Following heather’s
tempestuous phone convo last night, I woke up this morning with different
thoughts running through my mind; and one of them was to leave Bob’s cremains
where they were placed in August 2019 – there’s no sense of digging them
up to make that Eden Valley harpy happy: she wouldn’t be happy anyway … she’d
only find something else to bitch about. She finds an offense in every word,
every phrase, every sentence – and tries to scry silent thoughts so she can argue
that too, before a word is even spoken.
And I’m not a
people pleaser. I am not going
to bow and scrape to the smalley’s.
I believe in karma. I
believe that what heather been dishing out to me these past 4 years, will turn
back on her threefold.
The other thought was “pray
for your enemies” – that’s a hard one, but I’m learning to do it
since becoming a widow. I’ve had lots of practice these past 1,311 days: I
can do it.
Another thought dropped into
my morning thoughts, was, get up-wash your hair-wash your face-get dressed …
and go to Fellowship; don’t allow the trials and tribulations of the world keep
you from experiencing the joy of Elohim’s goodness. What is of Earth is temporal
– but what Elohei can give me, is eternal.
Ultimately Bob
is with Elohim, and that knowledge is what made today’s decision an easy one to
carry through on – it doesn’t matter
where his earthly remains lie; ultimately, he (the true him) is with
Elohim … and on the Day of Resurrection, Bob’s cremains will rise anyway: no
matter where it lies, or whose remains might get placed on top of his cremains
at some future time. Bob’s earthly remains will rise anyway to be joined with
his spirit when Yeshua returns to Earth.
And two scriptures came to
mind … Elohim highlighted these scriptures to me at the start of this new year:
“let the dead bury their dead, you come and follow Me”, and “be still and know
that I am God” – which I interpret to mean, “be still/rest/let
Him deal with it”. I can do that.
Yeshua is my
Husband, and He will work things out for my best end; I don’t have to understand it. I don’t have
to be given a detailed outline of how He will accomplish it. I just have to
know that He is doing it – and have faith that it is getting done.
And as far as
the smalley family is concerned; I’m d.o.n.e. That attitude of pig-headedness, no empathy, no compassion,
no consideration for anyone else … runs deep in the smalley family, and I’ve
reached my limit with heather’s crazy bitchiness.
It’s time to move on with my life. This chapter has no place for me in it; anywhere. I'm tired of the open hostility.
That means
leaving the cemetery behind, leaving the smalley’s behind: and moving forward
onto bigger mindsets, and better things.
That branch of Bob’s immediate family is the strangest people I’ve ever had to
deal with, so I am effectively closing that chapter on that portion of my Life.
I’m moving on. And I hope I
never again run into anyone like that family. So help me, God.
Cream – ‘Strange
Brew’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUOmmVoMQis)
I know where Bob
is; and I’m surrounded by a
huge host of those who went before me
– Bob is one of that heavenly host crowd that surrounds me, now. He and Yeshua walk
beside me, every single day.
I do not have to bow and
scrape to the smalley family.
That is ended today. It’s
finished.
