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Saturday, April 30, 2022

NAOMI JUDD DEAD

 Today.

She was a handful ... and a drama queen ... BUT she highlighted that ANYONE can pull themselves up by their bootstraps and make a successful life for themselves.

Naomi & Wynonna Judd Background: https://www.pbs.org/kenburns/country-music/naomi-wynonna-judd-biography/

Her life story was truly a rags-to-riches story.

The statement put out by her daughters sounds like she took her own lifeand a radio station in Nashville actually conformed that … before the reporter was forced to recant.

Ashley Judd posted to her Instagram: “Today we sisters experienced a tragedy. We lost our beautiful mother to the disease of mental illness. We are shattered. We are navigating profound grief and know that as we loved her, she was loved by her public. We are in unknown territory.”

In 2017, Naomi herself, stated herself that she has struggled with suicidal thoughts throughout her life.

One Half of The Judds Dies, Age 76: https://www.cnn.com/2022/04/30/entertainment/naomi-judd-death-mental-illness/index.html

Those statements sound like suicide was the cause of death.

The Judds – ‘Mama, He’s Crazy Over Me’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iw4usPs9UU8

The Judds – ‘Grandpa, Tell me About The Good Old Days’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJdFv361Acw

The Judds – ‘Give A Little Love’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uypBaJWL1YM

The Judds – ‘Rockin’ With The Rhythm’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09S6A3yfzCM

The Judds – ‘Love Can Build A Bridge’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdnCIyzi5ro

LIFE AMONG THE RUINS

The month of May is going to be c.r.a.z.y.b.u.s.y. … a lot going on; so, today I decided to drive to Eden Valley and collect the memorial grave vases; so they could be replaced with newer/updated ones for the family plots.

First, I needed to prepare myself mentally.

Then I needed to grab some coffee on the way out of town.

And I needed music – music that I could jack the volume up and just let it rip. I thumbed through the disc folders until I found a CD that would fit the mood of the moment: then I slipped it into the player, stepped on the gas petal, and made tracks for my destination.

Going to Eden Valley to collect the flower vases for refills.
Rocky Road sounds good ... emotionally, it will be a 'rocky' day, today.
Eden Valley Cemetery from Longview - via Ocean Beach Highway & WA-4 W; 2 hr 10 min (102.10 mi). Straight there and back, no side roads.
Music for the road ... Bob's handwriting makes me smile; and it keeps the memory of him present.

I played that CD all the way to the Eden Valley Cemetery 😊

Enroute, driving the Eden Valley Road, I spotted a Bald-headed Eagle.

Memories of Bob in the flesh were poignant as the music blared.

Thoughts of Bob now, in his spirit body were also poignant; and I knew as I watched the eagle take flight, that Bob was thoroughly enjoying his life above the clouds. Bob always loved to fly (he was only 20 hours away from getting his pilot’s license when we married: it was his choice to let that aspiration fall by the wayside – I encouraged him to continue the instruction) … no doubt he’s having the time of his life in the great blue yonder. And beyond 😉

Eden Valley; Iron Butterfly, 'Mirage' song.
Iron Butterfly – ‘My Mirage’ song:
Eden Valley Road, Rosburg-WA
Bald-headed Eagle.

The entire mood of the moment was pure Bob. Bob loved Iron Butterfly. Bob loved Eagles. Bob loved Yeshua; and I am sure Bob loves palling around with Yeshua, now. Bob is not unhappy in his New Life.

And I am trying to get happy in my New Life, down here on Earth. It’s a continual work in progress, and I have made good leaps and bounds in that forward progression. I really have nothing to complain about, in this New Life of mine: Elohim had been very gracious – and faithful.

I just miss Bob.

In the flesh.

Thankfully, The Ruach Ha’Kodesh doesn’t let my thoughts dwell on that.

My wandering thoughts are firmly reined in, and redirected.

As I walk from family plot to family plot, finally reaching our Plot … my thoughts are focused on Life.

There is life flourishing in this place of ruin (death is ruination of everything we have known before the Grim Reaper came to collect on our life’s mortgage). And though my husband’s cremains lie here, I know that Bob’s spirit is fully alive and enjoying life as he never experienced Life before.

Joy is the flip-side of sadness.

I am thankful to see so much of life’s force blossoming abundantly 😊

Eden Valley Pioneer Cemetery; Iron Butterfly, 'Termination'.
Iron Butterfly – ‘Termination’ song:
Wildflower Wood Hyacinths outside the perimeters ...
Grandpa & Grandma Smalley's Bouquet collected.
Dad Hargand's Bouquet collected.
Bob's Bouquet collected ...
Someone left a b.i.g. flocked bow exactly where Bob's cremains lie; I don’t know who, but I thank them – and by the looks of it, it’s been there a couple months.
Today's gatherings will be replaced with updated new bouquets.
More Wood Hyacinths - inside the cemetery perimeters.
Purple hued ornamental Maple bursting with color.
White Daffodils.
Rhododendron tree in full bloom; busy bees buzzing from blossom to blossom urged me to keep moving ...

I like to keep Bob’s Plot Solar Light jazzed up, or replaced; so I brought that home to see if it still has life in it 😉 I also noticed that there was a solar light at Dad Hargand’s headstone – and I know that I didn’t place the lamp at Dad’s plot, or the big blue bow at Bob’s placement: both have been deliberately placed … I’d like to find out who did it, and thank them for being thoughtful.

