The months of September thru December will
always be difficult months for me to get through.
Things started spiraling out of control for
Bob in the October of 2018.
Elohim was merciful, and Bob had a good
Nursing Team 24/7 … but it was hard on everyone: hard on Bob, of course, who
was going through the hard times and coming to terms with the wrapping up of
his life on Earth – we were all going through it too, but he, of course, was dealing
with thoughts and feelings on a more personal level than the rest of us. It
really was “all about him”: it was his life, and he lived it – and ended it,
eventually, on his own terms to best of his ability.
It was hard on his {team}: they came to love
him.
I will always be grateful, and thankful that
they honored him with loving conversations, and loving ministrations in unpleasant
situations.
It was hard on me.
I loved him.
I loved US.
It was hard to watch the unfolding of the
unraveling.
It was hard to be strong for my sake.
It was hard to be brave for Bob’s sake.
Everyone (even doctors who did not agree)
allowed him the dignity of making decisions that affected HIS life.
We were both thankful.
O.c.t.o.b.e.r.w.i.l.l.b.e.h.a.r.d.e.v.e.r.y.ye.a.r.
But, today, this year; was actually a very good
day.
The emotion invoked was not so raw.
I didn’t cry.
Not even a sniffle.
I can feel my heart healing.
I am more actively engaged in what I am doing
“in the moment”.
I have to win over my emotions – or drown in
the depth of them.
I am deliberately steering myself into purposeful
and life-affirming activities.
I am functioning in a “knowing” mode this
year; as opposed to behaving like an automated robot that goes through the
motions without knowing, or caring.
I started my morning off with a trip into
town; with a stop at WalMart to get a refill inhaler …
… and then a stop at Lowe’s to buy a few
scallop bricks. Right now, I am using the bricks to hold the bird netting securely
atop the garden beds during the Fall/Winter months. I don’t really have any
other use for them at this particular time.
I thought that perhaps inslee had “woken up” and moved WA State into Phase 3 … or even the desperately needed Phase 4; but when I got home and checked that hope out, I was not surprised to find that instead of lifting his tyrannical and unlawful {mandates}, he instead ramped them up and is going to keep WA State in Phase 2 indefinitely.
inslee is a terrible governor – he has single-handedly destroyed WA State. THANK THE LORD he
dropped out of the Presidential Campaign! Imagining that nazi minded moron as a
National Leader is as scary as the possibility of obama in the Oval Office
again via his puppet, biden.
inslee needs to be unseated … and obama needs to join biden in the basement.
Anyway …
I don’t want to go down that rabbit trail again.
I need to save my energies for the fallout of
upcoming November 3rd.
If all Hell is going to break loose, and the
demonrats take America and Americans for a Hell Ride … I will need the saved
energies to push safely through.
Back home from Lowe’s, I checked the mail and
chucked the junk mail (basically it was a ‘mail-free’ day: it was all junk).
And I finished outside, what I didn’t get to
yesterday: slipping the faucet covers in place, tearing down the last 4 garden
boxes, planting the tulip bulbs I bought at Lowe’s this morning; and setting
out the Fall themed front porch stuff:
It was a busy day, today.
Small steps, admittedly.
But significant milestones, this year.
I will sleep soundly tonight 😉
**P.S: My sleep was
interrupted by the news that President Trump and First Lady have tested
positive for covid.
President Trump and First Lady Melania Test Positive for
the ...
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This is not good – America and Americans DO NOT NEED CRAZY NANCY AS PRESIDENT!
Please Elohim! Have mercy and ((((SAVE
US!))))
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