This morning I woke up thinking I needed to get the rest of
whatever I plan to plant this season, into my garden boxes and various container
pots. While I was enjoying my morning coffee, and slowly waking up in my cool
air-conditioned castle; I noticed a flash of bright color fly past the LV windowpanes
and perch in my garden area …
Sunny colored Evening Grosbeak bird – it had a pistachio green tinted beak: colorful all over!
Seeing the colorful visitor made me think of the hummingbird
feeders I needed to replace: the past few days I’ve noticed that the large
hummingbird feeders, Bob & I had bought and hung together, had seemed to
have sprung leaks – I was washing the white railing and porch down every day so
the red tinted sugar water didn’t stain the porch railing; they needed
replacing.
One more thing from my life with Bob that I am forced to let go of.
If Bob were here, replacing the feeders would not affect me at all.
But, Bob is not here, and I feel gut-kicked every time I have to replaced
something we did together. Little by little, Bob’s presence in/around
this house is disappearing. I don’t like it.
Yesterday, while in town, I swallowed hard, and bought 2 smaller
feeders; this morning, I hung them. I am capable of hanging them, but ((((MAN!))))
I sure missed the shadow of Bob’s height and watching his long arms reach up to
place them in position. Being the shortie I am, and being a solo lobo now,
there will be no more sheltering shadow; no more long arms to ease tasks.
No more gentle giant
to hug and kiss.
There is just me.
And I don’t like it.
So, I focus on the beauty that surrounds me in every minute of my
new life days. I like watching hummingbirds. I hung the new feeders
without trauma drama:
No leaks – no stains ;-)
As soon as I had hung the feeders and came into the house, a hummer was at the feeder :-D
I didn’t see any cracks in the feeder bases, but they sure leaked like a sieve … so into the trash they went this morning: I saved the feeder tubes to store the sugarwater-nectar in; in the ‘fridge.
That task done – and accomplished without tears – I gathered what I
would need to finish planting the garden area; and got busy.
I had to pump the wheel barrow wheel again: I really need to break down and get a new tire pump; this one ... bought with Bob, is toast.
1 more thing to be trashed & replaced.
These {replacements} are happening to quickly.
To often.
Do I have to lose everything all at once????
Focus on the beauty, Val; not the loss ...
It was a hot 84-degree-day.
I was HOURS in the sun getting the garden planted & watered.
I am burned: my face, my nape, my arms, my legs, my feet.
I am burned: my face, my nape, my arms, my legs, my feet.
My body felt the
heat.
It was a beautiful blue-sky day full of promise – and surprises …
While I was filling my watering can, I happened to look up at the sky, and smiled …
My day was filled with beauty from start to finish.
My garden is totally
IN; now.
It was a good day
:-D
Now, after I post this post, I’m going to take a load off my
feet and relax by finishing up the last of the Baby Sweater Jackets I’ve
been working on:
I want to finish up the last of the Baby Sweater Jackets I’ve been knitting … and I ran out of yarn. Now what? I didn’t know if I had any more …
I did! I looked in every possible place there might be a small bit of left-over yarn ends. There isn’t a lot, but there’s enough to finish up :-D THANK YOU, YESHUA!
