I woke up the Ruach HaKo’desh admonishing me to check myself concerning a certain situation I have been dealing with lately: my frustrations are justified, but my attitude is not. Anger is coming too fast, too strong, and too often. So, I need to check myself – and realize (as it was impressed on me), that I “am better than that.”
Concerning how I deal with this situation going forward: I can
be bright about it.
I can be bold without letting anger get the best of me.
I can check myself when I feel my chain being jerked by the
jerks.
In short … I am – and I can be – better than
I have been when the heat's been turned up π
So, I got up and drank a cup of coffee to clear the sleepyhead cobwebs
that shorter, darker days bring with them. I also checked the weather forecast,
and saw that the outdoor temperature was a 35-degree temperature this morning;
with a notice that sleet would be falling with the rain. As I rinsed my coffee
mug, I mused that I had a dentist appointment to make by 11 AM, and was hoping
the roads would not be icy when I left the carport.
I would also be attending a community meeting later in the
evening (refer to the ‘check’ comments above), and it would be cold and
wet getting from the car to the building both times: I decided to wear
boots.
By the time I reached the bedroom closet, I knew what I would be
wearing π
The day would be gray, and I’d be wearing gray jeans: I would
offset the dullness with bright, bold color π
I like my red boots, but the soles are slick, so I grabbed the
ice-gripper apparatuses that slip over boot/shoe soles … and put them in
the car cubby in case they were needed. They weren’t π
The dentist I go to when I need to, is back in the old location: YAY!
A new building was built on
the old foundation, but it isn’t very appealing. It actually looks out of place
in Kelso – it’s too modern for the locale. But, it is what it is. I suppose
that over time, it will grow on people.
My appointment went very quickly, my mouth wasn’t as sore as it
usually is after a dental appointment, and I had a little $$ left over from the
billing … and, I decided as I pulled out of the dental parking lot, to treat
myself. I was hungry – I was hungry for Chinese food: so, off I drove to
Kalama.
The rivers were at high water marks, but there was no local
flooding: Kalama does flood every couple years. But this year, it was ‘safe’ π
I came home, and was putting my leftover lunch in the fridge,
when I got a text telling me the community meeting had been postponed. I am
thankful. I am really tired of the constant fighting over stupid stuff, just
because one couple, in particular, are tyrannical bullies that ramrod what they
want down everyone else’s throats.
Because I have a lightening rod temperament, and a no-nonsense
attitude, I have been elected by the vast majority that does not want to be
ramrodded to sit in the meetings, and take the bull by the horns (so to speak),
and wrestle the bully demands out of the whole picture. I don’t mind being vocal. I
don’t mind going toe-to-toe, and nose-to-nose; what I do mind is the
constant infighting, tyrannical overtones, and general timidity
that runs throughout the community gatherings. That is
frustrating.
If I’m going to be sticking my neck out – I want backup support
to be more than a nod and a thumbs up: I want vocal support. I was mentally gearing
up towards that end, when the text came through, postponing the meeting until
tomorrow evening. Good; that's another couple hours, for people to get bold, and
decide to lend their voices to mine.
I have also been asked (and have accepted) a teaching position Monday and Tuesdays. I couldn't do it today because of the dental appointment; but tomorrow and the following weeks, I'll be there from 11 AM until about 2 PM. I'm expecting kickback from the jerky tyrants (attendance will be small), but I intend to be faithful ... knowing the showing up will prosper on all levels. Nothing worth gaining in this life, ever comes easy.
Tomorrow afternoon I will be leading a class; and tomorrow evening, I'll be facing snapping lions, and wrestling stiff-necked bulls to the ground.
Yes, I am a bright and bold woman.
My life is colorful: every which way.
Tomorrow is going to be a very busy day.
But tonight – having enjoyed a reprieve from the lion’s den – I kicked back and
relaxed π
I continued work on the preemie baby sacque, while I warmed my
toes by the electric flame …
I like making these little gowns. I like thinking of the little
babies that will wear them. Preemie babies fight so hard to live. Below is just
an example of what preemie families face:
Tru Story – Adventures in the NICU; (1 pound
baby girl's fight to live): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bB9tC_CoPHw
I watched vintage movies on YouTube:
And I ate my left-over lunch for Supper π
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