Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Tuesday, September 27, 2022

ANTICIPATION

This morning, I was invited to a coffee-chit chat … so, having nothing else to do, and wanting to broaden my ‘tribe’ community – I went 😉

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It was fun. And as always happens when people are getting to now one another, a questions and answer session unfolded.

Until this afternoon, I’m wasn’t sure I knew what I really wanted out of this New Life that is constantly unfolding and molding itself to life in the moment.

I know what I miss in this, my new life.

I know what I don’t want in this, my new life.

I know that I want to experience more vivacity of heart, creativity, and anticipation.

I want to always get excited about the little things in life that become big moments in the moment: the keen sense of untapped possibilities, unfolding seasons – and all the charm and change they bring, windows (car and home) open on a crisp fall day, captured sweet moments of laughter with people I love, rainy day naps, good books … and long phone covo’s with people who care if I live or die.

The Moody Blues – ‘I Know You’re Out There’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf_lPwKEVgo)

I just want a life that vibrates with a strong current of Life.

I want to experience – with all my senses – all the beauty that life still holds for me.

When I was asked this afternoon what I want out of life, I answered without hesitation: “I want direction. I want someone in my life to share my life with.” I have thought this thought for a little over a year now; but I have never before said it out loud – saying it out loud would make it a real “thing”. A thing I would actively put into motion. This afternoon I actually said it out loud. This afternoon I spoke the want out loud … I basically spoke it into action. As soon as the words were out of my mouth and became real living things, bouncing off the walls and filling the room, my heart leapt and I wanted to cry with the liberating freedom that was born in that moment.

My heart is expanding. My life is making space for a strong current of Life.

That’s what I want out of this new phase of my unfolding life.

But for now … in this moment … all I seem to have acquired is a resident rabbit, that is making a home for itself on my town lot 😉

My resident wild rabbit.