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Showing posts with label life memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life memories. Show all posts

Saturday, August 27, 2022

HOLDING TIGHT TO MEMORIES

Anniversaries are moments that mark the landscape of your life: 1st Date Anniversaries, Wedding Anniversaries … Death Anniversaries.

Tonight, would have been my 48th Wedding Anniversary, if Bob had not been called Home.

Though Bob was ready and willing … taking that marriage leap was a huge deal for me. I couldn’t afford to anticipate, expect, or rely on anyone – all that involved trust … and trust, at all points in my life sans Bob, had been seriously broken.

Bob had a high wall to scale.

But he did it; he patiently, and systematically broke through my reserves and proved to me time and time again that he was trustworthy. And so was his unconditional love. He (and it) never wavered: even to his last breath, he was proving to me – and verbalizing to everyone else – his love for me.

My faith in his love was never misplaced; or shaken. And I never gave him reason to question my love for him.

Our love was the real deal.

For four decades.

Bob’s loving embrace always made me feel safe.

Protected.

Beautiful.

Worthy of love.

Completed.

The loss of his comforting touch could have left a devastating hole in my life – had I not been so thoroughly, and faithfully loved for 44 years before his spirit stepped off this Earth.

The touching never stopped – until his breathing stopped.

The memories of our life together still evoke safety, and protection.

Bob’s love still burns bright in my life.

The old dovetails comfortably with the New.

I love you, Babe.  

Always ~ OX

Saturday, August 13, 2022

ROADSIDE ATTRACTIONS ~Shabbat

Joe Satriani – ‘Blue Foot Groovy’ tune:

I love spending time in the country 😊

Though I live in the outskirts (rural area) pretty removed from actual ‘downtown’ … Longview is significantly expanding this year – and that expansion is seriously biting out a huge chunk of my {rural} area: the West End is starting to mimic downtown

Heron Point is located this side of white boundary line shown on map.

So, when I get a change to flee the encroaching city sprawl … and spend time where the trees grown tall and thick, and screen doors offer a country welcome and a resounding whack sound when they shut; I’m out my front door and on my way with no time wasted 😉

But before I left home this afternoon, I made another batch of homemade Oat Milk for the coffee in my thermos travel mug; this time using a different recipe – I only strained it once through a cotton bandana; I don’t mind a thicker ‘milk’, and I don’t find the thicker style “slimy”, at all. I heat it a bit (30 secs) in the microwave before adding powdered creamer, 2 packets of sweetener, and a dash of cinnamon. Maybe heating the oat milk a bit before adding it to the hot coffee keeps my oat milk from the dreaded sliminess everyone else on the recipe pages keep yapping about … all I know is my method works for me. And I’m okay with being ‘different’.

DIY OAT MILK Recipe:

Today is my Sleuth Sister get-together.

I had time to spare before our 1’noon sit-in, so I drove the long way to get there 😉

Beaver Creek Road; Longview to Cathlamet-WA
Erosion on Beaver Creek Road; 269 feet elevation – not a very steep incline, but the road is narrow and unstable on the lower end.

This way is less stressful that back-to-back traffic below, on Ocean Beach Highway (which is the scenic route along the Columbia River). Long scenic drives on winding country roads relaxes me; so, I will always take the country route. – some country routes will take me miles and hours out of the way, but to me those backroad routes are worth the extra time and gas.

Linda couldn’t make it to our get-together this afternoon; but Ramona, Becky, & I spend 5 hours of enjoyable chit-chat, laughter, sharing, and sleuthing 😊

Joe Satriani – ‘The Elephants of Mars’ tune:

It was 6 PM when we parted ways and I nosed the Highlander home. Coming over the top of scalped KM (recent logging allows for good viewing now), the sunlit waters in the distance winked at me, so I pulled over to the road shoulder, and contemplated which part of the river was being shown.

Bob would have known.

But I am not Bob. And Bob is no longer available for questioning.

I could only guess.

Columbia River seen from top of KM; 760 feet elevation.

Further along; driving through Skamokawa, I saw that Moe Hill had also been recently scalped. It was weird to see it nakedit’s always been swaddled in forest as long as I’ve been in Washington, which is 56 years now. That hill holds a memory for me: not a memory shared with Bob, but a good memory, just the same 😉

Moe Hill seen from where my childhood home used to stand ...

