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Thursday, May 28, 2020

BEAUTY ALL DAY LONG



This morning I woke up thinking I needed to get the rest of whatever I plan to plant this season, into my garden boxes and various container pots. While I was enjoying my morning coffee, and slowly waking up in my cool air-conditioned castle; I noticed a flash of bright color fly past the LV windowpanes and perch in my garden area …

Sunny colored Evening Grosbeak bird – it had a pistachio green tinted beak: colorful all over!

Seeing the colorful visitor made me think of the hummingbird feeders I needed to replace: the past few days I’ve noticed that the large hummingbird feeders, Bob & I had bought and hung together, had seemed to have sprung leaks – I was washing the white railing and porch down every day so the red tinted sugar water didn’t stain the porch railing; they needed replacing.

One more thing from my life with Bob that I am forced to let go of.

If Bob were here, replacing the feeders would not affect me at all. But, Bob is not here, and I feel gut-kicked every time I have to replaced something we did together. Little by little, Bob’s presence in/around this house is disappearing. I don’t like it.

Yesterday, while in town, I swallowed hard, and bought 2 smaller feeders; this morning, I hung them. I am capable of hanging them, but ((((MAN!)))) I sure missed the shadow of Bob’s height and watching his long arms reach up to place them in position. Being the shortie I am, and being a solo lobo now, there will be no more sheltering shadow; no more long arms to ease tasks.

No more gentle giant to hug and kiss.

There is just me.

And I don’t like it.


So, I focus on the beauty that surrounds me in every minute of my new life days. I like watching hummingbirds. I hung the new feeders without trauma drama:

No leaks – no stains ;-)
As soon as I had hung the feeders and came into the house, a hummer was at the feeder :-D
I didn’t see any cracks in the feeder bases, but they sure leaked like a sieve … so into the trash they went this morning: I saved the feeder tubes to store the sugarwater-nectar in; in the ‘fridge.

That task done – and accomplished without tears – I gathered what I would need to finish planting the garden area; and got busy.

I had to pump the wheel barrow wheel again: I really need to break down and get a new tire pump; this one ... bought with Bob, is toast.

1 more thing to be trashed & replaced.

These {replacements} are happening to quickly.

To often.

Do I have to lose everything all at once????

Focus on the beauty, Val; not the loss ...


It was a hot 84-degree-day.


I was HOURS in the sun getting the garden planted & watered.

I am burned: my face, my nape, my arms, my legs, my feet.

My body felt the heat.

It was a beautiful blue-sky day full of promise – and surprises …

While I was filling my watering can, I happened to look up at the sky, and smiled …

My day was filled with beauty from start to finish.


My garden is totally IN; now.

It was a good day :-D

Now, after I post this post, I’m going to take a load off my feet and relax by finishing up the last of the Baby Sweater Jackets I’ve been working on:

I want to finish up the last of the Baby Sweater Jackets I’ve been knitting … and I ran out of yarn. Now what? I didn’t know if I had any more …
I did! I looked in every possible place there might be a small bit of left-over yarn ends. There isn’t a lot, but there’s enough to finish up :-D THANK YOU, YESHUA!



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