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Thursday, November 5, 2020

STORM BREAKING

America was NEVER a democracy; our Founders knew how democracy destroyed countries – they had all come from democracy ridden countries that stole freedoms, killed the people, and ruled with mob mentality. America was founded AS A REPUBLIC.

2020 is just about played out; there are only 56 days left of this year.

2020 was a difficult year to get through.

The demonrat ‘golden goose’ – both were instigated and shamelessly used by the obama-biden-pelosi-harris cartel to stage a 3rd obama coup.

Given the political dynamics of barak hussain obama’s second coup … 2021 will be worse.

Much worse.

The demonrats have been telling us for 11 years – and most specifically for 12 months how much worse things will get when they take control; they have made no secret of their coup plans, or their agenda.

The rain started 2 days ago, and is really pounding the blacktop outside my livingroom windows; and making slashing stabs at the window panes this morning.

My downcast mood mimics the dreariness of this wet morning.

As I sit here, in Bob’s recliner, sipping and savoring my Caramel Apple flavored coffee while looking out into the 5 AM gloom – I can only hope The Rapture will arrive to air-lift me out of the descending darkening.

If that occurrence is further delayed, I will need lots of grace to weather the global storm that is careening out of control and reaching hurricane proportions.

The political cycle is in hurricane storm surge mode.
Build to withstand storm surges.

I’ve never lived in a communist country before.

I’ve never lived under a socialist regime political party before.

I don't want to live in either: I love America.

barak hussain obama tried mightily to inflict that on America during his 2x coups from January 2009 to January 2017. He didn’t succeed. That angered barak, michael, and the angry obamanite horde of political monsters.

The murderously angry biden-harris-pelosi arm of his 3rd coup is now being implemented.

My mother’s mother; and her family came to America as an immigrant from Hungary in the 1930’s: her family came to America to escape the oppressive and murderous political communist regime of 1919. My American grandfather met and married my Hungarian grandmother … and my mother was born in Pennsylvania in 1936. 20 years later, I was born in Illinois in 1956. I was raised knowing the evils of communism and socialism. I was raised with the knowledge of why my grandparents immigrated to America.

I was raised during the social unrest of the 1960’s.

I came of age in the topsy-turvy culture upheaval of the 1970’s.

I tried to steer my children away from the twisted demonrat propaganda, and social studies pogroms of the 1980’s.

As one by one, the kids left home; I could only stand by helplessly and watch my children dive deeply into the self-destruction of the 1990’s counter culture.

And, as muslim barak hussain obama was placed in the White House/Oval Office in 2009 and hailed as the demonrat messiah; and his snaky obamanites for 8 long and torturous years rushed to implement his hellish doctrines and systematically set in place his wicked mandates …

… I tried again to steer my children and grandchildren into safer ports in this sea of life we live on Earth. To no avail. They have gleefully embraced the madness and have hopelessly ensnared themselves in the net of self-destruction.

There are 2 sexes – male and female: period – only those 2 can procreate. That is a scientific fact; and yet, the obamanite party, that heralds science as the only religion of note (and very vociferously labels those who do not worship at the alter of science as ‘enemies of the State’: communist talk) – with barak hussain obama as their chosen messiah – is preaching and implementing into society, the 150 genders obama passed into existence with a flourish of his pen.

150 spurred off 2!

It’s crazy delusion.

And yet ALL of American society seems to be embracing this insanity and reworking society around lunacy.

Mental instability intolerance against traditional families.

I am saddened by the turn of events that have unfolded – and set this great Nation squarely on the cusp of oblivion with the political coup of November 3rd, 2020.

That the news sources, yesterday morning, were already calling States for biden BEFORE the actual voter tallies was blatantly biased: and very telling about how the coup was unfolding – NOT BY VOTE … but by paid media talking heads, bought to do the obama-biden bidding.

It is shameful.

It is illegal.

They will try to implement obama's agenda anyway.

The demonrats have not kept their treasonous intent a secret.

The believe they are untouchable; so do demons.

obama is an avowed muslim – he has made no secret of that. islam is a religion of bloody violence and terrorist oppression: that fact cannot be denied by any rational person. obama never once denounced claims that he is ‘messiah’, and he proudly took on the mantle of homosexual prez; obama is wicked.

biden – twiddly dumb to obama twiddly dee is an avowed catholic – the catholic religion embraces and fully supports islam. That relationship was cemented during the obama years … and biden recently apologized to muslims for whatever fantasy of oppression he feels they are feeling: muslims are the oppressor, not the oppressed. Anyone who has been paying attention to what is happening globally, politically, and spiritually cannot deny that fact. biden was promised the Presidential seat by obama, during both of obama’s coups – biden is cashing in on that promise now, and the demonrat party is ponying up. It is abundantly clear that biden is in the grip of dementia … but with a party wholly given over to insanity, that doesn’t matter: he is put forth as their poster boy. He can barely stand without support/hardly speak coherently/can’t stay on track without prompting/and he looks like one of the walking dead. That he is even in the running at all – let alone {winning} the Election is a farce. The {wins} were rigged. Everyone knows it.

