It’s a double-edged sword.
2020 has been a disaster from the get-go … and it gets worse every day.
However, today to lighten things up - I made up my own version of a Holiday Solitaire Game (instructions at the end of this post).
The game was a relaxing diversion form the headlines.
Demonrats playing
games with our $$$$$$; shafting Americans – holding Americans
financially hostage, while supporting the whole damned world
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ba0MVR7TCNE)
Stimulus checks delayed (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RUzDDFzvnX0)
pelosi plans to pull trump out of the White House ‘by his hair’ (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1Y2iE3h4DE)
DC hails fauci
as a demigod (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sACahBdmfu4)
Seriously???
Throw Christ out of Christmas, and erase all visual references to the Nativity … and raise up a snarky looking elf-on-the-shelf little man with a messiah complex to be celebrated as a Christmas miracle?
OH, ((((HELL
NO!))))
And, on the other hand …
2020 has been very healing for me.
The covid nonsense never stopped me in my tracks; I continued to get out and about every Sunday. I don’t live my life by fear – and I resent anyone telling me what to do/how to live/and who to associate with.
What did slow me down was crippling sciatic pain coupled with arthritic pain, when the cooler weather hit, about 6 weeks ago. Again … I don’t live my life by fear – I researched what I need to do at home to alleviate the pain, and allow my body to heal.
With all the bedrest, I’ve lost more weight: I dropped 30 pounds while standing deathwatch with Bob September thru December of 2018. I lost another 10 pounds these past 6 weeks. I am glad to be dropping the weight … it helps my body tremendously; but I wish it wasn’t so hurtful to my heart, and bones.
Emotionally, I have come a loooong way since beginning my solo lobo life journey 24 months/10 days/11 hours – 42 minutes ago; I’m not longer crying at the drop of a hat anymore. The crying jags are fewer, and further between. Thank God.
Spiritually, I am getting back on track: everything stopped when Bob’s heart stopped, 24 months/10 days/11 hours – 42 minutes ago; I just coasted along, safe and secure in Elohei’s love. Now, I am actively engaging again: it feels good to feel alive again.
Physically, I’m in a better place. Bob and I enjoyed the life of retirement to the max … I barely cooked during the 7 years of Bob’s retirement; we were on the road quite a bit, and we sampled a lot of restaurant fare. It was showing on both of us – restaurant food is fattening. I only ate in the hospitals when Bob was undergoing x-rays (that was sporadic), so I didn’t eat a lot: I did stay hydrated, though. When I weighed myself the day after coming back to our home a widow, I was shocked to see that 30 pounds had been shed. And I remember crying, and saying to Yeshua, “I know I asked for help to lose weight, but I didn’t know my request would come at such a hefty price.”
The recent weight loss comes after a painful interlude too, but it is pain of a different caliber.
And I really hope and pray further weight loss does not involve pain.
Of any sort.
Tonight, is Christmas Eve.
In my home, I celebrate The Christ prophesied and acknowledged as Lord and King. The obama-cliton-pelosi-biden-harris cartel is not royalty … and fauci is not who I worship.
My allegiance is to Yeshua – and Him alone.
I am not celebrating it in a flashy way this year because the political nonsense sucked all the joy out of the Season … and I was flat on my back, in bed, most of the Season. So, this Christmas Eve is pretty low-key.
I spent most of the day listening to the radio (the DJ played back-to-back Christmas songs); and playing solitaire.
I even made up my own solitaire game 😉
In a festive mood, I laid the cards out in a tree shape 😊
While I listened to the songs, and played my game … I thought of how truly blessed my life has been/currently is. It hasn’t all been a bed of roses; but it has been blessed, regardless.
I am loved and highly favored.
My life has been altered … but it is still good.
I love You, Yeshua; thank You for loving me unconditionally, and making me Yours: help me to stay the course and make You proud. You are the best Husband, ever; and You gave me a good man in the flesh, to love me unconditionally, as long as his earthen vessel held up. I am eternally thankful.
I love you, Bob. I am glad you were in my life for the better part of it (44 of my 64 years); and I am glad you are now walking with Yeshua … where angels trod. Earth is going to Hell in a handbasket very quickly – I would not ask to have you return to me, even if that were a possible request: you are better off outta here.
I will see you both when my chores down here are done ~ OX
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jR-wUErMFyA&list=PL7Sv7aQs2p0X-7ug0jDfAUUCTZ6QBrGaN&index=3)