One summer day, we 5 kids (my mother was 30 yo; I was 10, ramona was 9, Mahlon was 8, Carla was 7 & Sam was 5) hiked with my mother, from our home on Ingalls Road in Skamokawa, across the highway and through fields, up over Moe Hill (Moe Hill is 883 feet in elevation – and it was pure shale at the peak; but we crested it 😊) to my Aunt Terri's house (long gone), where the Skamokawa Vista Park Trail is now. I remember there was a wall of what I would describe as {glass} in the forest of one of those fields – that ‘glass’ was probably sunlight quartz: but it was long, and tall, and very bright in the sunlight. Like a wall of mirror glass; very beautiful, and I’ll never forget that sight.

I also remember my youngest brother was 5 years old when we made that lengthy hike, and my sister ramona had brought her little Dachshund (Snoopy) with us. The shale was deeper and slicker the closer we got to the top of Moe Hill, and we took a breather break for a bit when we finally crested the top. Just as we cleared the bottom, and started walking down the logging road towards Aunt Terri’s house behind the old school house, my father and Uncle Don were walking up the road to come find us. But my mother just laughed, and we laughed with her. We had been having fun on our long, exploratory hike. And my mother could read the sky – there was no chance we would get lost. But the men were very seriously worried (our breather break had put us behind arrival schedule), so we stopped laughing and meekly followed them. Every time I drive through Skamokawa, and I see that hill, I think of that hot summer hike over Moe Hill.

And I smile 😊

Continuing along Ocean Beach Highway home via the Cathlamet route, I passed through the wildfire section of the route.

WILDFIRE!
Site of the recent wildfire; Wahkiakum County.
Boot trail blazed by the firefighters ...

Coming around the corner at Stella – about 5 minutes from home – I saw a red ship: this is a new sight. A red ship is not something one sees every day unless you happen to be a captain or deck hand on this ship 😉

It was kinda startling. Interesting, too.

This bright red ship caught my eye; seen from Stella.
Stella from Heron Pointe; via Ocean Beach Highway - 7 min (5.1 mi) via WA-4 W

I had a great time with the gals. I enjoyed a relaxing countryside drive with scenic vistas. I smiled when reflecting on good memories. And my attention was snagged by a red ship highlighted by sunlit waters and a green forested hillside.

My Shabbat Rest began with a restful day; and I am thankful 😊


Thursday, May 26, 2022

INSPIRATION

After last night’s blowout; I needed to burn off some energy and settle my thoughts.

First thing I did this morning was delete both Tamika’s phone number – and the Zoom Meet Contact.

Then, I started exercising – I pushed the envelope, but my body can handle it, so I didn’t really exert myself: I just did more than I normally do.

10-Minute Ageless Woman Workout: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7Yd46xm_tk

Can You Get Rid Of Bat Wings And Go Sleeveless At Sixty: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOlcqXdmk9U

Use common sense - and know what your body can do, before exercising. I do about 15 to 20 reps an exercise.

That wrapping up, I decided to go for a walk 😉

I still have big expenses happening this month, so I decided to stay close to home: Lake Sacajawea is less than 5 minutes from my front door; that would do nicely 😉

Next time I will go the Old Pacific Highway, because there are tire-eater steel plates across Ocean Beach Highway again

The tire-eater steel plates are back; strung across OBH at Baker's Corner. These things are thick - and sharp edged. They can do serious damage to tires.
Mt. Solo Road will be closed until September (upgrading the sewer lines I’ve been told); already the water bill has escalated to recoup the City’s monetary deficit.

And things weren’t much better at the gas pump when I pulled in there to top the gas tank.

Gas prices will be out of sight by the time Summer Holidays arrive.
Not quite half a tank ... the Highlander gest 21 miles to a gallon. Even so, it's been parked quite a bit this year.

When I got to the Lake, I determined to walk the entire Lake Loop Hike.

Lake Sacajawea: https://www.mylongview.com/facilities/facility/details/Lake-Sacajawea-12

There was a parking spot available at the Rhododendron Garden area … so, I started from there.

I took a lot of pictures of the blossoms because I want to work designs around the color schemes.

