I would not have survived otherwise.
There were days, in the winter of 2018 following Bob’s passing from this life to the next, that I could barely function ... prayer wasn't even on the agenda. And I am a Prayer Warrior! But, I just couldn't. On those rare days when I tried, all I could eek out was, "Help me, Yeshua. Please. Help me. Thank You."
I was a walking zombie.
For the 1st time in my Christian walk, I was lost.
Floundering.
Drifting.
Missing Bob with a pain so acute and so deep, I numbed myself to survive the loss of his presence in my new life.
I didn't want to feel.
Prayer involves feeling ...
Later in 2019 - in March - when I started
venturing out of the house; and started shaking off the numbness, friends (and
even strangers neither one of us knew), would hug me and say, "I've
been praying for you."
Yeshua had helped me, as I pathetically eeked out in my weak cry for help: He pricked those people's thoughts and opened up their hearts to me - to keep me always in their thoughts and prayers.
Though I was unaware of their prayers, the prayers strengthened me and nourished my soul. They literally saved my life.
I
am grateful.
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