ALARMED ~ But, Not Fearful

A 2:45 AM text woke me up.

The text alarmed me … and I pushed fear out of my immediate environment.

Brain surgery is dicey; this is alarming.

The rest of the texting did not end on a good note; Sara’s mother (my youngest sister) is not being rational, on any level. This situation is not about anyone else, no matter who they are: it is about Sara - period.

I am glad Sara's mother reached out to me – that she reached out at all tells me how scared she is; but I didn’t feel like butting heads at 3 AM, so I responded to the last self-absorbed text by shutting the phone down; and going back to sleep.

Sometimes the best response is no response.

Seven hours later I woke up crying.

I miss Bob; especially in situations like this one. I miss his soft, soothing voice. I miss his long arms reaching out and pulling me into his chest, in a big bear hug while he kissed the top of my head. I miss his large, comforting hand, reaching out and enveloping my small hand with an assuring squeeze that told me her shared my concern; and felt my feels.

As my eyes started focusing in the morning filtered light, my thoughts also turned to thinking of Sara: alone, in a Nevadan hospital. In isolation. Scared with a life-altering surgery hanging over her head.

When I talked to Sara a few days ago, she was scared – but also being brave: she was considering her situation rationally, and making logical decisions.

I indulged the tears for a few minutes … then went for a drive. Sitting at home crying won’t change the situation. Rehashing the AM text wouldn’t help anything either. Driving doesn’t change the situation either – but driving relaxes me, and gets me out of my head: spinning wheels on pavement is better for me than spinning mental wheels.

I know Elohim is in control, no matter how dire situations are: He has the final say.

And He gives rest in times of unrest.

BECAUSE IT’S MY LIFE

It’s My Life: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SKFwtgUJHs

I had coffee time in Lexington with friends this morning; there was laughter and war stories (aka, wondering how we all survived the 60’s & 70’s 😉).

It was a fun 2½ hours 😊

I enjoy my coffee time in Naselle, when I can get there; but I’ve been asking Elohim to open up some local friendships that are more than a passing nod now and then: this coffee time I shared today, is a weekly thing – and that is a good thing. A gathering of friends – old and new – that enjoy getting together.

I’m glad I was invited.

I’m glad I went.

I might do this more often.

I'm building "community".

Lexington is growing in leaps and bounds; and West Side Highway will be getting busier once that building complex, now under construction, is finished.Then I went walking along the dike in Lexington’s Riverside Park … and on to Castle Rock to grab some salads from the grocery store there: I like the salads, and they are not available in Longview.

Commissioners Approve Apartment Building Construction in Lexington: https://tdn.com/news/local/cowlitz-county-commissioners-approve-preliminary-plat-for-47-lot-subdivision-in-lexington/article_89994c52-081e-5f83-ab27-52e0074105dd.html

Walking in the sunshine was great … walking through the overshadow of the trees, was cold.

Icy afternoon walk in Riverside Park, Lexington.

Lexington Bridge to Pleasant Hill.

Wreck at Castle Rock’s 4-Corners 4-way Stop … apparently someone did not stop; I took another route home.

Heading back over Delameter Road, towards home, the talking heads using air time were discussing insleeze’s recent power grab …

Delameter Road, Castle Rock-WA

insleeze is passing a law that makes it illegal to question Election’s outcomes.

insleeze is following obamanite demonrat Plan as directed: https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/politics/gov-jay-inslee-to-support-bill-to-make-lies-by-elected-officials-candidates-about-election-results-a-gross-misdemeanor/

I Can’t Hear What he’s Saying: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScfUfsUlGro

The obamanite demonrats just don’t get it – they are brainwashed lemmings hopeless following each other over the cliff.

They can’t control the way people think – even though they are doing all they can to accomplish that mindset; but they are failing with logical thinking people.

They can’t control what people speak – no matter how many {laws} they pass to subvert The People: The People will not go silently into the night.

They can’t control themselves – who the hell are they to think they can control me?

I laughed at the audacity of the power hungry.

Because it’s MY life.

I thumbed my nose at the obamanite demonrat ‘politically correct’ society mandates.

Because it’s MY life.

I turned the radio off … and enjoyed the rest of the drive home. It’s my life, and even though DC is forcing communism down our throats … we still have the freedom to turn the annoying government BS off.

