So ... it's been a busy couple of days 😉
Our Plan was to get married Christmas Day after Christmas Supper at Holland's brother's house - the Redmill Family would gather ... and his nephew, who is a Pastor ... would be available to marry us in our home following Supper: the nephew came down sick. He sounded awful on the phone.
Needless to say, no marriage happened. But we did have a great Holiday, anyway - we aren't hormone-driven teenagers that were devasted by an unforeseen delay 😊
The next day, when Holland came to visit, he said: "How about we drive to Reno the first week of January? You said you like long drives, and this way you would get a honeymoon, too." Isn't he the sweetest guy?!
So, that is what we will be doing in a few days. We have spent the past 3 days getting ready to share our lives together: I've been freeing up space here .... and he's been hauling stuff from his place to here ("our" place). Hopefully, by the 5th, every lose end will be successfully 'tied-off', and we can turn the car's nose towards Reno.
I am still more than a little surprised to have found love again. I truly never believed it possible - Bob was my whole world most of my life; I loved him with all of my being (and then some); and was nearly undone on every level when Elohim called him Home. Love, for me, died when Bob's physical body died. It took a loooooong time for me to heal, and start getting on with "getting on". I wasn't interested in another man - men, in general, didn't interest me. I wasn't watching men. I wasn't encouraging men. I laughed off flirtations, and flat out told them to look elsewhere.
I.w.a.s.n.t.i.n.t.e.r.e.s.t.e.d.
But Holland was persistent.
He was a fast friend - and I felt comfortable around him: he knew my feelings about my husband, because I talked about Bob nonstop. He also flirted for 12 months, and I held him off: I wasn't interested. My heart still belonged to my husband, and I couldn't see that ever changing: I didn't WANT that to change. 14 months into our friendship relationship, Holland gambled with a text he sent me: he flat out told me how he felt ... and I agreed to "a coffee" around Thanksgiving time. Then, we went for a drive to his old stomping ground area, in Vader - and it was an enjoyable afternoon. But it spooked me. I didn't want to feel anything for Holland: I wasn't ready to let go of Bob's memory. I told Holland to "look elsewhere - I'm not the one you want". He said, "I know what I want; I'll wait for you. You'll get comfortable with the idea of Me." Cocky thing, wasn't he 😉
Then Holland ended up in the hospital, and I was more than spooked - I was downright scared: I knew then that I had true, and deep feelings for Holland. I couldn't imagine life without him, if the thing that landed him in the hospital, spiraled out of control. So, when he was back home and texted me: "We need to talk", I agreed. We needed to talk. And that was {IT}; December 5th changed everything, we were both "in deep". That Coffee Date morphed into planning a lifetime together 😊
My heart is big enough to hold the memory of Bob's love ... and the implantation of a new love. The "unimaginable" suddenly became my future focus. And sometime in the first week of January, that future focus will become a reality. Holland loves me - there's no doubt whatsoever about that (he told me he's been waiting 35 years for me)! He is a good man. He is a Godly man. Elohim, personally (against my express wishes/I wasn't looking), put him in my life (everything but neon arrows pointed to him, saying, "this is HIM - the one I've chosen for you"); and I know Bob would like him. Holland tells me I'm good for him, and I know he's good for me (he checks ALL the boxes): we are a good match. Our 15 month friendship has become sweeter, and more lovingly intimate.
So, NO: 15 months is not "moving too fast". Elohim & Holland think it's too long, since we are both Senior Citizens living on limited time. I started dating Bob in April, and married him in August; 4 months is a lot shorter than 15 😉
I am greatly blessed, and highly favored. THANK YOU, FATHER!!!!
We can't wait to add his Name to mine ... which
is a good thing, because we are acting like silver-haired teenagers. We are
Christians – this wildfire needs to be Legal. ASAP 😊
Dan Seals – ‘I Saw You In My Dreams’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWEoe9PSYWA)
Dan Seals – ‘Only You’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHBx4AOY2HA&list=RDBHBx4AOY2HA&start_radio=1)
George Straight – ‘I Cross My Heart’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihqEuk7PCU4)
Tracy Byrd –
‘Love Lessons’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tqd5UAjEVXA)
Marty Stuart – ‘Till I Found You’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQ9lgv015n8)
Marty Stuart – ‘Little Things’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57nHU-giuMw)
Bellamy Brother’s – ‘I Need More of You’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvMXBeF9f2c)
Exile – ‘I Can’t Get Close Enough’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYUv3Rxw-sA)
Ronnie Millsap – ‘Daydreams About Night Things’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4CDybdzdoKw)
Exile – ‘Kiss You All Over’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mpiBdB6yJC8)
Marty Stuart – ‘Burn Me Down’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4sW5J8fjzg)
