Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Saturday, September 14, 2019

MOD Tanmen, China CLAM SLIPPERS


Have I mentioned how much I LIKE this slipper pattern?

I believe I have ;-)

It is SO EASY to make up – and lends itself well to modifications.

I just finished up this pair of slippers:

Giant Sea Clam - Tanmen, China
MOD Tanmen, China Clam Slippers

I like to design around nature's color schemes, and I like quirky creations: slippers are what I am doing this year ;-)

I have a few more slippers to knot up that I will make in this type of design – then, I think I will make up a few just plain.

After all, though there are some women who are as quirky as I am … most are just plain janes. LOL

Friday, September 13, 2019

WHEN I NEED YOU

BOB WAS MY FAMILY - HE WAS MY WORLD


Every day with my gentle giant was a day I always felt blessed.

And loved and cherished. Unconditionally.

our 1st date 45 years ago kick-started a lifetime of love that will never end

Even though Bob’s physical presence is no longer with me, he is always with me
(https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2018/12/widowhood.html).

I love you, Babe.

Always.

OX

NOT FOR DANCING – BUT I LIKED IT :-)


When went out to night spots the first year of our life together, if there was a live band playing where we ended up - Bob would request they play this song for me.

It is not a dancing song, but he knew I liked Eric Burdon's vocals - and I liked the organ ;-)

I love you, Babe.

Always.

OX

Thursday, September 12, 2019

I CAN DO IT!


Today there was a lull in the rain, so I went outside and pulled my garden stuff – and stored it away until Spring 2020. I could not believe my eyes when I saw those 2 little cantaloupes on the vine – I have waited all freaking Summer for cantaloupe and watermelon, and got nothing! Now, that Autumn has arrived … they show!

The cantaloupe vine finally started putting out fruit TOO LATE in the season! So … into the garbage can these went :-(

AND I managed to drain, tip (to drain completely), and store the rain barrels too … BY MYSELF!

Tipping was tricky with the 1st barrel – and I did drop it; but the fall wasn’t that high from the stand Bob built me to the river rock it fell onto; so, I think it will be okay. I don’t think it cracked … and even if it did, it is the one that the store sliced and sold to us damaged (which I did not notice until I set it up THIS Spring >;-P I was not happy to see that!); it would not be that expensive to replace if I need to go down that road. The rest of the barrels weren’t that hard to tip because I had found a rhythm and a way to scoot them back a bit before tipping them over:

Rain barrels drained & stored in the carport – Bob would be proud of me. And he would be laughing, and teasing me about being “a he-woman”. LOL!

I pulled the pots of geraniums off the front porch, and stored most of them under the front porch in storage bins – putting 3 of the potted geraniums into the shed because there was no room for them in the bins. Next year I will buy more bins; I LIKE geraniums, and they multiply every year.

And I pulled and stored the hoses too:

Geraniums pulled & stored: most were stored under front porch - these 3 in the shed.
Trellis' & Hoses pulled; & stored in the shed.

Then, I tackled the garden beds themselves – general cleanup, as well as pulling plants that needed to be pulled; laying those down for mulch to be turned into the soil next Spring; I moved the roses, sedums, and cactus from the front of the house, and put them out back where I can pull them quickly under the carport protection when stormy/freezing weather comes our way.

And I also moved the herb pots into the carport area until I can get to them to pull and dry inside ….

Eggplant – this will not survive the cold nights, but I hate to yank it out by the roots just yet …
My 24 YO Miniature Red Rose Bush: I bought this with my first LV paycheck back in 1995. The chives are about 22 YO – they came from Bob’s Aunt Marjorie Pentilla; I keep this small amount for myself, and pass some “extra” out to friends. NOTHING did well this year - the weather was c.r.a.z.y.
Herb Pots: Rosemary, English Thyme, & Oregano.
Bob bought me this Miniature Yellow Rose Bush as a Mother’s Day gift in 2000. Hopefully next Sprin/Summer will be more merciful to it ...
Herb Pots: German Thyme, Marjoram, & French Tarragon.
Hens-n-Chicks Sedum & Teddy Bear Cactus.

