Wedding Song - God Knew That I Needed You

Tuesday, August 16, 2022

MISSING, & LIVING FULLY

I met with country friends for lunch, this afternoon: I barely made it on time … but I wasn’t the only one running late. The heat was making everyone lethargic.

Coffee was our best friend 😊

90-degrees outside, but the humidity was half that, so it was enjoyable heat 😉

I dressed comfortably with sandals, denim shorts, and a sleeveless denim top.

 
I like this top, BUT it looks like I’m wearing a maternity top! LOL
Hot weather is uncomfortable with ‘dolly parton boobs’ …

Everyone was talking about the updates covid guidelines: I ignored the excitement. I never got caught up in the covid hysteria – refused the mask, the vaccines, the 6-feet distancing, and the gathering lockdowns.

The pointless covid “mandates” were purely political – the fact that the guidelines have been {relaxed} is again for political purposes: the obamiden cartel is sinking in the primary polls; and no one with a fully functioning brain buys the BS story that biden is a legit President … nor is anyone interested in the spiteful congressional hearings about the ridiculous {January 6} dog and pony show. Hence the “new guidelines”.

The obamiden cartel knows they are losing points - time to do the shuffle hustle.

They are meaningless to anyone except the deadhead obamiden devotees.

The rest of us – yes, the rebels – have been living and enjoying Life for some time now; and we didn’t need the DC demonrats to give us permission to enjoy what our USA Constitution states clearly.

I was asked how I dealt with the Eden Valley Cemetery Mandates – and I said I ended the ridiculousness, there, too.

I’m pretty much a rebel in all areas of my personal Life 😉

CHAPTER CLOSED Post: https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2022/08/chapter-closed.html

And we talked a bit about Bob – how he impacted my life, and how he affected their lives in one degree or another. Bob was a great guy; and I always wondered how he came out of that snot-nosed, arrogant, and antisocial family

I miss my husband: I do not miss the crazy relatives.

2006-08-13; Bob. We were driving to our yearly Millersylvania Campout ... MAN! I MISS my man.
Lou Christie – ‘The’ll Never Be’ song:

At this junction of the corner of my life, I am taking hold of it and making it into a new Chapter where Bob’s family does not dominate in any sense of the word. The final nail in that particular coffin was driven home yesterday afternoon.

And I’m 100% okay with that 😊

Bob is no doubt smiling. I can now fully carry through with the promise I made to him, to live.

I’m not sure where my feet are being directed in this new Life Path … but I know I can confidently walk that unknown path, now. I’ve learned a lot about loss heartache, grief heartbreak, betrayal agony, abandonment frustration, and soulless relatives – and I also learned how to walk through those flames: I leaned into the faithful and unending love of my Husbands (Yeshua & Bob), that strengthened me these past 4 years.

Thank You, Yeshua, for never leaving me alone even though for all intents and purposes I was alone. Thank You for loving me unconditionally, protecting me, and placing me into a New Family environment where I am welcomed, loved, encouraged … and where a place is made for me to “fit”.

Thank you, Babe for giving me that push talk, {to ‘get on with life’}, at OHSU – thank you for forcing me to hear that talk even though I didn’t want to hear it; and thank you for loving me so well that I can do it. All of our married life, you were always unselfishly looking ahead and doing what you could to prepare me for a solo lobo life if “anything should happen”. You were a good, gentle, wise man – and a loving, thoughtful, husband to me. I love you. Always ~ OX



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