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Thursday, November 12, 2020

BATTING CURVE BALLS

Well …

The “further issue” of last night became the present issue of today.

I checked the floor before walking down the hallway to bed last night – and there was a bit of water under the front edge of the dishwasher; not puddling like before: just wet.

There is obviously a slow leak somewhere.

So, I before I moseyed down the hallway to the bedroom, I turned the under-sink water valve back off; that flows into the hose that feeds through the side of the kitchen sink cabinet, and into the dishwasher.

And first thing this morning, I texted Shay – she contacted her contact … and the waiting is on.

I'm going to need Shay's fella ...
Black mold is a serious concern.

Thankfully, I do have $$$$ in savings to shift around to cover this new added expense.

But that is money that is earmarked for Emergency Tire Fund – it will be the second time I have had to pull money from savings in an 8-week period of time.

I feel guilty having to do it: when Bob was preparing to go to OHSU the end of November 2018, he stressed to me the importance of making sure I had a specific amount of ready $$$$ set aside/available for emergency tire replacement. He knew OHSU was a make-it-or-break-it gamble on lifesaving measures, and he wanted to be sure I was {set} financially if things went south in a heartbeat.

Things did go south in the short 21-day-period of time we were in Oregon.

November 24th; afternoon. Finally made OHSU ... aka Hospital Hilton.
BOB; 1967 – The face that stole my 10 year old heart.
Our Wedding Night; 1974. No one gave us a 6-month chance ... we made it for 44 wonderful years.
Bob & I; 1984.
BOB; 2006.
BOB; 2017.
December 2018; Bob playing Solitaire on his laptop that I brought back with me from home on Tuesday. (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/pancreatic-nightmare.html)
December 14th, 2018 – Bob’s last day on Earth, with me. (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/widowhood.html)

And I have been very careful to keep that Savings Balance necessary – until the demonrat political covid bullshit – which has businesses going off the rails with ass-saving mask rules that do absolutely nothing but make life stupidly hard for the rest of us.

When I had to update my glasses, about 8 weeks ago … my regular optometrist would not see me unless I agreed to suffocate myself: I refused, which meant scheduling with another optometrist – with an added $300 billing increase.

I did a Bazaar the end of October and was able to replace 2/3rds of the filched Savings fund; only to have the dishwasher go wonky yesterday.

These past 22 months have been a constant 3-step shuffle; I can never quite master the waltz now that my dance partner has left his earthly sneakers behind, and now wears golden slippers to trip the lights fantastic beyond the clouds.

And though I do enjoy a rousing baseball game … right now, I’d enjoy it more as a spectator than an active player: my batting arm is starting to burn with the continual activity.

Widowhood – familial abandonment – a leaky tire (it has been patched, but it still needs careful monitoring; and will eventually need replaced) – necessary replacements (like glasses, that are seriously necessary) – and unexpected expenses (that always seems to crop up when the government goes into slap-down mode).

I miss the sharing of decision making. I miss being able to take a rest from life’s sucker punches once in a while; I miss the comfort of knowing my husband was bearing 50% of daily responsibilities. I miss the comfort of Bob holding me when life got rough and tough.

It can start weighing on you, after a while.

I try to stay upbeat.

I don't allow a lot of negativity into my life. 

Hopefully {replacement} things will start slowing down; and I can have a little more wiggle room again financially.

Then again … maybe not, if the obama-clinton-pelosi-biden-harris coup actually becomes another obamanite nightmare scenario.

My wiggle room will pretty much disappear.

I know Elohim loves me, and has my back.

I trust Yeshua 100% to be my Husband/Provider.

I trust God.

Just once, in this new life of mine, I’d like to bat that curve ball out of the Ball Park and enjoy a home run.

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