I put the wire cages in the carport with the rain barrels … and walked out to view the carport area street-side; Candy doesn’t want anything showing in the car ports except lawn furniture – yes, she is THAT persnickety:

Wire cages pulled & stored under the carport with the rain barrels.

Satisfied enough with outside cleanup, to please myself, I brought the geranium clippings I removed from the mother plants into the house and set them in water prepped with Miracle Grow, hoping they will root and not rot – I normally multiply my plants in the Spring, but they were really too tall to fit into the bins under cover, so I had to snip them this year. I hope they will thrive and give me new plants ;-)

Geranium clippings: some of these mother plants are 25 years old. And they have been moved from pillar to post – from Raymond, Washington (where I got my first plant), where we lived for a while … to here, where I added a few more: those ‘new’ additions are about 18 years old ;-) They will last FOREVER if cared for and stored properly.
Geranium clippings put in miracle grow and placed in a sunny window (my 'seedling/cuttings start' window).

And I went for a walk around Lake Sacajawea with Pam too – and was invited to go with Pam & Frank up to Elochoman Lake, next time they go; I said I will do that :-D I have not been there in decades, and I like being in the backcountry.

I like doing stuff like that … I MISS DOING STUFF LIKE THAT. I have not done anything backcountry in a year’s time, and I really do miss that.

I am SO THANKFUL for friends that know me – and understand me; and know what I need.


((((THANK YOU YESHUA!))))

It has been a busy day – but also a productive day; tempered with friendship time too.

I feel pretty darned “accomplished” today :-)

Wednesday, September 11, 2019

PAST-PRESENT-FUTURE


Today was a busy day – I ended up taking a 3 hour nap after I got back home!

Today I peeked into the past, dealt with today’s immediate issues, and started preparing for the future Winter months ;-)

I had an appointment in town around noon – and arrived early; so I did a Word Search Puzzle while I waited for the door to open. The puzzle I did was a word search based on ‘Auto Maintenance’: doing that puzzle brought back the memory of our first September together, when Bob would make a point to be home early night after work to grab the 2 metal garbage cans we had/throw them in the back of the pickup/go down to the marina where he would set up a make-do driving obstacle course for me to maneuver. THAT did not last long! Bob was an excellent driver, and anyone else would have been privileged to learn from him … but our temperaments just did not mesh – The thing would end with me coming home in tears, and Bob following me into the house in frustration.

Over time, we learned to come to peaceful agreements on hot topic issues.

And, I eventually did get my driver’s license.

And I was thankful to have it during those 4 horrible months I was tearing up the local road while Bob was in the hospital dying last Fall/Winter.

Around noon, after my appointment, I went grocery shopping while in town, and saw ‘Senior Multi-Vitamins’ for people over 60 – and thought to myself that maybe the Health Food Store may have better ones; so I made a mental note to myself to check that possibility out after I loaded my groceries into the car:

Grocery shopping is still a hard task to get through.

I drove over to Kelso, and read the large piece of paper spread & taped across the Country Village window: they had moved! And the address meant nothing to me – nothing at all: I couldn’t place it. So, I thought, “I’ll just punch it into the navigation program, and the car will take me right to it”. I had watched Bob do that enough times, that I felt reasonably confident that I could do it too.

WRONG!

It was not as easy to do as it seemed while I had watched Bob do it.

But I eventually DID manage to DO it – and did a mental happy dance, feeling Bob had been watching me struggle, and applauded my eventual success ;-)

I learned how to use the navigational feature of the car – Bob would be proud of me ;-)

The car did take me to the new location … and I realized that I could have walked to it from the grocery store! Reading an address doesn't TELL me anything! Landmarks DO. So, now I know where it is for future visits :-D

The saleswoman told me that, yes, they did carry multi-vitamins for Seniors – so I bought what I thought would work for me, as well as Iron supplement capsules: I am severely anemic … so much so that doctors before I stopped using doctors, wanted to have me do blood transfusions; but I refused – and still refuse. I try to get my vitamins and iron through foods organically. My garden didn’t do so well this year due to the whacky weather here in the PNW, so I will try to o the vitamin regime this year.

I normally do not buy vitamin supplements, because my body rejects vitamin supplements, and they are just a big waste of time and $$.

