There
is no privacy in Heron Pointe Mobile Home Park – the houses are barely 6 feet
apart … and everyone is nosey.
Holland’s
red pickup has in my carport practically every day since around Thanksgiving
time 😉
The
neighbors are curious: they are used to seeing my carport empty. Until
recently, I’ve been gone every day for the past four years, from the time I
wake up until I get back home to fall into bed. I’ve been enjoying Daytripping adventure,
and making friends in the three counties I frequent.
This house has not been a friendly place for me since Bob passed
into Glory, and there has been no reason for me to stick around, so I was gone
most of the daylight hours. Bob only lived in this house with me for 18 short months – I’ve
lived in it for 48 months solo lobo … so, technically the house is more mine
than {ours}. And though I decided last year to start making it “a home for
me”, now that remarriage is on the table, I’m not sure how that decision will turn out:
the house is a real nice house, and it’s paid off; but there are bad
memories connected to it, and perhaps Holland and I will want to settle down to
married life elsewhere. I’m okay with that, if that is what we
decide to do.
Holland
spent a few hours here, with me this afternoon. This is the Christmas week, so
I wore colors that fit the week’s theme 😊
We
talked some more; getting to know each other more. Until recently our relationship
has been built on friendship – but we are entering into a more intimate
relationship now, so we need to know each other deeper. So far, we are in
agreement on most issues either of us have brought up. Our marriage will have a
Christian foundation, we'll be in it for the long haul; no divorce, no cheating, and no attempts to change the
other into an idealized version of someone other than the version we are
marrying – if one of us decides to change, it will be a personal decision, not
a forced thing. Both of us have been married; my husband Bob’s earthen vessel
died, and Holland’s marriage ended in divorce decades ago. Both of us are rusty
at the dating game: I wasn’t interested in dating … and Holland has been
waiting for me (seriously), so we are spending time getting to know each
other before we make the big leap forward in faith.
Holland
is actively changing his whole life for me. It’s a little scary to have that
much power over someone, but I am not taking advantage of that generosity. I am
however, thankful he is leaving Oak Point behind. Holland is
showing his love for me in doing this big move; and I am, in love, careful not
to push further than necessary.
Elohim
has blessed me with a love I never sought – never asked for – and
never expected to feel again. I intend to be worthy of the love entrusted
to me.
We are
good for each other. We are a good match 😊
After
Holland left, I called the Portland Office for the pension plan Bob set in place
for my provision, and asked how remarriage would affect that: it won’t … so,
that’s one less thing I have to “get settled” before we make the big leap.
Then I listened
to some songs that fit the current mood in my small corner of this world 😊
Vince Vance & The Valiants – ‘All I Want For Christmas Is You’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8HWHd0EYJA)
John Legend – ‘All of Me’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngq5Aw0Q6rQ)
Blake Shelton & Gwen Stefani – ‘You Make It Feel Like Christmas’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6wj78JNsQk)
Blake Shelton & Gwen Stefani – ‘Nobody But You’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xqyZowxfSe4)
Blake Shelton – ‘Anywhere’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UcLSjQx8GXA)
Blake Shelton – ‘Doin’ What She Likes’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=04WRI-0odjk)
Shania Twain – ‘You’ve
Got A Way’ song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1n0tBhJOlSk)
And I
finished the bottoms of the slippers I had crocheted the other night:
Tomorrow
I will drive into town, and God willing, the Office there will be open (and
not closed due to ‘covid-flu’), so I can “settle” that business - I want to talk about this important issue, face-to-face, not to a recording. We can’t make
an immediate plan for our future (and Holland’s red pickup can’t be parked
permanently in the carport) until this final hurdle is cleared.
