve pulled back from FB and other social media outlets because their biased format is not very welcoming to people like me: who are Christians that cherish freedom of movement/speech/thought, and Faith.

It is okay to be righteously angry when those freedoms are toyed with … and politicians attempt to strong-arm me.

It is not okay to be angry with a burning hatred.

I do not want to hate – I do not make place for it in my life.

I strive mightily not to hate the two people here, in the Park I live in, that killed my husband 26 months/2 days/12 hours & 40 minutes ago: so far, I am – by the grace of Elohim – winning that emotional tug of war.

And I refuse to make a place for hate in my thoughts, or my heart, concerning the wickedness coming out of DC.

I honestly do not trust any voice coming from any political party: they ALL LIE.

But, never before have we seen rampant disregard for God and Country IN America; as we have seen since the obama years that started in 2009.

barak hussain obama pushed for the promotion of islam and communism, for 8 loooong and tortuous/traitorous years … and dementia boy biden (obama’s clueless parrot) and biden’s-obama-pick; heckling hyaena sidekick, harris, are doing all they can to continue forward with obama’s wicked agenda.

The demonrat communist/socialist party have total control of the White House, Congress, and the Senate; and are moving forward as warp-speed to destroy America – willy-nilly.

And there doesn’t seem to be any serious push back.

FROM ANYONE.

The situation is angering.

Americans, like myself, are now in a position where we can trust no one: family or friend … all will become an enemy if and when it favors them to stab you in the back.

I already have serious trust issues.

What has been allowed to happen, doesn’t help that situation.

Really bummed right now ...
The obama coups - worst thing for USA
Nothing good coming out of DC right now.

So, I have pulled back from everyone and everything; not from fear of what will happen to me – I am prepared to die in the fallout of the obama-biden-harris coup.

I am pulling back to prepare myself … emotionally, spiritually, and physically … for the inevitable.

The obamanites have declared war on Christian Americans.

I don’t want anyone alongside me to be blasted with shrapnel.

My already small circle has gotten much, much smaller.

Several friends I had, have fallen by the wayside. My siblings, children, and grandchildren all embrace the obamanite vision and applaud the violent activities – ignoring the racist overtones, and overt anti-Christ hatred.

My grandmother warned of this day. 

The Scriptures clearly foretold this day.

I have been prepared all my life for this day … and I always hoped it would never come.

It breaks my heart that my grandchildren are caught up in it; it makes me physically ill that our own daughter has destroyed her life, and the lives of her children in her mad rush to hate me.

And it is mad: it is mindless lunacy. 

That is what hate does … it makes people lose their minds.

What is happening today, I was warned about decades ago.
It’s sad, it's angering, it's frustrating ...
I have nothing good to say about what is happening.

There is nothing I can do; except prepare myself for what is coming: what is taking place now, is nothing compared to what is to come.

I refuse to make a place for hate in my thoughts, or my heart, concerning the wickedness coming out of DC.

Do I get angry?

Of course!

But, even in that, I am careful.

Anger vs Anger. How I deal with both.

Our great Nation’s leadership has boldly declared Elohei does not exist; and they have declared science is the new religion, and islam is the reigning power – with communistic and socialistic underpinnings. Our Nation’s Flag has been replaced with china’s banner, and our National Anthem has been replaced with obama’s black panther damnation. Government funded {churches} have replaced Eloei with the almighty $$$$$$ - The Word is no longer heard or tolerated; lip service is given, but the desire for Eohei is no a burning passion.

What is coming out of DC – and out of every demonrat held state stronghold – is pure, unadulterated hatred, without rhyme or reason.

It is madness.

There is only 1 hope.

And I stand on that hope.

Even if I stand … and die, alone.

BETWEEN THE RAINS

The snow that surprised our region is all but gone now (all of it should be gone tomorrow); so, needing fresh air, I went for an early morning walk this morning.