Because it’s MY life.

It was a beautiful day, and the mountains were showing off 😉

There was a brief halt along the way as a working road crew held traffic up for a bit on Coal Creek Road – but the halt time was blessedly brief.

Mt. St. Helens w-Mt. Adams showing in background; top of Delameter Road.

Mt. Rainier; top of Delameter Road.

Road crew on Coal Creek Road.

Aside from the insleeze ridiculousness, the day out was very enjoyable 😊

I DARE

I walked the upper third of the Pacific Way Trail this morning – then took my first 2022 out-of-state daytrip; to Scappoose, Oregon 😊

Pacific Way Trail - 2 miles round trip; upper third of the way.

The beginning of this morning's walk was a little nippy, even as the sun's warmth was parting the clouds.

The return lap of my morning walk was under a beautiful cloudless sky; though still with a bit of a nip.

I stopped by home just long enough to switch out my blouse, and change my shoes – then, I was off 😉

Along the road route to Scappoose, I heard the radio bleating out some more of biden’s intentions concerning the ramrodding of obama’s agenda.

Scappoose-OR from Heron Point, Longview-WA; via Rainier, OR - 44 mins. (36.0 mi)-US-30 E

Decided to take a little trip to Scappoose-OR

biden is determined to carry through with obama's race-centered agenda.

But the whole thing is pretty pointless since the obamanites erased male & female genders.

biden, obama's bainless puppet and the demonrats strawman, really thinks he can continue to push barak hussain obama's race-baiting and sex-baiting agendas ... daring anyone to speak out against it.

Well ... I'll take that dare: I WILL SPEAK UP. I will speak out; loud and clear. I will always push back against injustice and the unfairness of pitting people against each other: that is not what America is about.

From what I could gather, another one of obama’s lapdogs, schumer, intends to push the chosen one through without proper American Constitutional considerations ... kinda like when barak hussain obama was placed without proper documentaion, or credentials.

The obamanites are steamrolling Americans with in-your-face-racism.

The obmanite demonrats are steamrolling Americans with in-your-face-sexism - while claiming that to refer to anyone by thier birth gender is not acceptable in today's society; it is actually illegal in the job force, and public education and public places, under the obamanite code.

All four choices are race-based demonrat activists … that does not bode well for America as a melting-pot Republic. The Supreme Court Judges are to be fair in their judgements; being placed in position to speak for only one race is not being ‘fair’: not by any stretch of the imagination.

biden’s obamanite pick: https://www.cbsnews.com/news/supreme-court-potential-nominees-ketanji-brown-jackson-leondra-kruger-michelle-childs-candace-jackson-akiwumi/ & https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2022/01/27/supreme-court-breyer-white-house/

schumer’s devious intentions: https://www.businessinsider.com/chuck-schumer-scotus-nominee-will-be-confirmed-with-all-deliberate-speed-2022-1

The obamanite demonrats make a big deal out of racism and sexism … YET, what we’ve leaned with the obamanite demonrats – is that they will use sexism and racism if and when it suits their agenda. And that is what we are seeing the obama-biden-harris administration doing. biden and harris were placed to do barak hussain obama’s bidding, and to make sure the obamas’ vision is firmly cemented into place: what was left undone with barak hussain obama’s first and second coups, is being pushed through in his third coup; via biden and harris.

Fed up with the shitshow American politics has become, I turned off the talking heads, and determined to enjoy the rest of the drive.

I enjoyed my day out, bought a kettlebell, and saw all four snowcapped mountains: Mt. Rainer was visible behind Mt. St. Helen’s at various points along the road route, but there was no place to pull over and snap a picture.

Mt. Adams seen at Columbia City-OR.

Mt. Hood seen at Scappoose-OR.

Mt. St. Helen's (L) & Mt. Adams (R) seen at Warren-OR.

I bought a 10-lb. Kettlebell this afternoon to use in my weight’s workouts.

LOCAL HONEY

Last year I went out of county to get raw honey – today, I noticed a local dealer 😊

Tuesdays I normally drive to St. Helens, across the River; to walk the McCormick Park trail … then on to Scappoose just to kick around before heading back home: it’s a relaxing way to eat up daytime hours.

But, with Sara in the Hospital in Nevada, and Frank going in for a medical exam – I figured I’d stay close to home and wait for phone updates.