Back home, I set the solar lights aimed at the sunrays: if they don’t spark, I have some others that I can take back to Eden Valley with me later this month.

Placed in direct line of sunlight ... if these lamps are played out, they will be replaced.

The solar lights kinda reflect our relationship with Elohim: our lives only catch a spark of life when we stayed tuned to the Sonlight 😊

Friday, April 29, 2022

SHABBAT ~ The Beauty of Shabbat

For me, the beauty of Shabbat is the outpouring of the love that makes it so special 😊

I love Elohim with all my life, heart, and soul; no competition allowed – hands down, Elohim wins.

I love Yeshua with all my life, heart, and soul (Yeshua is equal to Elohim; they are in fact, One); Yeshua is also, in fact, my Husband 😉

I loved Bob with everything earthly possible; I love Bob still: and while Bob walked this Earth with me 3¼ years ago, and Bob knew I loved him above everyone and everything else on earth … Bob also knew that he stood 2nd place in line to Yeshua. And Bob was okay with that.

Elohim, Yeshua, and Bob taught me what love is all about.

Elohim, Yeshua, and Bob loved me deeply: and I, in turn, learned to love deeply, too.

I am grateful for their love. That unconditional love grew me up; and carried me through the truly heart-rending times of my life to date.

Celebrating this Shabbat with a Spirit of Gratitude for Elohim's blessings.

Every time I meet with my friends they inquire if I’ve heard from my daughter and grandchildren yet; and my answer is always – “Not yet.” My friends know the whole story (most of them have gone through my heartaches with me over the decades; their hearts hurt with mine).

Since Bob’s graduation to life in the Celestial City beyond the clouds, God has graciously blessed me with friendships (old, and new) that have wrapped their love around me and adopted me into their personal family nucleus.

Today’s Earlier Post – MEMORIES & GOOD FRIENDS: https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2022/04/memories-good-friends.html

I am thankful, & filled with gratitude.

And I am in touch with all of them nearly every day of the week 😊

Monday is about the only free-floating day … and I use that day to do laundry; because laundry is an all-day event 😉 The rest of the stuff like dusting, mopping floors, cleaning the bathroom, ect., can be done after I’ve spent time with my friends because I can portion those things out over the weekdays.

One friend I’ve come to cherish, is my BIL Rick. I’ve only known Rick for about three years. Bob left my life in December of 2018 … and my sister Iris, and her husband Rick, entered my life in February of 2019. That was a true blessing: and I’d been waiting for connection with Iris for 55 years: Elohim was faithful.

On the right side - Iris, Iris's mother, Rick in the back.

Iris’s spirit stepped off Earth in September 2019; but Rick and I remain in contact. The other day, Rick sent me some genealogical information about my bio-father and his siblings – things I did not know.

Full Names of my birth father's siblings ...
A specific kindness to me concerning my mother.

Rick did not have to do this. My bio-father was not kind in any way, shape, or form to my sister Iris: and I am sure there was bitterness towards my mother. But I loved Iris as soon as I was aware of her existence (I learned about my sister when I was 10 yo, by overhearing the adults talking). And Rick is motivated by that love to connect as ‘family’ – we both loved Iris. And Rick is being kind to me as family members should be.

Familial kindness just for the sake of familial binding is a new experience for me.

Bob was the only person in my entire life, who ever truly loved me, just because I suck air.

But over these past three years of Solo Loboing, and allowing myself time and space needed for my heart to heal, Elohim has created a ‘community family’ for me; by surrounding me by old friends, sending me new friends, and forging strong Church ties, as well. “Family” in a Christian’s life doesn’t always include natural DNA: Yeshua taught that the Church is our Family (Matthew 12:46 & 50), and that a friend sticks closer than a brother (or sister, mother, daughter, ect.,).

Another 'family' branch - and one I admit I was reluctant to renew. But Elohim had other plans ...
Imperials – ‘Cast Your Bread Upon the Waters’ song:
2 CORINTHIANS ~ Chapter 8/Thursday Bible Study Post:

Life teaches that people, even Christian people, will be fickle and faithless: it’s human nature that people give into … people will get hurt, and people will continue to hurt people; but Yeshua will always be a true and faithful Friend 😊

Selah – ‘Oh The Deep, Deep, Love of Jesus’ song:

I am thankful, & filled with gratitude.

Yeshua has anointed my head with joy; laugh-lines are the result ;-)

I am thankful also that Elohim has specifically set 24 hours aside to rest our bodies and spirit – and to refresh our souls with His great outpouring of love towards those of us who are called out of the world’s chaos, and given kinship status with His Son, Yeshua, Who is also the Bridegroom of The Church (His Bride).

That rest – that love … is the beauty of Shabbat.

Joshua Aaron – Hu Yavo (hoo-YA-voh) – ‘He Will Come’ song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Utmqvg2qtDw 

As Shabbat unfolds, I get my Gratitude’s List out, and give Ehad Eloheinu praise for all that He has done for me 😊

The wine I selected for this Shabbat is a wine I saw in Albertson’s last time I was there – it is a combination of red wine and chocolate: a dream wine for women 😉

Perfect ending for a pretty perfect day 😊

Selah – ‘You Are My Hiding Place’ song: