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Monday, April 12, 2021

MAKING READY

 Today was a day of preparations. 

Now that Spring is here; I expect I’ll be kept pretty busy inside, as well as outside.

I threw open the windows to let fresh air waft through the house – pushing the stale air out; and spent the morning prepping inside tasks (I’ll get those underway later this week) … I spent all the afternoon, ‘til Suppertime, making my weekly meals: and wrapping/freezing the other portion for future meals.

I also tacked wall guards in place where cabinet door knobs hit the wall at times; and I switched out the white silk roses on the flower ring – and replaced them with colorful silk Violas and Alstroemerias: 

It doesn’t sound like much, but it was. 

I was in constant motion today.

Making ready for the busy week ahead.

My dogs are barking unhappily for spending all day in the kitchen, standing on them as I walked them back and forth between ‘fridge, island counter, stove, sink, and dishwasher. 

They are not happy with me. 

So, I am going to drag them off to bed – and check in with Echo; to see how her day went 😉

 

Sunday, April 11, 2021

JUST CALL ME GRACIE

Last night when I went to bed, I knew I had to get out of the house – but, I don’t want to kick off my Sunday~Funday adventures until next week … after I buy my garden plants at the Adna Floral Show, Thursday morning.

I am working with a budget. And even though I do pencil in several ‘out of house days’; I also need to get garden transplants that I do not have success starting myself (hence the Adna trip 😉).

Last year I went over-budget at Adna; and knowing myself like I do, I probably will go over budget again this year, too. So, I am pinching the pennies a little more this month until I get my garden stuff. After Thursday, I’ll know what I have to work with $$-wise for Daytrips to end this month.

Last night I knew I’d be hitting the road to somewhere this morning: but I didn’t know where – and I did not dip into my ‘Ambitions Jar’ for a suggestion.

That is for my Sunday~Funday adventures. 

Anyway.

I decided to do a road trip I like to do: and tweak it a little to change the scenery 😊

There was no particular reason to do this loop drive, except that I like country drives – and I’d see a lot of country along the route.

I was up at 8 AM … out of the house by 9:30 AM; I figured to be back a little after 1’noon, if I did straight driving/with no stops (except necessary pit stops). But I grabbed my hiking shoes, in case I needed to stop and walk some kinks out. My leg is still chancy. If I stopped to walk – or gawk at the scenery – or if my leg started pitching a fit, and I needed to pull over, and stretch out in the back end for a while: I’d get home closer to Suppertime.

All I knew for sure, was that I needed to get in the car and drive.

Today was not a good day to be stuck in-house, with my thoughts going down rabbit hole memory jogs: I had to get away, or they’d bury me alive.

Already, that early in the morning, birds were singing beautifully; and the sky was a lovely robin’s egg blue, without a cloud in the sky.

I did not want to get lost in the missingness; I refused to cry all day.

I didn’t even wash my hair, or lubricate my sleepy-voice throat with coffee … I just beat feet.
My leg still hurts; but I'm chancing it.

I grabbed the car keys, buckled up, and chanced the long drive 😉

I pointed the nose of the Highlander towards Naselle, mentally planning the entire loop route that would bring me back to park in my carport later on.

Heron Pointe to Naselle; 1 hour.
I won't allow handicaps to hold me back from enjoying life.

As I was passing through Graysriver (a sleepy country burg before Naselle), I saw twinkling lights on at Duffy’s – HAPPY DAY! – I pulled in and felt lucky to be on the road this day 😊

Duffy's is not always open; thankfully, it was today.
Chuckling and enjoying my day, so far.

It may still be too nippy for sleeveless tops and short pants, but I can still get a satisfactory amount of vitamin D through my eyes – the exposed eye, other than exposed skin, is the only other major source of acquiring a healthy dose of necessary vitamin D.

Lunch at Duffy's; Oyster-burger w- Potato salad & O'Douls; Apple Pie to go ðŸ˜‰
Naselle to Pe Ell; 1 hr-13 mins.

The pullover at Duffy’s set my timeline back about 45 minutes.

