MOVING INTO MY NEW STORY

Yesterday I made plans to get the listing paperwork for this house sale underway: pictures will be taken sometime this coming week.

I am very happy with the listing figures 😊

I want to strike while the iron is hot (so to speak) … and the interest $$$$ on mortgage payments is as low as it currently is. I can get a fixed ‘locked in’ figure at a good deal.

I’d rather pay mortgage on a home that (((I))) have the final say on (what I do with my yard/who can visit – and what time they can visit/how long I can sit on my porch – my own ‘quiet time’ hours; ect), rather than continue to pay yearly escalating monthly rent on the small parched earth my current home sits on, with little to no freedoms to actually live the life I choose to live: MPO is that locked in mortgage payments makes much more sense.

‘It’s My Life (And I’ll Live It)’: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qr5hB99B3U

Some people like restrictions (told what to do, how to do it, why to do it, and who they can do it with) placed on their lives: I do not.

Some people like living in congested, frantic paced, cities: I do not.

Some people like living in crowded suburban communities: I do not.

Some people, like me, like wide open spaces with plenty of elbow room to live, and breathe, in.

So, the process of moving on, is moving forward.

I don’t have much to do in preparation of selling and moving: I’ve twice downsized considerably since becoming a widow 31 months ago. There isn’t much to pack up. Just the same, I will probably have to hire a moving company to load the bulky, heavy items since I have no family men to call on to help load and reload a U-Haul. A moving company will be expensive … but it’s their job to lift and haul.

Dovetailing their schedule to match mine will be the tricky part.

Today, and tomorrow, I will be dusting surfaces and mopping floors, to get the house ‘showroom ready’ for the picture taking session next week.

I admit I had a little cry this morning.

We had bought this house 3 years ago, with such high hopes – looking towards a happy, relaxed retirement life together.

There was never a single moment of happiness here.

The neighbors on both sides of us made sure of that.

And a fallout with the nastiest neighbor resulted in catapulting me from Wife to Widow; just 18 short months of living here.

Though I will be glad to be shuck of this place – packing up and moving forward without the love of my life is a major undertaking.

It’s not such a life shaking experience as adjusting to widowhood was.

It is an adjustment, just the same.

Hence the tears.

I believe this move will be a healing balm to my wounded soul.

And I believe I will find some sort of happiness, again.

Just the same, this move will be different than all the other moves.

There is no Husband to consider.

There are no children to consider.

There are no grandchildren to consider.

No one will be moving forward with me.

Family members won't be visiting.

The new house will not come to vibrate with the thumping of running feet, or the belly laughter of overnighting grandchildren.

Moving further along into my new life’s story … the new home will only shelter me.

It is a mental adjustment with which I will be gauging my new home.

I’ve never been down this path, solo, before.

It’s exciting.

It’s scary.

It’s liberating.

It’s bittersweet in all its emotional yo-yoing.

I don’t know yet where Elohim has planned for me to relocate and settle in for the next chapters of my new life.

I want out of Longview.

I am hoping for Graysriver or Naselle … but I am not limiting myself to those areas of preference. Finding a home there is not easy. Homes for sale there are as rare as finding hen’s teeth; and when they are available, people already in that area that have had their eye on them, snap them up as soon as they are posted, either on the wind, or by a family member realtor. Everyone is related to everyone there: and they like to keep the houses in the family – one way, or the other.

So, with that is mind, all open country between here and there is open for speculation and browsing: Graysriver, Rosburg, Naselle, Menlo, Pe Ell, Winlock & Vader.

My thoughts concerning Vader are on the fence. I really want to get further away than Vader … and most houses for sale there have been horribly ‘remodeled’ by self-labeled ‘carpenters’; those houses for sale there, really need a total overhaul by someone who has the $$$$$ and knowledge of real carpenter skills – like Bob. But Bob is no longer available. And I do not want to rebuild a house from the foundation, upward, at the material costs the demonrat covid-obsessed-debacle has foisted on contractors/buyers.

I don’t mind manageable move in costs – like a new roof, or new flooring; but I can’t afford to correct a clueless DIYr’s costly mistakes.

I want an affordable home.

But I also want a home I will not be ashamed of … or that will put me in the Poor House with upgrades.

I am living on 1 paycheck now.

I do not have the backup resource monies that were available before.

Any and all home have to be viewed with an “as is” eye, now; because repairs, upgrades, and personal perks, will take a bit longer to accomplish with one limited funds paycheck, than they were with the flexibility enjoyed previously.

Getting this house ready to sell, I’m juggling a lot of emotions right now.

‘Good Things Are Coming My Way’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WEYcRsuUy-Y

If I didn’t know Elohim was “already on it, Val”, I’d be a basketcase.