These are sad days for America.

There was a valid reason our Founders created a FEDERALIST SOCIETY instead of a democracy … there is no freedom in a democracy.

These are sad days for the world.

pelosi is an avowed catholic – catholicism and paganism walk hand in hand … and nancy pelosi has bee very transparent with that fact. When pelosi claims she “prays” for people, I cringe. her prayers are more like incantations than actual prayers. pelosi is evil. I would not want that witchy bitch praying for me!

harris is an avowed socialist with a communist bent. harris is a wicked person. biden is incapable of being President: harris will be president in about a year’s time – pelosi will then be Vice-President. And barak hussain obama will be pulling everyone’s strings.

A 3rd coup in progress.

pelosi and harris: modern day slavers.
Arrogant and ignorant pandering. Very racist.
biden and pelosi have both stated President Trump will be forcibly removed from the White House by Military Force if biden is not declared winner in the 2020 Election.

https://thehill.com/homenews/campaign/502213-biden-says-trump-will-have-an-escort-from-the-white-house-if-he-refuses-to

https://www.reuters.com/article/us-usa-election-pelosi/pelosi-says-trump-will-be-fumigated-out-if-he-refuses-to-leave-after-white-house-loss-idUSKCN24L2DP

gay pride parades rolling through the streets and implementing their perverted indoctrinating pogrom’s in public schools, with the aid of demonrat governors and pedophile teachers (both sexes raping their students; eyebrows aren’t even raised anymore). Kindergarteners being taught pornographic material.

michael obama founded preschool drag queen storytime.
Kindergarten gender bending agenda sex ed.
Children do not need to buy sex toys! Who the hell would sell sex toys to children???

gender-benders women portraying a male persona getting pregnant and claiming a man gave birth … males portraying a female persona, complete with breast implants – mentally ill people marrying each other and raising children in a house totally given over to confusion.

Female identifying as a male gives birth. Still NEED a female-male relationship to DO THAT. The explanation does not make sense … to a logical thinking mind. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMox8AHmZOk): IF she “never wanted to be different with her body – then WHY be “different”? Only the delusional and understand the illogical explanation and twisted lifestyle.

Murdering feminists (men are now claiming to be feminists also) that give shame to the title ‘female’, screaming in the faces of those who disagree with them (nothing new here – they were screaming in the faces of Vietnam vets too, and calling them “baby killers!” – the irony is hypocritical), marching around in ridiculous looking vagina costumes, and pink pussy hats, demanding the right to murder babies in the womb … as well as full-term babies left to die on steel hospital tables while nurses and doctors turn blind eyes (something a Vietnam vet never did); and give all their attention to the ‘mother’ soullessly demanding her baby’s death; and deranged feminists threatening to bomb the White House if their demands are not met.

Baby killing now shouted as “health care”.
peace sign now used for wholesale murder.
A very confused male; he flunked science courses.
Marching vaginas; shamelessness on display.
Selfish killers – shouting their lives matter, while murdering a baby who will never have a chance at life.

parents deciding at birth to surgically change their child’s sexual orientation at birth … and parents coaching their 4 and 5 year old’s to embrace gender selection and undergo surgical adjustments. Schools teaching penises are ‘bad’, and ‘vaginas’ make weak persons – yet … teaching that whacking off penises and embracing vaginas make “strong and empowered’ people.

sanctuary churches, wholly given over to worldly thinking, have abandoned Christ, installed token homosexual laity, embraced social programs, and are preaching government propaganda instead of adhering to The Word and preaching the Scriptures. There are no Christians welcomed in these {churches} – real Christians “cause division” and make them uncomfortable in their wickedness.

And drugs – pharmaceutical and natural – are legalized to keep the masses permanently dumbed down and braindead.

 
Just like Nero, who torched the city of Rome … and fiddled around … blaming Christians for the violence and destruction – so did obamanites allow American cities to be torched; and blamed Christians and President Trump for the blm/lgbtq violence and destruction.

It’s insanity run amok.

It is Hell unleashed.

It is barak hussain obama’s legacy.

(Book of Jude)

It is prophecy unfolding.

I am trying to hold onto hope for America and Christianity in America … but the knot at the end of my rope is slipping.

I will need grace to weather the storm breaking.

Mercy, Lord.

Thy Will be done Elohim.

Wednesday, November 4, 2020

FEELING ALONE TONIGHT

I watched the Presidential Election unfold yesterday … and stayed up through the night.

I should have gone to bed.

