SOCIAL DISTANCING

My garden will probably die from neglect – it hasn’t been watered in days. The dingy yellow-gray smokey air is keeping me in-house.

I have been taking a lot of flack since March for “not social distancing!” – from family members as well as strangers who don’t know me; but think they have a say in how I conduct myself and live my life.

Well, they are all wrong.

I agree that I haven’t ‘sheltered in place’ the entire mandated shut-in’s, BUT ... I HAVE BEEN social distancing, in my own way; for my own personal reasons.

I am careful now about what I get involved in.

I am careful now in what I get involved and with.

25 months ago, I was in a different place in a different playing field environment; I could afford to wade thigh deep into global issues.

Now, getting my toes wet can be overwhelming.

There are piranhas in the shallow waters, and sharks in the deeper waters.

Bob is no longer here and my confidences have been shaken.

I can't wait for 2020 to end. Wildfires deliberately set - blm mobs screaming 'death to America!'

In American streets people are screaming for death to Americans and America - and politcians are looking away and demanding we agree! This is barak hussain obama's legacy.(https://www1.cbn.com/cbnnews/us/2020/september/these-blm-protesters-arent-hiding-their-hate-shouting-tyrannical-irans-favorite-chant-death-to-america)

I’ve never been comfortable in any depth of water; real or suggestive.

Bob understood the fickleness of water – I don’t.

Bob is no longer here as a safeguard; so, I skirt the edges of water and very carefully ripple the surface – never fully allowing myself to be seduced by its fickle charm.

Concerning high water levels and creeping water sneakiness of local and global issues, I choose more judiciously what gets my immediate attention; how I spread that attention around, and what I embrace as a necessary concern.

True American Heroes ... NFL, MLS, MLB, NBA, NASCAR, NHL players can all kiss my ass!

I can ignore political twaddle UNTIL it directly affects me and mine.

obama and his minions will not be happy until they have destroyed America. Things are out of control. colleges and universities are pogrom institutions.

There is a lot going on in my small corner of the world: fires are raging all around us as forests in the mountains, in the gorge, grassfires in urban areas ignite … and mindless/godless racial wars are spreading like wildfire, too.

Granddaughter and family with family members - safe. But they are friends with shallow/questionable people.

(https://truebluenz.com/2012/10/14/god-haters-channeling-karl-marx/)

I am glad Bob is not here to see the path his kids and grandkids have chosen.

It hurts my heart to know the kids are aligning themsleves with twisted people, and everything devisive and destructive.

(https://www.city-journal.org/portland-black-lives-matter-protests-riots)

FB user posted ... and it kinda fits.

(https://www.wethegoverned.com/who-are-the-arsonists-setting-rural-fires-in-washington-state/)

And governors are allowing obamanites to continue setting cities aflame, and pooh-poohing thier politician pals who brazenly break thier own rules – MASKLESS – while prosecuting everyone else who refuses to wear a mask.

THIS IS NOT {PEACEFUL PROTEST} - this is a political coup backed by barak husain obama and the demonrat minions that serve him with hateful fervor. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUBp1D7wWqA)

Issues that used to suck me in, no longer do: I'm with Elohim now, if the mindless minions want to destroy themselves, I'm standing back and letting them reap the rewards of thier abhorent behavior.

I can't afford to be sucked into everyone else's issues, or endless global grieving; I have my own stuff going on in my own life that needs my immediate attention.

Bob is not here – how the world’s issues would affect us, no longer matters: US is no longer a tangible concept.

The kids, by their own choices, are no longer a tangible part of my new life – they have moved on and kicked me to the proverbial curb. As Stacey said to me, “I don’t know what you think you’ll find here; but there is no place for you here. You are not relevant.”

The kids distanced themselves from us, but they only came around when they were needing something.

Friendships have changed in these past 20 months: old ones (still coupled) have fizzled out, and new ones are averaging about 6 months before they run their course.

Maybe I am expecting too much from the new people in my life: there will never be another Bob. And I can’t settle for less than I deserve …

My life has changed, and I’m not sure yet where it is going – what was important when Bob and the kids were in my life, has changed.

A LOT HAS FALLEN BY THE WAYSIDE.

And I’m okay with that; everyone else in my life will just have to adjust to MY choices in HOW I choose to live MY life.

I've been actively pursuing my own path to find my own balance. I cry for my family and for America; but I can’t allow depression to settle over my life.

And if they can’t … or won’t adjust and start behaving like decent rational people: the door is ajar – they can walk through it if they are that upset that their issues aren’t that important to me right now.

And I’m okay with that too.

This is going to play itself out, and I need to make sure I'm where I need to be emotionally-spiritually to get to Heaven.

Everyone thinks "on the highway to hell" is funny - it's not funny.

People don’t understand the words they are using.

The value of words have no meaning anymore - they are thrown around for political agendas, and setting America on fire.

TV media talking heads/political tools have nothing of value to say.

I don't want to have my eyes and thoughts assaulted by 150 hateful things posted, to find the 1 important nugget of important info.

I  deliberately distance myself from nonsense; I spend a lot of time in Nature.

So, YES … I AM ‘social distancing’.