Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Wednesday, December 14, 2022

PERSISTENCE

Today is the 4-year mark of Bob’s graduation Home.

This afternoon I had plans to meet a friend in town for lunch – I was thankful when she texted me earlier this week to make this lunch date; it would redirect my thoughts, and the convo would keep things light and lively. I would not be sitting at home feeling edgy this year. My thoughts would not be in rewind mode.

I am thankful Becky called. I am glad we are keeping our monthly lunch dates, no matter what: persistence is the name of the game 😉

So, instead of moping around wondering what to do with myself, at 8:05 this December 14th … I was getting ready to enjoy this day, this year.

Exterior maintenance ...
 
‘Pearl’ for eyebrow & ‘Plum’ eyeshadow; sparkly ‘Navy’ eye accent & 'liner'; ‘Auburn’ Eyebrow Gel & ‘Burgundy’ Mascara; ‘Nude Burn’ Crème Blush, ‘Primrose’ Lipstick & ‘Pink Quartz’ Lipgloss.
 
My pants are fitting looser ... YAY! I may have to make a shopping trip in the Spring ;-)
Lunch date with Becky was a Godsend; it helped ease the ache of today - Bob's 4-year Deathiversity.

Lunch was good. The companionship was good. The convo was good. Becky shared news about her job and her family; she said, “It don’t seem like Bob’s been gone four years – it seems like only yesterday.” I said, “I know.”

THERE WILL NEVER BE A DAY WHEN I DON'T MISS YOU.
Dolly Paron – ‘I Will Always Love You’ song:

She asked me if I was still sticking to my guns about staying single, adding, “Bob would want you to get on with life, Val.” I told her I’ve recently started doing what Bob told me to do – I’ve had three ‘coffee dates’ with Holland. I laughed and said, “Mr. Complication finally wore me down – he flirted persistently for a solid year; and around Thanksgiving this year, I finally accepted the invites. He knows I will always love Bob, and he knows there is a place in my life for him, too: I do like him; he’s a fun guy, and he makes me smile. But life got a little more complicated last week, and things are on hold right now, with Mr. Complication, until they get worked out.”

I also added this little tidbit: “He’s also six years younger than me.” She said, “So?” And I replied, “I’m not sure how I feel about that; it’s weird, to my way of thinking.”

And then … my phone notified me of an incoming text … Holland.

I laughed; and Becky said, “He’s persistent.”

I said, “I know! I haven’t dated in 48 years, Becky – I’m not used to being pursued; I don't know how to do this. Hahaha.”

After we finished our lunch and convo, she picked up the tab – and headed back to work  and I drove home listening to Christmas songs (first time since 2018). Holland is responsible for this year's good mood, even if everything is wrapped in complications ;-)

Grieving the loss of Bob's presence in my life, is very different this year.

I spoke with Holland on the phone, around 6:30 PM. He apologized for what went down at Oak Point, and made sure I got the message that he is trying to remedy the break between us: "I believe in us Baby, and you will too. I'll make this right."

We’ll see, and time will tell.

Leon – ‘I Believe In Us’ song:

I am persistently doing my best to move forward as Bob told me to do – and as Elohim expects me to do: living in the past is not living to the full potential of the time given me. I know that. I am moving forward, inch by inch, in unfamiliar territory. I don’t know what the future holds, but I know that this year has opened my eyes – and heart to possibilities I never imagined possible a year ago. I’m looking towards a future now 😊