Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Monday, August 15, 2022

CHAPTER CLOSED

Following heather’s tempestuous phone convo last night, I woke up this morning with different thoughts running through my mind; and one of them was to leave Bob’s cremains where they were placed in August 2019there’s no sense of digging them up to make that Eden Valley harpy happy: she wouldn’t be happy anyway … she’d only find something else to bitch about. She finds an offense in every word, every phrase, every sentence – and tries to scry silent thoughts so she can argue that too, before a word is even spoken.

And I’m not a people pleaser. I am not going to bow and scrape to the smalley’s.

I believe in karma. I believe that what heather been dishing out to me these past 4 years, will turn back on her threefold.

The other thought was “pray for your enemies” – that’s a hard one, but I’m learning to do it since becoming a widow. I’ve had lots of practice these past 1,311 days: I can do it.

Another thought dropped into my morning thoughts, was, get up-wash your hair-wash your face-get dressed … and go to Fellowship; don’t allow the trials and tribulations of the world keep you from experiencing the joy of Elohim’s goodness. What is of Earth is temporal – but what Elohei can give me, is eternal.

Chrystal Lewis & Ron Kenoly – ‘Beauty for Ashes’ song:(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEDvSFGZt9I)
The coffee shack was doing bumper-to-bumper business this morning.

Ultimately Bob is with Elohim, and that knowledge is what made today’s decision an easy one to carry through on – it doesn’t matter where his earthly remains lie; ultimately, he (the true him) is with Elohim … and on the Day of Resurrection, Bob’s cremains will rise anyway: no matter where it lies, or whose remains might get placed on top of his cremains at some future time. Bob’s earthly remains will rise anyway to be joined with his spirit when Yeshua returns to Earth.

And two scriptures came to mind … Elohim highlighted these scriptures to me at the start of this new year: “let the dead bury their dead, you come and follow Me”, and “be still and know that I am God” – which I interpret to mean, “be still/rest/let Him deal with it”. I can do that.

Yeshua is my Husband, and He will work things out for my best end; I don’t have to understand it. I don’t have to be given a detailed outline of how He will accomplish it. I just have to know that He is doing it – and have faith that it is getting done.

And as far as the smalley family is concerned; I’m d.o.n.e. That attitude of pig-headedness, no empathy, no compassion, no consideration for anyone else … runs deep in the smalley family, and I’ve reached my limit with heather’s crazy bitchiness.

It’s time to move on with my life. This chapter has no place for me in it; anywhere. I'm tired of the open hostility.

Switched out the skirt for shorts to wear to the cemetery, this afternoon.
I'm closing this contentious Chapter of my Life ...
What is going on in Eden Valley under heather's tyrannical iron fist, is inexcusable
A phone call from cautious Dave won't be happening ...
The mindsets I've been dealing with these 4 years is ridiculously over the edge.

That means leaving the cemetery behind, leaving the smalley’s behind: and moving forward onto bigger mindsets, and better things. That branch of Bob’s immediate family is the strangest people I’ve ever had to deal with, so I am effectively closing that chapter on that portion of my Life.

Apparently, the shepherd hooks allowed to remain in place on family plots are selectively chosen ... and decided.
This will be my last living & breathing trip to this cemetery.
A doe and fawn ran through the cemetery as I was leaving.
And that episode of my life with Bob is finished.

I’m moving on. And I hope I never again run into anyone like that family. So help me, God.

Cream – ‘Strange Brew’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUOmmVoMQis)

I know where Bob is; and I’m surrounded by a huge host of those who went before me – Bob is one of that heavenly host crowd that surrounds me, now. He and Yeshua walk beside me, every single day.

I do not have to bow and scrape to the smalley family.

Driving away from the Past ... and into a more peaceful Present & Future.

That is ended today. It’s finished.



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