But I really got very sick last year because my body was so run down after the 4 month death watch – and I do NOT want a repeat of THAT this year. I have been taking better care of myself this year, but I will need vitamin help to keep my body healthy because my garden was a bust this year … and when Alex took me to Yelm to get some meat orders, he did not want me buying liver because he hates liver and didn’t even want the wrapped meat in his car: so I was not able to get my organic iron supplement that way; I have been buying Liver with Onions meals at the Indy Way Diner at least twice a month, but the meals are $17 each, and that gets very spendy after a while. I am hoping to get to the Yelm meat market, myself, the Spring of 2020 to get some Liver, but in the meantime, I will try the iron capsules; and hope and pray my body does not reject the supplements.

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

SASQUATCH LIVES - MPO


I know this for a fact – and, so did Bob.

We know this, because in 2004, we actually HEARD what we believe was Sasquatch screams in the wilderness area of Wenatchee National Forest area.

Our granddaughter was living with us at the time, and we were Home Educating her: I had always been a Home Education Advocate, and as early as 1975, wanted to educate our daughter at home instead of sending her to Public School … but Bob’s Grandmother, Myrtle Smalley had been a pioneer School Teacher in Eden Valley, and went on to become the first woman Superintendent of the Wahkiakum School District later on, and Bob was insistent on public schooling; so Stacey went to Public School until it was even obvious to Bob that Home Education would be the wisest choice in the 1980’s; so I pulled Stacey from public school and taught her at home – like I wanted to do from the get-go. And I NEVER put another child in my care back into the public schools. Ever.

Anyway …

In 2004, we were Home Educating our granddaughter and we were studying the Universe, the planets, and doing a Fall themed Unit Study with bats: I thought this would be a good time to introduce our granddaughter to wilderness camping, too. I tied the concept up with, “And, Babe, we will have Precious (my ½ Timber/1/2 gray wolf) with us – she’ll make sure we’re kept safe.”

Bob wasn’t keen on the idea, but he went along with my idea.

So, I contacted the right connections to make this happen, scheduled a camp date & site – and the pickup was loaded with what we’d need for this adventure.

Off we went when that September date came along ;-)

I was excited to show Alyna the beauty of the wilderness experience: I was really looking forward to pitch black nights with bats in flight against the backdrop of a brilliantly highlighted Milky way. Living where we were, stars were brightly showing … but the Milky Way was lost in the glare of street lights, porch lights, and the distant city light: it just CULD NOT BE SEEN.

And I wanted her to see it; in ALL it’s splendor.

And I also wanted to give my beautiful wolf a wilderness experience too, as a special treat for her. We were living on the outskirts of the city, in a country environment … but it wasn’t ‘wilderness’: and I thought an honest-to-God-wilderness experience would be something she’d enjoy.

I knew I would ;-)

Bob was humoring me.

He loved me :-D

I think Bob actually thought I had bitten off more than I could chew … but, I had been raised in the wilderness area of Minnesota (no running water-no electricity-no inside toilet-we hauled our water from the lake MILES AWAY, in 6 large metal milk cans, we used kerosene lamps when the sun went down, and we used an outhouse that was a significant hike from the house) with a beatnik-hippie mother, and a father who had been raised with pioneer parents (Jay was the 14th of 16 children); so wilderness was not something that frightened me – I actually ENJOYED the wild seclusion of wilderness: bright lights, hustle & bustle of town/city life, and community living was not something I enjoyed – I tolerated it for Bob’s sake, because HE wanted it. I was really looking forward to leaving ALL THAT behind and immersing myself in our little adventure. And I hoped my family would come to enjoy it too.

Well …

Our adventure started out crossing Cayuse Pass, where we saw a peak that resembled a howling wolf – so Alyna dubbed it ‘Dog Peak’ ;-)

Cayuse Pass - Washington State
Home Education Subject: Wilderness Camping trip. 15 years ago. Wenatchee National Park.

A little further along, we came to Tipso Lake, which we visited every year, when weather would allow (some years we couldn’t even reach it due to late season or early season snowfall). Here we would catch a glimpse of Mount Rainer peeking at us from across the way, and walk out to the Lake for a stretch of the legs before continuing on.