These dainty bells caught my eye, right off. They are quite little.
Purple with black accent 'eye'; large, flared blossom.
Pink with orange accent 'eye'; large flared blossom.
Lilac with white star center, & fuchsia accent 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Pale lilac with dark purple 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Pink with maroon accent 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Light Purple with white petal stripes & pistachio accent 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Pink-edge cream with gold accent 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Red with deep fuchsia accent 'eye'; medium flared blossom.
Eye-catching with the sunlight illuminating the blossoms from behind; a deep pink with a yellow throat & orange accent 'eye'; medium flared blossoms.
A white rhodie that has managed not to 'melt' into a slimy mess after the rainfall; a pristine white with a touch of purple, deep in the trumpet neck; medium blossoms.
Pale pink with candy pink striping on the outside of flared blossoms.
Fuchsia with pale yellow star; medium flared blossom.
Tempting fate; heavily pollen-laden evergreen tips right at nose level ...
Pretty, dangling trumpet-shaped blossoms. Medium blossom spread; salmon with yellow inside-n-out of trumpet blossoms; gold accent 'eye'.
Rhodie’s are pretty - but they kinda 'melt' and get slimy when it rains heavily.

Reaching the Main Playground, I saw that construction was still happening in that area.

Renovations still going on ... all the way over the footbridge to Nichols Blvd. Plaza.
New sidewalks will be laid, next week.
And an archway will be constructed - I asked what was going on ;-)
Poignant memory right here ... the last time Bob visited this Park.
Hearing Bob's voice is a mixed blessing. Bob loved this Park; and he loved our grandson. October 19th, 2018.
October 19th, 2018. This is the last time Bob and Aza saw each other. After this day in the Park, Bob went into the hospital, and never came out again, alive.

I kept walking.

I did not want to start crying.

Pretty Dogwood tree near the playground.
Lion's Island in bloom – rhodie’s, yellow flag lilies, and white waterlilies.
The Longview Community Church; Bob's sister, Merry, married her second husband, here.
I'll be walking under this Washington Way Bridge - on the opposite side - on my way back to the Highlander.
Our daughter married Alyna's Father, Greg, here; the day after Christmas 1995.

This Park is ‘tradition’: lots of memories here. This was Bob’s favorite place to be, in Longview. We came here dating. We came here as a married couple. And now, I come here as a Solo Lobo.

Pirate Ship in Lion's Pirate Park section of Lake Sacajawea; Alyna, and Azariah played here. Azariah loved this thing.
These wild roses were very pungent ... and LARGE petaled; what a surprise. Lion's Pirate's Playground. I never knew wild roses could get SO large!
This tree looked like it was covered with white butterflies ... another Dogwood tree - pungently pleasing.
A Golden Chain tree.
The markings on this pole, is very striking - I was impressed to be inspired.
Pretty white waterlilies along the trail behind the Pirate Park; small blossoms.
Another Gothic-style church building; Bob's sister, Bonnie married her first husband, here.
I like the door ... and the staggered brick work, too.

Turning, I saw little goslings 😊

So, I watched them for a while.

Goose families taking advantage of this warm, sunny day.

I was feeling pretty good. My feet were felling pretty good. I was making good time.

Trail I just walked behind the Pirate Park ... opposite side of the Lake.
White Hydrangea blossoms.
Pretty, vibrant red hedge.
Yellow Flag Lilies (aka Swamp lilies).
White water lilies.
Bicolor shrub.
Peony bush.
Hybrid Lavender plant.
Caught sight of a fisherman. Not sure if fish are biting ... but this fisherman sure is biting. LOL
Another one; this one is a fisherwoman.
I teased her a little.
A five- foot-long sturgeon was recently seen cruising through the murky depths of Lake Sacajawea; this is the actual picture.
That is where I started from; the Rhododendron Garden's backside.
Geese & Mallards.
Yellow waterlilies blooming.
The Japanese Garden Entrance.
Japanese Garden Bridge.
Brilliant red leaves as soon as you cross the bridge.
Water feature in the Japanese Garden; very soothing, and relaxing.
Dark salmon Azalea with a striking orange accent 'eye'; medium blossom.

It was a good day in the Park, today 😊

And I can’t wait to start using some of those inspirational color combinations in new designs 😉