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Showing posts with label widow missingness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label widow missingness. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 19, 2022

FAT & SASSY

I have a rash, so I didn’t want to be around people today.

It’s on my face, as well as on my arms and ankles.

It itches.

It burns.

Rash on my arms, face, and ankles.

It could have resulted from a variety of things: the sour cream I ate with my nacho’s Tuesday afternoon while having lunch with a friend; maybe it’s time to change out the laundry soap again (body soap is Ivory – as mild as possible); maybe it’s all the stressors that have been working my nerves all week … there’s really no way to pin the actual reason down. It just is. But people are weird about rashes, so I stay away until it clears up.

So, when I woke up this morning, I thought I’d read a few more chapters of the book I started reading last night:

MOD Crochet 'Octobery' Book Cover for my New Read.
New 'Octobery' Read; Danielle Steele is not my favorite author - but it was only a quarter at a summer garage sale ðŸ˜‰

But about an hour into it, I checked my FB Page – got royally pissed at the perversion being posted designed to groom preschoolers into the homosexual lifestyle; I posted some fiery remarks, then decided to get out of the house to cool my temper down: I didn’t have to be around people; I could go for a drive 😉

Today's Plan; I hate being house-bound.
I left the carport around 12.11 A.M.
Road Route ... I added an additional hour with sideline backroads, and picture shots ðŸ˜Š
Old Pacific Highway N; out of Castle Rock towards Toledo.
Old Pacific Highway N; out of Castle Rock towards Toledo.
Jackson Highway S; coming into Toledo. Lewis County.
South Lewis County Airport, Toledo.
Bob liked these little jump-planes; this was what he was getting his pilot's license for ...
Beechcraft Airplane.
Beechcraft Airplane Backstory – Private ownership:
Slipped a CD into the player at Mossyrock when the radio cut out ...
Nat King Cole: ‘Autumn Leaves’ song:
I wanted to redirect my thoughts. Fall is still hard to get through.

Traffic was okay along the route; the mood was peaceful and easy – and memories didn’t make my eyes flood.

Passing through Morton, I saw that the road sign read ALL the Passes were Open: White Pass, Cayuse & Chinook – but I didn’t have the time to drive any of them

I always smile when I pass through Glenoma: Bob’s wedding ring is in those hills above Kiona Creek, in Glenoma; his crew logged a patch of timber up there one Winter, and he’d lost so much weight after his bout with walking pneumonia that it fell off his finger and got stomped into the mud on the Landing before he realized what had happened.

This sharp point really looks like an upturned fang tooth; seeing it, made me think of the wild horses that used to run beneath it; Glenoma.
Bob's wedding ring is up there, somewhere. Bob took us up there, one weekend when he was fixing machinery on the Landing – that's how I saw the wild horses.
 
Huff & Puff Drive-In Burger Stand; Randle-WA. I’ve always liked the bold COLOR.
I was hoping for a little County Park to eat - and sit and read a bit ...
I got the Elk Burger - spendier, but also healthier: the milkshake is a splurge; and a risk since I am lactose intolerant. But with the rash, I figured, 'what the heck - in for a penny, in for a pound' ðŸ˜‰
I read a chapter while eating … and enjoyed the 'Fallish' paint job, that brought to mind colorful Fall leaves.
I ate half the burger and a few fries - I'll finish them up later tonight; the drive was really the main thing; the burger was just the lure.

The weather in Washington State is schizoid with Fall chill and Summer humidity: and today we had wildfire smoke haze added to the crazy mix At times the interior air got stuffy and sticky. I couldn’t use the air conditioner – or roll the windows down – because of wildfire smoke (very visible in the air like shrouding fog; and you could smell and taste it): my hair was plastered to my forehead and neck … and my blouse was stuck to my back; the whole trip.

Other than that, it was an enjoyable day out of the house.

Huff and Puff doesn’t have a restroom; it’s a burger bar. And while there are lots of camping site and fishing site signs … there would not be a public restroom notice until Morton – and then I’d have to drive a few miles out of the way to find it. About a mile into the drive back home, I had to use one; and Morton was quite a way off.

God was merciful! ((((THANK YOU, FATHER 😊))))

While thinking on some very pleasant memories, I spotted a sign that gave my cranky bladder hope 😉

I made a Solo Lobo Memory with that little sideline jaunt – Bob and I had never been down this road before; even though we’d been this way many, many times over the decades. I only went down it this afternoon, because my bladder was desperate.

A memory was triggered in Mossyrock - and it didn't cause a watershed moment.
We shared some musical tastes ...
My Christmas present from Bob that year, was a high-end stereo with quadrophonic speakers; a true Love Gift.
I still think of those speakers - NOTHING today can beat the way they shot around the room.
SO thankful!
Glenoma Community Park:
What a relief ...
Some chances are worth taking. LOL!
Rife Lake Boat Launch is to the left as you leave the Park.

When I arrived home, around 5 P.M.; fat and sassy, I parked with happy thoughts – and new memories birthed along the route; memories that were made without Bob.