Bob - in the red hat, sitting by the lake.
Mount Rainier peeking at us from a distance - lakeside view, above Bob's head. 
I love it here.

On this particular trip, Alyna picked up some rock here to add to her Wilderness Experience Journal …

Mount Rainier peeking over Peaks. Cayuse Pass.
Another hill Alyna renamed, & Lake Tipso. Wenatchee National Forest.
Stilpnomelane in Quartz. Wenatchee National Park. Lake Tipso.

It had been a long drive from home to the Lake already, and we wanted to reach our campsite and get set up before dusk; so we didn’t stay as long at Lake Tipso as we normally would, but left early and pushed on, to Pleasant Valley Campground.

The campground was pretty primitive. The campground atmosphere gave a whole new meaning to ‘wilderness experience’ – the whole place looked deserted and more than a bit eerie: everywhere we looked was decay and death. Bob & I looked at each other – we were picking up uncomfortable vibes:

GIANT anthills EVERYWHERE. Pleasant Valley Campground
Wenatchee National Park.
Pleasant Valley Campground. Wenatchee National Park.

But, we {were game} to make the best of a dicey situation, thinking to ourselves that maybe we’d adjust – and the sense of total desolation of the campsite’s environment would lessen. Eventually.

The night started out okay, despite the eerie vibes we were picking up from all the decay and death surrounding us: we set the tent up, explored the furthest end of our camping area … and I suggested we could hike that stretch of wilderness across the river tomorrow, had Supper; and around dusk, we toasted marshmellows and enjoyed the solitude – we were the only campers in the campground that night. Right behind our campsite, the American River flowed, swishing and gurgling over river rock – and bats were starting to flit about, above our heads:

Pleasant Valley Campground. Wenatchee National Park.

When it was sufficiently pitch black enough to enjoy the brilliant cosmos show, we took up the flashlight and walked to a spot where there would be no tree canopy to hide the spectacular overhead display of the brilliantly highlighted Milky Way – IT WAS WORTH THE LONG DRIVE!

We were in awe.

We were enjoying our wilderness experience.

Everyone was content. Even Precious ;-)

We walked back to the tent and settled into our sleeping bags on the air mattresses – Alyna in her own sleeping quarters. Precious stretched out alongside Bob & I, as usual – like she would sleep at home. We all dropped off to sleep immediately: it had been a very long drive – and we had spent quite a long time gazing at the Milky Way; we were all tuckered out.

Around 3 a.m., WE HEARD IT!



I heard it first. The scream startled me awake – my eyes popped open, my heart was hammering, and my first thought was, “WHAT the heck is THAT?”

I am a country girl. I had been raised in the backcountry wilderness of Minnesota for 3 years – DEEP backcountry: I was very familiar with wild animal sounds. THIS SOUND I HAD NEVER HEARD BEFORE. Ever. It started out like a haunting banshee scream … went into a torturous cry … and ended in a haunting howl. ALL this was ONE CONTINUOUS SOUND that flowed and ebbed without a single break in the crescendo.


I lay there, on my side of the mattress, listening – straining to pick out a specific identifying sound, and trying not to be afraid at the intensity or the passion of the mournful scream that had started me awake.

My next thought was, “I don’t know of ANY animal that sounds like THAT!”

My next concern was Alyna, in her sleeping quarter of the spacious tent, and that if we had to make a run for the safety of the truck – a mere 5 steps away from the tent’s zippered entranceway … the truck seemed too far away. I was afraid for my granddaughter’s safety if safety became an issue.

As I was thinking that thought, Precious bolted straight up from where she’d been peacefully sprawled and her entire body was on alert: her ears were standing up and cocked in the direction of the eerie and mournful screaming howl; the ruff around her neck was bushed out and the ridge of back fur along her spine was straight and standing at attention too; her eyes were shining in the darkness and she was staring like she could see through the tent walls. I was thinking, by now, “When Bob wakes up, WE ARE OUTTA HERE – I will say I changed my mind about staying here, and we’ll go to Millersylvania campground, and finish our camping there.”

