The day started out feeling like a Fall day –
cold, damp, and a low-lying-gray-clouded sky.
So, I decided to brighten the day up by
drying colorful vegetables I had gleaned the other day:
Dehydrating veggies.
I had enough vegetables on hand to load every
tray in the dryer ….
Green & Yellow Zucchini set to dry.
Yellow Zucchini & Red Onions.
Red Onions & Yellow Onions.
… and there is more in the ‘fridge to do the
same tomorrow; different vegetables, but just a brightly hued ;-)
Today’s dehydration only took about 6 hours
to complete:
The book says 5 to 10 hrs. drying time; it was done in 6 ;-)
Dried Onion's & Zucchini.
Dried veggies stored/labeled in jars: more will be added to fill the jars.
While the vegetables were dehydrating, I also
de-iced the upright freezer: it collects water on the lower level and holds the
pull-out basket hostage, so every once in awhile, I have to grab a butter
knife, and work at “freeing it”. Today there was a more solid ice build-up than
usual, and it had me a little concerned – but it eventually broke free. I think
I’ll have to be more diligent in checking the situation.
I also outlined and cut out another 100 ct.
Bazaar items tags; I’ll start re-tagging & re-stacking the remaining items
in Cache Bin 1 tomorrow. My hands ached this afternoon, so I decided to give
them a rest: hopefully they will feel better tomorrow. I need something to keep
my mind off the building family hostility with Bob’s mother & sisters; and
re-tagging Bazaar items “just in case” I decide to do the Bazaar Circuit this
Fall/Winter will help with that, I think: it will keep me occupied for a few
hours and will redirect my thoughts.
I am SO stressed right now with all the
family drama Alex, and Bob’s mother and sisters, create; that I am seriously
considering calling off the family gathering at the Cemetery in Eden Valley the
end of this month, and just going there alone to lay Bob’s cremains among
family members there.
And, right now, I don’t give a rat’s ass if
the family gets pissed or not. I AM PISSED. I really don’t want to deal with
any of them at this point … this whole thing is hard enough without their continual
disrespectful interference and hidden landmines.
His family is really working my nerves.
And I am thinking that after August 30th,
I will never hear from any of them again.
I need to make other arrangements for check-up
phone calls: Tiffany hasn’t really been calling to make sure I am okay (as agreed) – neither have the kids (as agreed): I mean, it's only A 5 MINUTE "how're you doing?" call! I
could be seriously injured in a fall; or just die (I am at ‘that age’),
and NO ONE would know about it … or care, because the Wednesday night calls aren’t happening.
How’s that for the {"The family is here for you - we love you"} they all profess?
I never asked anyone for more than they could give - surely 5 minutes is not asking too much from my kids, or from Bob's siblings.
If I am phased out of the family, Bonnie won’t
make sure my cremains join Bob’s in Eden Valley when that day arrives! I have
to go back to Steele’s Chapel Funeral Home, and make sure they have it on their
file that THEY are to TRANSPORT my cremains to Eden Valley Cemetery when it’s
time to do that.
And, I suppose, I will have to remove
Tiffany, Merry, and Alex from my ‘Emergency Contacts’; if I am phased out, THEY
FOR SURE won’t want to be notified in any emergency I might have. Alex removed
himself from my life July 4th … and I am pretty sure the rest will
follow after August 30th. They don’t have anything to do with me NOW,
unless I contact them first – and then it is awkward for everyone.
They don’t know what to do with me.
I am the frustrating jigsaw puzzle piece that
no one wants to deal with.
So, while I ate one of my homemade pizzas for
Supper, I pulled up some filed videos of the last overnight road-trip Bob and I
did together last June, and listened to Bob’s voice – his voice always did
relax and soothe me.
Hearing his voice again brightened
up my dreary day :-D
I love you, Babe.
Always.
OX
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