Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Showing posts with label widow memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label widow memories. Show all posts

Friday, December 2, 2022

THINK PINK & BREATHE

I woke up to snow on the ground, here, this morning.

7:30 AM

I had a car maintenance appointment in Kelso around noon – the street looked fine, so I kept the appointment 😉

I decided to wear pink today. A lot of pink 😊

On my way out the door, I grabbed my latest read, and stuck it in my purse – it’s a good read, and it keeps my attention; I’m already ¾th’s way through it.

Keeping everything in the pink range of color.
'Primrose' Lipstick & 'Pink Quartz' Lipgloss; and 'Grape' nail color & 'Crystal Clear' topcoat.
Car maintenance appointment this afternoon ....

Driving back home, I topped the gas tank, and noticed the price has gone down a bit … and I also got an invite to lunch at the Indy Diner on Industrial Way 😊

A breather with the gas prices.
Blue Burger; Indy Way Diner.

Listening to Christmas music while driving home on Old Pacific Highway, those pesky peacocks were stopping traffic again. They really need to have their wings clipped! They are pretty – but they are also a nuisance.

These peacocks are going to cause someone to wreak.

I had barely gotten around the pesky birds, when I got an incoming text: Mr. Complication was in the hospital

That bit of news was additional complication. He has the key to the building where the Jam Sessions are held – people needed to be told the session would be canceled. Another friend texted me and told me that the roads would be too risky, and everyone needed to stay home; I agreed … but I also texted back saying the people who would be showing up (those used to driving in the iffy weather) still needed to be told the session was canceled: I needed to get into the hills and meet them with the news when they showed up (some people are weird about giving their phone numbers out).

So, that’s what I did.

And I’m glad I risked it because the roads were really not that bad, and people did show up. I arrived safely, and the news was relayed. I really didn’t have much to tell them, other than he was in the hospital.

Not a lot of snow.

The drive home was a little dicier – there was ice under the slush; but I drove very cautiously, and managed to get back home in one piece 😉

A bit icy, and a lot slushy; I drove very cautiously over that hill.
The entire drive over the hill - and I didn't care if the drivers behind me were getting angry.

When I got home, I ate Supper and decided to see if I could find out anything more about Mr. Complication’s situation. I spent hours on the phone (no one knew anything more than I did). When I got an actual person on the hospital line, I even went as far as hinting that I was a “close friend” (and I would have had the info if the test results had come in faster); all I managed to get from mutual friends was that he’d been throwing up earlier at his house, and drove himself to the hospital with severe pains, he thought was an appendix attack.

Hearing how severely he had been throwing up – immediately sent my thoughts into flashback mode, remembering Bob violently throwing up before I rushed him to ER that horrible day, that landed him in ER with a death sentence hanging over his head.

Around 9 PM, Mr. Complication texted me that he had been diagnosed with kidney stones. OUCH! Again, flashback memories hit fast and furious. I literally had to school myself to calm down and breathe calmly.

All the memories and feels that went with those memories were crowding my thoughts: Bob’s situation spiraled out of control because he didn’t feel the pain like a normal person would (so he missed the warning pains), and an infection set in that could not be controlled; which led to his physical deathMr. Complication feels the ouch; he will fare better than my Mr. Wonderful did.

NO! I do not love Mr. Complication! But, he is a friend, and I don’t like to think of him suffering that kind of pain. I hope that this affliction will be tended to quickly, and that he will be on the mend speedily.

Thursday, November 24, 2022

SOMETHING TO PONDER

I jetted off 21 “Happy Thanksgiving!”s before my feet hit the floor this morning – and received 14 replying texts (2 granddaughters, included - thank You, Yeshua 😊)

3 phone calls from friends, and 2 “I love you” texts (AM & PM)which included a ferried Thanksgiving Supper from Mr. Complication 😉

Bonnie Raitt – ‘Thing Called Love’ song:

I am being courted.