I could sense that Bob was now awake too – he has been alerted awake by my wolf’s sudden bolting and rigid stance alongside our mattress.

Bob was a country boy - born and raised in the country.

I whispered, “Are you awake, Babe?”

Bob whispered back, “Yes.”

I said in a low and semi-whisper, “Did you hear that? What do you think it could be? I have never heard anything like that – have you?”

He said, “Yes, I did hear it – and no, I have never heard anything like it either.”

We lay there together, being as secure as possible … in the closeness of each other … straining to pick out any identifying sound we could to explain the vociferous sound coming from across the river. IN THE AREA I WANTED TO HIKE!

Precious was, by now, glancing between our mattress & over to where Alyna’s sleeping area was. She, like me, was concerned about Alyna’s safety if we had to make a run for it.

Precious looked at me, waiting for permission to leave our side.

I told her it was okay for her to leave us to go stand guard by Alyna.

Alyna’s safety was paramount.

Listening to that eerie mournful sound rise and ebb with passionate intensity made me mentally kick myself for insisting on this {experience} that was a bit more than I had planned – or looked forward to. I could have placed my family in serious and immediate danger.

We could hear an elk herd walk briskly past our site. And I was again trying to mentally gauge the distance between the tent and the pickup: and kept coming up with the same conclusion – TOO FAR, even at a fast dash, if that thing – whatever it was – decided to cross the river. The flimsy material of the tent was no protection at all, really. And Precious’ presence would not be enough distraction to allow us time to make the truck either.

So, I said, “If that thing stays over there, as soon as it’s light enough to see what we’re doing, let’s leave.”

And that is what we did – as soon as twilight arrived, we started deflating our mattress … which woke Alyna up; she sat up and said, “Why are you deflating the mattress?”

I said, “We are going to go to Millersylvania and finish camping there.”

She asked why; and noticed Precious being antsy. So, I told her we heard something that alarmed us and we thought it better to go elsewhere.

She jumped up and started tearing her mattress down too. I never saw a kid move so fast in my whole life. LOL. And she didn’t bat an eye when she said, “Sasquatch! That’s why! We are leaving because Sasquatch lives in the creepy place!”

I wanted to burst out laughing at her suddenly serious tone, BUT I couldn’t laugh. I believed that what we had heard WAS Sasquatch – and it was no laughing matter: it was downright scary.

As we tore the tent down and was storing stuff in the truck, Alyna said she needed to pee. I looked at her and said, “Okay – the restroom is not that far away: take Precious with you and get right back here. No dawdling.”

She walked the short distance away and was never out of eyesight. Precious was walking alongside her, like they were Siamese twins joined at the hip. Alyna even took Precious into the restroom with her – GOOD GIRL! Both of them :-D

We drove to the restroom building and waited there until Alyna got into the truck. And then, we drove to Millersylvania – where there were lighted camp sites and a more welcoming environment where my granddaughter would be safe.

Precious still stuck to Alyna’s side like a Siamese twin – no matter what was happening; Alyna always had a close companion in Precious, who took Alyna’s safety very seriously – so much so, that when Alyna went fishing, Precious for the first time in her 2 year life, learned to swim after a slight hesitation (she didn’t like water, but she didn’t like Alyna being alone either, so she bit the bullet and dived into the water, the swimming instinct taking over the deeper the water got under her):

Millersylvania State Park Campground. We camped here every year since Alyna was 4 years old, until she was 12 years old. I liked wearing Bob’s polo shirts camping because they weren’t as confining as women’s clothing which seriously hampered my movements in the woodsy regions.

And Bob joined them swimming, later in the evening. What started out as a scary camping adventure where I seriously feared for my family’s safety, became a good & fun camping trip after all ;-)

Alyna, Precious, and Bob.

Stacey is embarrassed that I believe Sasquatch lives.

And she has forbidden me to speak of that camping trip in front of her children (even though Alyna is now, 24 years old) – and thinks I should be ashamed of myself for speaking about it to anyone else.

BUT, I KNOW WHAT I KNOW.

I was there – she wasn’t.

I am not apologetic and I am not ashamed.

What I am saying is the truth of what we experienced on that 2004 wilderness camping trip.

And the truth should never be silenced. MPO