But I figured it was worth it.

Getting home around 1’noon was not set in cement: I can afford to be flexible now that I am the only one, I have to consider.

No husband.

No kids.

No grandkids.

Just me: solo lobo.

It’s a sad reality that allows me a sad/complex exciting freedom.

Turning right at Raymond’s circular roundabout towards Pe Ell, the Spring weather was warm enough to warrant an ice cream cone – so I stopped at Galey’s Grocery (a small Mom & Pop Store that is reminiscent of the 1950’s), and bought one.

Another few miutes added to a long drive: but worth it.

The lady behind the counter was chatty; I didn’t mind. There is no one to chat with at home, and I miss chatter.

She asked me if I was enjoying the day.

I said I was – and told her I got that way at least once a month when the weather is nice, like today.

She asked me where I was going … I told her I had come from Longview and was taking the Pe Ell route home through Boistfort and Vader.

She said the day was perfect for a drive like that: and I said it was.

We smiled at each other.

We knew we’d see each other again in a few weeks.

Galey's Grocery Store

The drive through Pe Ell to Dryad was quiet and scenic.

Pe Ell to Ceres. 19 mins

I hadn’t been that way since I was passenger while Bob drove and held my hand atop the console, 3 years ago.

I could think about those days without needing to pull over and cry.

It’s a short little backroad cross-drive; there’s no chance of getting lost … it’s a straight forward road.

Driving along, around 2 PM, I spotted a sign pointing towards Rainbow Falls State Park.

I decided to stop there and take a short walk to see the Falls.

It turned out to be breathtaking; in more ways than one …

Short hike along the upper grounds of the Falls.
Pretty little violet-colored flowers; along the trail.
Trilliums were everywhere. My favorite Spring flower.
The water is so clear; you can see the bottom of the water bed.
The forest floor claimed some of my skin.
The upper part of the Falls.
The joining of the Falls on the lower end.
Recounting my 'Ump Worthy' slide.

Oh Lord!

My poor 64-year-old body was put through an exciting workout that definitely had been put through forest induced paces; LOL

My short walk morphed into a 45 minute meander.

If Bob had been riding the clouds and saw my graceful maneuvers as I {gracefully} kept myself, and his phone, from tumbling over the edge of the cliff into the fast-flowing waters, I bet he was laughing with me: it was funny after it was all over.

I could almost hear him ask, with a chuckle, “Are you okay, gracie?”

That was our private joke.

I really do get sidetracked and highjacked by clumsiness.

Meanwhile, down here on earth; enjoying the peaceful country drive, and busting out in laughter every time I thought about my breathtaking slide, I kept my eyes peeled for the Boistfort exit sign.

Just before the exit, I caught sight of a brightly painted steel bridge.

The bright blue of the bridge rivaled the robin’s egg blue of the sky overhead.

Pretty painted bridge on the May Bridge Road ... I can’t find any information at all, on this bridge.
Ceres to Vader. 36 mins

Reaching Vader, I decided to stop at Castle Rock and grab some salad greens for this week’s supper side dishes; shaving off 20 pounds is still in progress 😉

I had a nice day out of the house. 

The drive was country, all the way.

I carried some mud home with me ðŸ˜Š

I had an exciting day. 

I laughed instead of crying.

My leg behaved – I needed Ibuprofen for the ump-worthy-slide, not because my leg was pitching a fit 😉

And I really was glad to be home, and parked in the carport around 4 PM; I am coming to terms with being a country girl in a citified environment.

Friday, April 9, 2021

AGAINST THE WIND ~ In A Good Way

My day started out good … and stayed good, all day long 😊

Against the wind.

With the frayed Nation falling apart due to a demented DC leadership, and society a steady freakshow – good days do not happen often.

So, I basked in today’s goodness 😉 

I set my geraniums out to soak in the spotty sunlight; they are showing new growth – like me.

The new growth starts slow.

Against the harsh winds.

Geraniums are leafing out nicely.

I pulled a pot roast from the freezer and got that underway in the crockpot.