I’ve never been courted before.

Bob and I just fell into an easy relationship – that involved dating from our first “hello” to “let’s get married” (a four months perios of time); but there was no courting: we got married in a fever. It was like we had always been a couple, and there was no need to get to know each other (that happened after we were married 😉). I know that sounds weird  but it's truth. From the get-go, it was like our hearts spoke to each other: "Oh, there you are!"

But this … what is developing now … is different. It’s unfamiliar territory.

I'm actively being pursued.

It's not uncomfortable; it's just different.

That’s something to ponder.

While I ponder {Val's Courtship}, I’m going to work off the holiday calories of that welcome turkey supper delivered to my front door, by Mr. Complication 😊

Use common sense - and know what your body can do, before exercising.

Monday, November 21, 2022

FAR, FAR AWAY LAND

I was up at 5 AM this morning. Thinking. Mentally scrolling through today’s itinerary.

By 6 AM, I was fully awake and sitting in the recliner by the fireplace; drinking coffee and reading a few chapters of my latest Clive Cussler read 😉

Around 7 AM, I pulled my thoughts away from Clive’s far, far away land narrative; and pulled my ‘temple repair kit’ out of the vanity drawer … and started getting my face in place for the day ahead 😊

Temple Repair Kit. LOL
Glittery 'Gentle' for brow line & glittery 'Black' & 'Navy' for 'liners' - top & bottom.
Black accent eye color; 'Soft Brown' Eyebrow Gel, Glam Brown Mascara, & 'Coral Ember' Creme Blush.
1 coat of glittery Nail Polish; and 'Luminous Coral' Lipstick & 'Coral Crave' Lipgloss.
 
Ready to roll ...

The purpose of Mondays and Tuesdays is to help other’s build a beautiful life – inside, as well as outside.

A beautiful life starts with a love foundation.

Love comes from accepting yourself (warts, and all), and working towards a better life that will hold a beautiful future: should you be granted a tomorrow.

Love comes from building community: a communal network of people you can count on to have your back when the world is stabbing you in the back.

Love comes from making connections: a kinship. Unity. Identity. A cooperative spirit … pulling in double harness, so to speak.

Love comes from love (what you give, is what you get).

Love is what matters. Leave a trail of love in your wake 😊

After Monday’s meeting which went well, I was invited to lunch with friends. I was touched by the kind thoughtfulness that went into the preparation of the meal. Before we sat down to eat, I was laughingly (in friendliness) told, “I bought a tub of margarine just for you. There has never been margarine in my refrigerator before, but there is now.” I am allergic to dairy products – this small act of kindness meant a lot to me. This family has officially adopted me as a sister. I am blessed.

Even so, this is another Thanksgiving Invite I declined. Maybe next year ... but not this year.

Kindness is love in action.
Quality Friends are the best friends to have.

When I got home, I checked my FB Comments, and got a warm glow in my heart when I read a comment to one of my comments made a day ago. I always like it when people have good things to tell me about Bob 😊

I like knowing that people remember my husband in a good way.

FB Post I replied to ...
Replies
Bob; Mar. '67 - house he spent his teens in, & the same house I came to as a Bride … and lived in with him, for 19 years before we sold it, and moved; & Bob's Year Book Football Pic - Number 27; 1967. The jersey was so thread-bare, I finally trashed it, in Spring, 2019.

I do not know the people that knew Bob in High School – in that far, far away land of 1967. I saw Bob when he walked past me on the school grounds … but I did not know Bob until seven years into the future of 1974; after he had graduated.

My 2019 ‘I Only Want To Be With You’ Post: https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2019/08/i-only-want-to-be-with-you.html

I like hearing good things about my husband – even if they are small tidbits, given here and there.

Now, I’m going to eat some of the BBQ Chicken that was sent home with me earlier today, after a homestyle lunch that included more recent far, far away land stories being shared … then after washing the dishes, I am going to faithfully work the calories off 😉