The result was rigged – and though I knew that, I am still unprepared to find myself in a communist/socialist country in less than 24 hours.

All the signs were there.

I should have been prepared.

Rigged {elections} are the hall mark of communist/socialist countries.

And the demonrats have been saying for solid year that they intend to succeed with their political coup to overthrow America, and hold Americans hostage.

But I really did think Americans would never allow that to happen.

I assumed they would have learned that lesson with the barak hussain obama coups … and the subsequent fallout we have been living with for a solid year as the China Flu swept through our great Nation which set a flame to the firetrap the demoncrats had laid so carefully. The China Flu was allowed to come to America via Seattle – to spread to every State in the Union as passengers left the plane and headed home by car, bus, train, or another plane.

Something as serious as a deadly virus would have been relayed to insleeze. insleeze knew. he sat on it for weeks. By then, other cases of covid-19 were spring up in other places across America. insleeze did what he has sold his soul for … he did what he does best: outright lied, and started blaming everyone else: specifically, President Trump.

The demonrats failed with their ridiculous impeachment attempt.

They have finally succeeded with the hyped covid hype (every illness has been branded covid); the racist mandates (only Caucasians have to wear face masks – ‘people of color’ do not) – apparently covid only strikes old ‘white’ people; the rampant racist blm riots (only delusional people would deny that blm is racist in concept and action); the bold anarchy (approved by demonrats governors and mayors); the torching of wildfires and city wide fires; and now a sham of an election {win}.

It’s sheer lunacy.

All I could think of when the {results} started being highlighted was, ‘it’s like nero fiddling and no one is paying attention …”

According to the election results, still funneling in: the obama-bide-harris-pelosi coup is a success and we, The People, have lost our great Nation in less than a 24-hour coup blitz.

It should be impossible that that empty-headed moron with his angry racist sidekicks have actually won the election.

They didn’t run on anything logical.

The “State calls” were called too soon in most States; to give the obama-biden-harris-pelosi cartel an edge.

I am thoroughly disgusted.

I briefly cried.

Crying never helps anything.

But the thought that our country has been sold out by political hacks, treasonous tyrants, insane gender-benders, baby killers, and deadhead druggies is sad.

The obamanites are bottom dwellers; feeding on the rot of empty souls, and living perpetually in the 1950/60’s racial hatred and cultural chaos.

It is a sad day for America.

It is a sad day for anyone else in the world hoping for freedom and rationality.

America was the last bastion on freedom.

That ended earlier today when media talking heads called the election results for dementia poster boy, joe biden.

biden is barak hussain obama’s puppet.

And we know what obama is about – we’ve already suffered through 8 years of his unleashed tyranny: now, we will be suffering more through his puppet-prez, clueless biden.

Our country is lost.

America will never rebound.

I am still finding it hard to wrap my mind around.

Husband-less.

Child-less.

Country-less.

All in a short 22 months period of time.

It has been raining for 24 hours.

The rainy weather outside matches my weepy emotions inside.

I am feeling lonely tonight.

I miss Bob being here to talk with/comfort me.

I want to run from the madness and hide.

But there is nowhere sane to go, anymore.

I look out my window and try to enjoy the changing color of the ornamental maple leaves:

Fall foliage outside LVRM window

And I am half-heartedly working on the baby sweater I started knitting up a few days ago …

Baby Sweater yoke. NB-3 MO

But, I am sad.

My heart is not in it.

I am feeling lonely tonight.

Tuesday, November 3, 2020

5-MONTH HIATUS PLAN

I had an appointment in town with Dr. tack about my eyeglasses lenses this morning. That went okay – my eyes were checked, and the prescription in my right lens changed. Hopefully when my glasses are returned to me, I will be able to actually use them.

I did not have to wear a mask: the receptionists did not like that, but I did not have to wear one.

I am actually medically exempt, per State ‘mandate’ … but businesses are not respecting that exemption. Some are very insistent.

Already, every business in town is acting like angry joe has won the Election … they are doubling down on mask wearing; and everyone, everywhere is acting like deranged chimps when they see someone without a mask.

State regulations say that I do not have to prove that I have a medical condition … yet, I am continually pushed to do just that. And masks are forced on me anyway. It is illegal – it is offensive. It is just plain rude.

If I was black, I would not have to wear a mask.

If I was muslim, I would not have to wear a mask.

If I was Asian, I would not have to wear a mask.

If I was Native American, I would not have to wear a mask.

If I was a demonrat politician (or one of their snot-nosed kids), I would not have to wear a mask.

Apparently covid-19 ONLY STRIKES AND CAN BE SPREAD by Caucasians who do not hate President Trump.

Covid-19 seems to be a very biased virus that trolls a selected group of people, weaponized by unsuspecting ‘Patriot Nationist Americans’ because pelosi believes President Trump “created the virus” to overthrow the world and dominate the masses.

pelosi is insane.