My heart still isn’t sure how to handle that realization when it happens.

And yet, Bob is still very much a part of these new experiences and memories; because if he hadn’t given me the strengthening love, I enjoyed for 44 years (“you can do it Honey; I have faith in you”) … I would not be able to tap into the confidence I am engaging now, when stepping out in faith and boldness, solo lobo.

I carry Bob’s love with me on every venture: and I send a high-5, sky high, with every successful ending 😊

New memory making adventures dovetail snuggly with old memories 😉

Sunday, October 16, 2022

THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER; RIGHT?

What a morning😟 ... it can only get better, at this point.

So, I'm hoping it will 🤔

First thing - the sliding shower doors came completely off their tracks: and are now hanging precariously loose. It was interesting trying to exit the shower without knocking myself out: they aren't as light as they appear, and they are taller than I am, so dancing them into a kinda-sorta upright position was interesting ... while praying to God I wouldn't have to call for help while standing naked in the stall!

The sliding shower doors caved in on me; totally of their tracks; I didn't even have time to get wet yet!

The neighbor guy who usually helps me out in a tight spot didn't know how to fix them.

Know-it-all-sour puss candy, didn't answer the phone in the Office - even though her byline is, "I'm available 24 hours a day - if anyone needs anything CALL ME and I'll get someone right on it".

And I sent out an SOS to someone who may actually be able to help: but won't be available until the actual weekday work hours.

So, the doors are left where they are, propped up by a chair, to stabilize the whole damned thing. And I'm hoping that when someone does actually respond, the structure won't be so warped by the time passing without help, that the whole thing will need to be replaced.

Honestly ... if I didn't have bad luck, I'd have no luck at all 🤬

Times like this, I miss a man in the house.

Friday, October 7, 2022

4 OUT OF 8 TYPES OF COFFEE COFFEE'S TODAY

Today was a coffee-fueled day 😉

It didn’t start out that way – and I was surprised that the day progressed as it did. My ankle still smarts, so out-of-house activities have been scrapped until next weekendbut plenty got accomplished today, here, at home 😊

Things started out innocently – I logged into my FB Account for a quick peek at what friends and family are up to today … and thought I’d update my account while online. I was surprised to see {death wishes} are now a FB {thing}: so, I updated, while drinking my first cup of coffee.

Death Wish for FB Account ...

Then I had another cup of joy-juice, visited with a Graysriver friend via Messenger; and washed my hair. Contemplating another no-fuss day at home, I sorted through my closet for something low-key and comfortable – and spied Bob’s walking cane in the back of the closet; so, I hauled it out, dusted it off, and figured to put it to use today: not anything strenuous, just keeping low-key mobile while house-bound.

I scaled Bob's adjustable walking Cane back to fit my height; Bob was 6’2” … I am 5’2”. The color works for me, too - THANKS BABE ðŸ˜Š

My aching ankle felt relief 😊

So much so, that I figured a little ‘light-weight’ activity around the house wouldn’t set the healing back too much 😉

A few more cups of Pumpkin Spice flavored coffees … and color was greeting my eyes everywhere they looked:

I finally got the Indian Corn out of storage and placed in the kitchen for Fall color; first time it's been hung since we moved in, in 2017. I'm not so grief-paralyzed anymore.
The Cornucopia arrangement was switched out to herald the arrival of Fall ...
And the corner stand I got at a Garage Sale last Summer, is finally in place; not much on it, yet, but at least it's where I intended it to be when I bought it.

I could have used Bob’s muscle so as not to have to manhandle the corner stand – but Bob’s muscle isn’t available anymore; so, I relied on sheer willpower and his cane 😉

And by the grace of Elohim, it got done 😊

Then another cup of go-juice, and the final Fall touches were done – hey, I gotta do this stuff while I’m stuck at home, because most days I’m out of house by noon … and gone most of daylight hours.

Fireplace mantle sprinkled with Fall leaves.
Windows got splashed with sprays of Fall color, too.
My 'cozy spot' when the evening chill sets in ...

I didn’t do much, so I wasn’t on my feet long (and I’d paced the activity with periodic coffee breaks); when I finally called it ‘a day’ with the coffee and busy activity – I settled in cozily to enjoy a couple Barbara Stanwyck movies {October Movies; remember, I’m on October-themed movies and songs this month}: this afternoon, I watched The Night Walker 1964 & The House That Would Not Die 1972. I like Barbara Stanwyck movies (a little cheesy, but not gory), and these fit the month 😉

While watching the movie, I also worked some more rows on MOD Baby Receiving Blanket; it’s 3/4ths of the way worked, now.

Only 76 more rows; this won't be done tonight ...

I’ll finish up the evening by relaxing to the backbeat of soft music, and reading as much as I can of the novel (an ‘October’ type of read), I started a few days ago 😊

Settling in for a quiet night.
A little over two-thirds of the book read; I only 142 pages left.