Rain showers was in the forecast some time today, so I plugged my ears with cotton to ward off ‘swimmer’s ear’: I have to be careful not to get excess water in my ear canal … or breezy winds in my ear canal. So, inside, I immediately wick my ear canals with Q-tips after washing my hair/showering (and I avoid swimming) – and outside, I protect my ears with a dab of cotton.

Snow mostly gone. Walking from the church end of the Trail.
Snow-less Trail.
Winter sun, this morning ...
Early morning; not another person on the Trail. Cotton in my ears

Some cinnamon-brown-headed ducks caught my attention, right off 😊

They were very striking – the pictures do not do them justice; but I did try to get some good ones 😉

Common Goldeneye Ducks; females.
Cinnamon headed ducks - Common Goldeneye, females.

The little cavorting Bufflehead duck, doing its perfect swan-dive had me chuckling.

Bufflehead Duck; female.
Swan-diving Bufflehead Duck; female.

I tried to get a shot of a Merganser Duck pair … but they were skittish and kept flying off …

Flying Hooded Merganser Ducks.

When I was finally able to get close enough for a good frame set – the male was absent.

Hooded Merganser Duck; female.

Along the walk, I spotted a lethargic fuzzy-wuzzy, sluggishly moving across my pathway. I was surprised to see it had survived the snow that was dumped on us this past week <:-O

I did some research on them after I got back home, and was equally surprised to read that they survive winter’s chill very well because their bodies have been designed to produce their own antifreeze enzyme; in this way, their body cells won’t rupture in freezing weather!

I am constantly awed by all the ways Creator Yeshua designed life on Earth 😊

Lethargic Fuzzy-Wuzzy caterpillar.
Weather patterns this morning.

Throughout the walk, I saw more Goldeneye ducks than any other; they were all up and down the short length of trail (from beginning to end) that I walked this morning:

Common Goldeneye Duck; female.
Mallard Pair.
Goldeneye Duck; female.
Goldeneye Duck Pair - male in the lead; female Merganser in the tail end.
Ring-neck Duck; Male. Blue bill, & bright yellow eyes.

When I reached the gate at the far end of the short portion of trail, I walked this morning – it was tempting to cross the street, and push on further; but it was beginning to drizzle, and I have been dealing with a cold this past week, so I reined myself in 😉

Reached the end of this portion of the trail with a few sprinkles, and I’m heading home. I don’t want to get sicker.

When I got back home, I checked my mail; and thought I’d get to it after I painted my fingernails.

When my nail were dried, I started going through envelopes and opening the important ones – setting the junk mail aside to be shredded.

As I pulled a statement from one envelope, I instantly saw red.

And reached for my phone.

What I read from the hospital billing department had steam rolling from my ears: my mood matched my red fingernails.

They were claiming they had not received payment and was ready to sic a collection agency on me.

I was directed to 5 different departments (all hospital related!) to try to get the snafu sorted and corrected – the bill had been paid January 13th, 2021: I have documentation on my end to prove that fact.

The hospital drones need to get it straight on their end: it is not my problem that the post office has delayed the receiving of payment. It is not my problem that they are short-handed and may not have gotten to my payment yet. It is not my problem that they are jumping the gun with a threatening notice …

I told them I had mailed their payment off to them January 13th – with a receipt of payment from the P.O. – and that “they should have received it well before needlessly sending their bullying statement, which I do not appreciate”.

(https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2021/01/chaotic-day.html)

3 hours later (and no closer to getting a direct answer from anyone), I was ready to slam heads together.

Hospital Office Drones!

Instead, I singed a few ears (and bared my teeth a few times) and ended up driving into town (between rains), to the post office – to repeat the same process I had done a little over a month ago: and this time, I better not get another shitty letter … or another BS-run-around >:-P

I was frustrated. I was angry.

I don’t feel good – I have a cold; it has me coughing and sneezing periodically: I do not need to be coughing and sneezing in a busy P.O., where I will be getting dirty looks from masked people living in fear that every damned thing is covid related.

People/businesses have gone covid crazy.

Seriously.

And they are picking a fight with a woman who isn’t afraid to fight back.


Covid is a convenient excuse …