I texted David and asked if he’d like to go for a walk with me: he said, “Sure” – so, I parked at his place and we did a short walk around his block. It was a nice stretch of the legs; followed by a chit chat with his wife, a pat on the dog’s head, and a chatty cup of coffee. This took the edge off sitting and waiting (I’m not good at sitting, or waiting).

Afterwards, I walked the lower third of the Pacific Way Trail before coming home: giving me my 2 mile (and slightly over) daily goal.

1/3 of the Pacific Way Trail from 30^th to 38^th Aves. = 1.18 miles/1-way: https://www.wta.org/go-hiking/hikes/pacific-way-trail

Backyard Honeybee Hives.

Benefits of Honey: https://www.navmi.co.in/benefits-of-honey-for-health-fitness/

Blue-billed Ringneck Duck; male.

Muskrat & female Bufflehead.

Redeeming qualities of muskrats: https://loudounwildlife.org/2008/07/muskrats/

Hooded Merganser pair.

This tiny waterfall runoff, flows directly under the house; French drain setup.

French Drain: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/French_drain

Local Honey available ...

Nice day to be enjoying the outdoors.

I’m glad I decided to do this walk before heading back home 😊

The day was perfect for outdoor exercise – and I have found a local honey supplier.

Honey is higher in calories than sugar … but the whole-body-benefits are worth the extra 4 calories per teaspoon 😉

Honey is rich in taste, vitamins, antioxidants … and it has essential hormones that suppress appetite and aid weight loss. Honey before bed, fuels the brain to repair itself while you sleep. Honey also acts as a probiotic to keep the digestive system – and immune system healthy. Honey in your daily diet is a plus.

I had barely gotten through the front door at home, when Sara called to tell me that the doctors say her white blood count is sufficient enough now, to do the lumbar procedure needed to figure out what needs to be done to combat the brain swelling, and hopefully get her eyesight back. The surgical team will be taking/examining spinal samples from three different spinal locations.

She is scared, but also brave. She is going through this alone: being scared is understandable. Being brave is survival mode.

This week is still young – I hope and pray, that as it continues to unfold, there will be good reports coming in concerning Sara and Frank.

Meanwhile … I am exercising the spiritual power of prayer & physical exercise: it’s the only two ways I know to stay positive and reap beneficial results.

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UPDATE 7:30 PM TONIGHT: Sara called a few minutes ago – she came through the lumbar procedure fine; she sounds better today, though her eyesight is still very blurry – and she had to lie very still on her back for 3 hours (actually, she was restrained so she couldn’t wiggle). Some of the pressure on the brain was also relieved. Doctors will have more to say to her tomorrow after spinal specimens are examined. I asked her how she is calling me … she said, ‘siri’ 😉 She says she needs to hear “mama’s voice”: me 😊

SCARY NEWS ~ TRUSTING ELOHIM

Ephesians 3.12

I enjoyed an early morning walk around the upper end of the Lake; a bit nippy, but not uncomfortably so …

Half of the hike: Lake trail map - upper end.

Morning walk started here.

Signs of Spring; daffodils pushing up thru the soil.

Ducks pairing up for breeding season.

Making progress towards my Spring Goal.

Glutes workout at home.

Today's plan ... didn't unfold as anticipated.

… and was preparing to come home and start laundry, while waiting to receive 2 important phone calls: one from my niece – the other from a friend. Both are waiting for doctor diagnoses.

Sara’s call came as I was leaving the Park. Before we hung up, she was crying and saying she was scared. I bit my tongue until it bled to keep me from crying; and telling her I was scared, too. I told her I was going to keep her before Elohim 24/7. I said I was going to pester Him until there is a Good Report.

Sara called from the hospital.

Her brain is swollen - doctors are running tests to see if it is covid related.

I cried when we hung up.

And then I plugged into the Prayer Grapevine.

Prayers are needed; and appreciated.

Prayers are needed – and much appreciated.

I dried my eyes, came home and researched what she relayed to me; and shoved fear as far away from my thoughts as humanly possible – fear is our enemy … it can get the best of us in short order, if we indulge it.  What she is facing is scary: but God’s faithful love and mercy is bigger.

((((THANK YOU!)))) to everyone reading this post ... who joins me in this prayer request.