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Sunday, June 14, 2020

RADISHES, NECK WARMERS, AND MISSING MY SOMEONE

This morning I got a call from my back fence neighbor, Trudy, asking me if I could meet her at the fence – I laughed and said I could. When I walked outside, she had a bag of freshly picked radishes for me … she planted an abundance of them and her little garden box is pumping out more than she and Ed can eat ;-)

I like radishes, but I knew the ones I carried into the house would go bad before I could eat them, so I decided to freeze them and use them throughout the months ahead :-D

Sliced radish greens; for soup greens.
Shredded radish bulbs.

I’ve never frozen radishes before, but I didn’t see why they couldn’t be frozen … so, I did. Of course, frozen radishes can only be used in recipes where their altered texture – due to freezing – won’t take away from the taste aspect. Most people familiar with radishes only use them sliced into salads, or as appetizer tidbits. But there are other tasty ways, too, to enjoy radishes in your diet:

*Add thin slices to your sandwiches.

*Add a few grated radishes to coleslaw.

*Add a peppy kick to your tuna or chicken salad sandwich by adding 1 to 2 teaspoons of chopped or shredded radishes to your sandwich.

*Make a radish dip by blending ½ cup yogurt, ¼ cup chopped radishes, 1 minced garlic, and a splash of red wine vinegar until smooth.

The health benefits of radishes are pretty awesome :-D Just ½ cup of radishes will give you roughly 14% of your recommended daily allowance of Vitamin C. Vitamin C is an antioxidant that helps battle heart disease, some cancers, and other bodily diseases. Vitamin C also helps prevent cell damage caused by aging, unhealthy lifestyle choices, and environmental toxins. Vitamin C also plays a key role in collagen production – which supports healthy skin and blood vessels.

Radishes are also a natural antifungal, and are a friend to women! Radishes contain an antifungal protein that aides in killing and clearing up vaginal yeast infections, and oral yeast infection (aka: thrush).

Radish greens are rich in Vitamins A, B6, C; Magnesium, Phosphorus, Iron, Calcium, Potassium, Fiber, and Folic Acid.

Radishes are almost a powerful addition to you diet as zucchini is!

As I was bagging them up and putting them in the freezer, Trudy sent me a text inviting me to go hiking with her, Ed, and Bill on Wednesday. I’ll go, of course – it is enjoyable; Ed is 78, Trudy is 76, and Bill’s age is somewhere between them and me; I’m ‘the baby’ at 63. LOL

This will not be an official hike though because WA State has not yet reached Stage 3; but we are going to go hiking anyway. The way things are going in this state with durkin and inslee at the helm, we may NEVER reach Stage 3; they are drunk with power and enjoying the nazi tactics on both the covid-19 front, and the chaz uprising in seattle.

Speaking of the political nonsense that is tearing American apart at the seams … it’s times like this I really miss my someone’s actual physical presence.


Over the course of the past 17 months (18 months tomorrow), I have made peace with widowhood, being a solitary solo lobo, and an occasional third wheel. I am learning to do things without calling Kerry down off his mountain homestead to help me. I am learning to step outside my comfort level, and ask for help and advice from strangers, when the occasion arises. I am learning to go and explore new places on my own and enjoy them; alone, and on my own – places Bob and I had never been to together. I am learning to accept invites to join group activities; without bulking and shying away because Bob won’t be going with me. I am learning to accept invites for Supper at friends’ homes … or just hang out with them for the day, and not be bummed because they have spouses and family present – and I don’t.

There is just me getting the phone calls, the phone texts, and the invites.

Just me.

And I’ve learned to be okay with that.

This is my life now.

Just me.

I know I had a great someone; and I know I had a love – and a love story – that most can only dream of. I was blessed to have lived that life with Bob. I am blessed that Elohim has been merciful and faithful to keep me sane and held up with His grace these past 17 months.

But then, something will trigger that emotional storm and breathing becomes difficult again.

I’m tired of grieving for America - 60 years is enough.

I’m tired of being caught up in emotional whirlwinds: Bob’s spirit’s exit from this Earth, the kids’ abandonments, the covid-19 hysteria and never-ending grief pall continually stirred up political agendas and media talking heads; watching our great Nation being torn apart by political madness, and losing people I considered friends because they are caught up in the insanity of the moment of too many global grieving moments.

I am tired of the politically motivated grieving cycle.

I want to laugh.

I want to be happily active.

I want to feel something besides politically motivated angst.

I want to feel Bob reaching out his hand to take my hand and give it a reassuring squeeze.

I want to feel Bob wrap his long arms around me and kiss the top of my head.

I want to feel Bob loving me and telling me everything will be okay while I lay across his big manly chest and play with his chest hairs.

In these days of back-to-back national turmoil that is morphing into a never-ending-grieving cycle … I miss the comforting embrace, kisses, loving, of my special someone.

Instead it is just me to comfort me.

Sometimes I dink around in my garden area.

Sometimes I go for walks; and long drives.

Sometimes I busy myself with crafting; I finished 2 knitted homespun neck warmers for Fall hikes:

2 Seed St neck warmers.
I somehow broke my plastic 10½ knitting needle; darn it.

Sometimes I listen to music.

Sometimes, I lash out in anger at grief laden situations and annoy the hell out of everyone  including myself: I’ve done that quite a bit this week. I am sick and tired of hearing about covid-19 and riotous mayhem … and of no one ballsy enough to step forward and stop the insanity.

Sometimes, I just stare out the window for a bit – looking up at the clouds in the sky; missing my husband.

Trying to find light at the end of the tunnel.

And sometimes, I just lay in bed before sleep claims me … remembering his smell, his touch, his eyes, and his smile: sometimes I cry a little – sometimes I don’t.

I always miss my someone. But in days of turmoil and unrest, I really miss his comforting presence.

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