And so are the state mandates.

Legally, per State Mandate, I do not have to wear a mask. And I cannot legally be harassed for not wearing a mask.

Yet, businesses are getting around that, and their employees are rude and obnoxious.

I left Dr. Tack’s building, and drove 2 minutes up the street to AT&T to pay my bill; paying at the downtown office insures I do not get hit with a late fee. Apple is very sneaky in making sure the bill mailing and the payment received date nets them a late fee: paying downtown as soon as I receive the bill in the mail is the safest way to make sure there is no late fee.

I was kept waiting half an hour before I was ushered to a payment kiosk – simply because I was not wearing a mask. The 4 people that had been there when I arrived, had wrapped up their business and the store was empty. There was no valid reason to keep me waiting.

Other than I was mask-less.

The employees were driving a point home.

I waited them out.

The bill eventually got paid.

And I spent more $$ at Winco; following.

I am planning a 5-month hiatus.

I am d.o.n.e. with the craziness.

I did not like the Jennie-O turkey breast I cooked last year – this one seems promising.
I can eat Thanksgiving Supper with my friends; and this turkey meat will carry me through the Summer of 2021.
Froze Pumpkin Pie slices planned for future meals.
The pie slices made me think of Pumpkin Spice Lattes: I need to whip some up

I also changed the furnace filter out: it was filthy.

Filthy filter! I think this is mostly wildfire ash residue ...

I should probably contact someone about a duct cleaning estimate, too. There are a lot of dust bunnies littering the floors no matter how often I sweep the floors. The ducts are probably filled with dust – the previous owner really didn’t do much with the house other than live in it. God only, knows, when the last time the ducts were cleaned; or if they were ever cleaned.

After all this “necessary stuff” was completed, I thought I’d check my FB messages, and I saw I had a message from some widow in a Widow Group who jumped my case; thinking I was not ‘considerate enough’ and that widows who lost their husbands to covid deserve more ‘understanding’ because their husbands died from covid … and those of us who can’t wear masks should apologize for refusing to wear one.

Where the hell do people get off, making asinine demands?

Obviously, my husband died too – otherwise I would not be in a Widow’s Groups. Bob’s body didn’t die from covid … but he’s gone just the same. I refuse to apologize to another widow over death differences.

W.T.F.

People have lost their fricking minds.

Fear and grief have made them selfish.

Fear and grief have made them mean.

I’m sick and tired of the bullshit – from every narcissistic sector of society that thinks they have the right to bully everyone else, and bulldoze over basic rights so they can feel like safe appeased lemmings.

I have the right to breathe freely!

Without apologizing to anyone for that Right.

I have the right to be out in the public breathing freely.

Without being made to feel guilty for exercising that Right.

I have the right to do business in the public sector while breathing freely.

Without being treated like a criminal for engaging in that Right.

Last time I checked – I was still living in America.

I went to bed last night … in America.

I woke up this morning … in America.

I live IN America; hopefully America will still BE America the end of this Electoral week.

Americans have Individual Rights that cannot be impeded.

By anyone: for any reason.

It is not my responsibility to make a masked person behind a Lucite partition feel comfortable WHILE they are wearing a mask and sitting comfortably behind a Lucite shield … that is just political nonsense.

They are “protected”; ((((I)))) am the one “taking a risk”, and I am NOT afraid.

Covid-19 doesn’t scare me.

I am more concerned about my air being restricted by a nonsensical tyrannical mandated mask, offensively – and seriously – hampering my airways.

I resent the push of fear they insist I should be feeling.

It is a certainty that I will die, some day – at some point.

But I refuse to be a sacrificial death so some demonrat deadhead can feel sketchily secure in the political games they have allowed themselves to be lured into engaging in.

I have plans – I will spend my 5-month hiatus working out a schedule, and a feasible budget; God willing some of them will actually become a reality.

A premature death caused by idiots is not on the docket.

I need a fricking break from all the insanity that has gripped this nation since 2009.

I wish someone would stuff a sock in barak hussain obama’s big/fat/loud/mouth.

All he (and that bitchy ‘wife’ of his) do is grab a mic and create chaotic division when they open their hate-filled racist fly traps.

I’ve really had it with the craziness that has monopolized the past 5 years, and erupted to highjack 2020.

I needed balance.

I want peace and joy in my life.

I exited FB, closed the laptop … and picked up my knitting project.

Working on last portion of Baby Sweater; 2 at once. NB
Baby Sweater body finished; ready for yoke work. NB
Starting yoke piece of Baby Sweater. NB

I will have to go into town to pick up my glasses when they are ready, but when that is done – I am settling in for an uninterrupted 5-month hiatus.

Hopefully, by March 2021, we can put all the destruction of March 2020 behind us and start living fully again.