Pot Roast for Supper.

I threw some laundry in the washer/dryer. 

And decided on a low-impact-exercise routine.

Despite my bum leg.

I am going against the wind … and trusting Elohei for the outcome.


I started another Sackett Novel: these paperbacks are slim, and the story moves right along; so, I burn through one pretty quick.

This is the last one I have in my stash.


I have finished my last cup of coffee; and am ready to welcome in the Shabbat.

In a hostile environment.

Against the wind.

I miss the sound of the ram’s horn!

Perhaps, one day soon, I will be dancing in Jerusalem with Yeshua, and Bob 😊

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u5dO1m4HMCU)

L'Chiam! To Life!



THE BRAXTON HICKS STAGE

I am doing better this year.

My thoughts are not so tangled.

And my heart is not so mangled.

Elohim has been faithful & true; there was never any judgment - only compassion and loving acceptance. I am thankful.

Yeshua has been my constant companion; lover of my soul & Husband to me - never leaving my side and allowing me to mature in new growth at my own pace. Yeshua knows me better than anyone: even better than I think I know me 😉 I am thankful.

Elohei has been the Rock I run to for strength, knowledge, & wisdom; and He has brought new friends into my life - people that "fit" my life - people, who, even if they don't always understand or agree ... support & encourage me. Good people. I am thankful.

To date, it has been nearly 28 months of labor pains as my new life began to unfold and take shape. Most days I am okay with the process - other days, I still move through this strange new life in a daze.

But the birthing process is never easy; there are questionable twinges that make you stop and think, 'Ow/Oooh/that hurts a little - am I going to lose it'?

But it's only an overturn twinge; and eventually backs off, allowing you to breathe easy again.

You become more aware of the undergoing changes of your life; excitement is mixed with cautious concern.

Then there is the braxton hicks pains that is a little more intense. These growing pains can put you in a panic thinking, 'No, no, no! It's too early!' You can feel things in your life shifting and moving ... but you know it's too early for the birthing; this is a time of paying attention.

A premature birthing can be tricky.

You are at the point now of wanting to be done with all the pressing and sometimes uncomfortable waiting - but you want a healthy birthing: a new life that will be strong enough to go the distance.

I'm at the braxton hicks stage.

Thursday, April 8, 2021

KEEP TRUSTING GOD

The clinic finally returned my questioning call concerning the new muscle relaxer pills (I was just about ready to trash them).

(https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2021/04/god-help-me.html)

The person calling told me they are "safe to take as a short term muscle relaxer for the back ... and they are safe for you to use with your heart arrythmia."

So, I decided to try one; cautiously.

To determine how they affect me while my body is still alert to sudden changes (harder to determine when sleeping).

And I decided that if I feel even the least bit concerned about the effects, I will walk them straight to the trash can; and figure out an alternative.

I don't mind answering the call: "Come Home, Daughter" - but I want it to be Elohim-induced, not pharmaceutical induced.

Well … 7 hours ago, I did try 1 pill. 

That tiny thing was mighty powerful! 

Immediately, I felt like I’d painted the town red. 

And about 2 pages into a new read, I couldn’t see straight.

I closed the book, and crashed. 

I am still feeling the effect of that tiny pill.

And as long as I live: I will never understand why anyone would like feeling drugged.

I feel awful.

I lost 7 hours of daylight – woke groggily and disoriented; and still feel light headed and lethargic.

I do not like the feeling of not having control of my person.

Yes – I AM a control freak when it comes to me, personally.

I need, at all times, to be fully aware of my surroundings … and to have control over my body. I do not like that I have slept hours away, and now feel weak and drained.

I trashed the remaining pills. 

I’ll deal with the muscle spasms and leg pain another way: how, I don’t know yet; but I do know it will be with a clear head and in full control of my body.

Even while prescribing the pills, the doctor told me to expect the pain to continue.

There is no clear diagnosis as to where the pain originates – or why it is.

But, I know Elohim knows … and Yeshua has the 1 sure cure: with no ill side effects.

I can safely put my life in Elohei’s hands.